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Almost Blue
Almost blue
Almost doing the things that we used to do
There's a boy here and he's almost you
Almost
All the things that your eyes once promised
I see in him too
Now my eyes are red from crying
Almost blue
Flooding