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| Ah ha! My light is getting brighter! I really enjoy some of the poems in this collection. The emotion really comes out of each individual poem, rather than a repition of darkness and cold. Although those themes are still explored, "Young Innocet's Journey" is a light-hearted poem which is rare from me. While my writing improved, so my academics improved. A correlation, perhaps? I'd like to think so. |
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Too Far Away Distant child Who sishes for attention See the dream just wash away the heart yearns For love and care But can't reach it at all It's too far away And won't come closer To a distant child Witha hopeless dream No more distant laughter No more distant smiles Only a long stretch of silence |
Winter's Lonliness I was left behind Forgotten in the dust Of Winter's tears Frost bitten and cold Shivering in fear Of pain burning in my heart With the fire of lonliness That surrounds my eyes As gentle warm tears Gaze into the night Looking out intoa land Covered by glistening white That embraces the world A beautiful sight Only brings sadness Back to my face Reminding me That this was th dust That covered my identity Hiding me from a world From a love Who left me behind To see nothing more Than winter's lonliness |
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Despair In a moment of despair I ran to a dark place Hiding withint my thoughts Wishint to be somehwere else Deep withint my memmories While the stale breath of blood Curses the air I breathe As fate is coming closer To bring me a realization That the world no longer cares I am alone In a moment of despair |
A wish of Hope Far away In a dream I saw Deep within my thoughts I was sitting in a valley Of the whispering winds in the long grass Waving about as the starry sky Rolled across the land Stretching from horizen to horizen Touching the distant trees and mountains OF a painted picture Which stood in a peaceful serenade I felt the warm winds Comforting my loveless tears Screaming from my eyes While I sat on the ground Looking up into the sky With an endless view Of everything in my life Sketched out in a map Drifting in the stars Telling me a story Of the dfeams I've hidden Fromt eh fear of light That brought me pain Still stabbing my soul Which questions everything I could see int his picture Ther ecam be no truth In an illusion of distress Bringing sadness to my heart As I sat in content Staring out there Only concentrating on a face Drawn in the sky That once brought me to another place That seemed to be like heaven Only lasting a minute The pain would go away Now as I sit alone My heart sends out A weak and simple wish To the stars I see Engraving my eyes INto the contours of the sky Traveling far into the distance Asking in return For a renewal of hope In the world I live in In the life I see In the heart, weak and dying Closing my eyes LIstening to the whipsering winds What do they tell me I can't tell I've waken up too soon |
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The Fear I Run away From I ran With tears in my eyes So warm and heavy Falling down my cheeks Sending a chill down my spine With the passing wind Hitting my face Burning my eyes Bloodshot and tired I ran My heart beathing faster My breaths becoming shorter With my chest compressing hard Pounding like a jack hammer Against the concrete Breaking it into a million pieces The feeling sinking in my heart So tired I ran With sweat drenching my clothes Misting off my arms Trying to chill my body That shivers in fear As the lost of bodily fluids Turns my dripping sweat Into the dryness of the air I shake hard and long I ran With allthe strength in my muscles Quickening the pace every moment Bringing a stinging pain As my muscles call for help but my strength allows me to go on Pushing and shoving Until I can't take the pain anymore I fall to the ground I ran To get away fromt the truth Dripping from my face Hurting in my muscles Misting from my arms Swelling in my eyes Shaking my body As I tried to get away Tried to leave it behind But I can't run away Fromt eh voices within That tell me I can't deny I can't hide the fact Sooner or later I'll have to face him And tell him the truth No matter how afraid I am I Need to tell him what I feel What I see What I need What I've hidden inside of me I'm only afraide of what he'll say |
You're a stranger in this town You're on the run From the pain But you're never in a place where you belong You're always a stranger in this town Eyes always look upon you Curiously watching For anything weird So you freak out Beginning to decline Drowning in yoru sorrows You run way Only to find yourself Where youdont' belong You are not who you think you are Until you find yourself |
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Untitled And darkness glances With envious eyes Black with sorrow-filled thoughts Throught the terrential rains Water crystals of time HItting the concrete Slowly washing grains of sand downt he dirty curb Blocked by soot-filled feet Standing on burning coals of want By this muddy sidewalk Of souless prints Idly standing in a lightless world Bloodshot eyes beholding a distant image Of a wonderous man Only existing at a distance of despair Can't be reached byt he out-stretched hand Can't be heard; shrieks fall silent Can't be seen with blindess A soulless child without hope A dying wish within her sorrow-filled heart To come out of the darken rain A dying wish of strength For the eyes of another |
Waking up dead I stare into the distance I fear what may become For I see nothing out there Onlyt eh blackness of my soul Suspended in the air Floating in the abyss What do I stare at? the truth has yet to be told Blindness masks the image Comfusion makes my mind run I feel I am connected To the things I cannot see I feel that what might be out there Is waiting for me to come Why is it that I look Still I see the dark An empty soul who fears That reality holds no meaning Life doesn't exist My breath no longer here The pain left so quickly The wound in my side The blood turned black Death is out thre I will soon arrive I fear what has become A nightmare for a meaningless soul Suspended in air See nothing but black |
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The Reflections Tells All It Hit me Harder than a brick wall And it hurt me More than a broken heart I saw myself IN someone else's mirror The refelction told the truth It hurt me, so badly To know that there's no beauty within me All I want to do is run Because it hit me No one really likes me For who I am With angry eyes I had seen The truth unfolded in the mirror Glaring at me Laughing at me Mocking me No longer can my eyes Encourage who I am With sadden eyes, I close them To hide the tears away |
Young Innocense Journey Skipping lightly Young Innocence dancing in the grass Wondering to no specific place Following the direction of her heart To lead her to her dreams Floating softly White clouds drifting in the sky And ever-lasting stretch of blue Shining with the wheat-colored light Brining a distant ray of hope Young Innocence can see what might come Lying closely Gentle rainbows were layed across the land Yougn Innocence stopped to smell the flowers The beautiful honey scent of inspiration The comforting message warms her heart The journey continues with her dreams in sight |
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Untitled Expectation rising But I fall short Can't keep up with the demand Too afraid to keep going Don't know what to do Looking for some help But side to side brings darkness And the feeling that I'm alone Falling short of success Because there was no one to turn to |
Rainy Day Memory The day is dark, cold The room is musty My hands are wet I'm too afraid To get off the concrete floor I can't stop shivering Or thinking about my past It comes back to haunt me On a rainy day When the pictures come in the clearest Everytime I look out the window I can't escape The painful tears I see in the distance So I run away Hiding in the dark Far away fromt he window I just can't keep wiping my tears away They always seem to come back |
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Untitled She hasn't moved From that window Sincethe day it started to rain She doesn't eat She doesn't sleep I dont' even know if she breathes All she does is watch the rain drop Crashing to the ground Sometimes it catches ona leaf A bush A car The roof on top of the house But for her, it never stops coming So she has never left the window But you can see in her eyes HOw lost her heart has become Her thoughts confused No one understands Why she doesn't come Back to the world Without rain drops No one knows Deep within her heart Hidden in her eyes She's waiting for the rain to clear Wanting the opportunity To see the sun again. |
This cold dreary room The room is dark and dreary My eyes cannot adjust While I crouch in a corner I shake and rock myself for comfort From the cobwebs that slowly grow With crawling spiders glittering in silk From the dirty that lightly falls Gently on top of my head Fromt he stale and heavy air Which makes me shiver uncontrollably Fromthe crusty, moldy ceilings Tot he cold dreary floors I always hide in this place But still I cannot escape The lonliness, the darkness This feeling I have inside Haunting my every thought Grinding into my soul Reminding me of the window Far away from here Across the dust-filled room Hidden inthe darkness Always filling me with content For the window keeps from me In the spaces of the dusty blinds A light that I fear and dread In curiousity and jealousy Why does it mock me? For the desires I have within Why can't I walk up And touch the light so dear to me? Still I crouch in the room Shaking and rocking myself for comfort Always knowing that across the room LIes the opportunity I'm too afaid to catch Here I'll always be With cobwebs; with spiders With dirt' with stale air With moldy ceilings; with cold fingers I'll always have this feeling inside I'll always have this tear in my eye |
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Untitled I'm lost again Can't find my way back To where I was before I'm so cold and alone I want to return to where I belong Yet everywhere I look The sense that nothing is right Doesn't seem to go away Somehow I know That I'm lost because I wanted to be That I may not be able to find my way this time Until this feeling Overwhelming my mind Finds the way back To the hidden darkness I gave it So I can find my way to The comforts of stablility But in a place lik ethis Where I shiver from the silence Doesn't encourage me To motivate my spirits Back to the way it use to be So I'm lost agan For how long? I couldn't tell you But this familiar feeling In a familiar place Drains the life out of me I've lost my hope again |
Laughter Grants a Wish She sits in the night The stars within the light Reaching to touch the ground And the world all around She hears the valley singing Its voice quietly bringing The tender caressing winds Brush thorugh the grass; by her chin Her giggles echo, lightly travel In the darkness, glittering with awe It sprinkles on the flowers's gentle face Spreading to touch every place When the full moon shines Here is where you can find That the touch of an innocent kiss Of laughter would grant one special wish Yet what could possibly please A little girl who giggles with ease Only to be able to laugh again Hoping the experience never ends |
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Untitled Even though My heart dreams For a chance to believe in myself I'm too aware Of the fear I have Hidden in my eyes Knowing that when I see it Knowing that when I'm close enough To make my dreams come true It'll make me weaker When it doesn't come at all And I wake up too soon |
Untitled My heart pounds harder The heat is rising My hands won't stop shaking My courage is hiding I stand here waiting With a path before me Wondering what my life In the distance is to be Can't walk any closer I'm held back too much It's doubt in my heart I'm uneasy to touch Can I find it within myself To look at the light Hiding the obstacles I have been fighting all my life Here is where I find The toughest challenges to met As hope shivers in my heart I know they are hard to beat But with each minute I wait The weaker I become Time is fading quickly My fingers are going numb The fear pivots in my stomach I'm still too hesitant to move IF I dont' do something soon I know that I might lose But still, I wait In the passage of years Only to hav found I'm fighting back my tears Here I'll always stand I've lost my chance to know My advice to you Don't let your opportuntity go |
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Chase a Dream The nights are cold As I lie in the snow Looking at the sky And wondering if you'll give me forgiveness It's so pale In the clouds That hang above me I'mnot srue if you'll want to see me again So many questions Coming to my mind As the stars begind to twinkle I sti up to look around My winter wonderland Admiring its beauty Somehow seeing myself With a smile With you Seeing my thoughts As black as the night Glowing in the snow Seeing my tears Jump into the sky To dance with the stars I want to get to you I want to talk to you I want answers to my questions So I jump to my feet The snow lightly falling off my clothes Glilttering in the night And ai scurry off into the distance Chasing a dream Powered by hope Wishing that I could get to you faster Somehow, I'll find The place where you have been All this time But I've been running Not being able to stop I tremble in fear For it's still so cold In the night Will I ever find you? Will you let me find you? |
Holding on Take my hand Touch it gently Guide it through the pain Comfort the tears Show me the way To fight Give me strength To hope Teach me life For the sake of life Just please Never let go. . . . |
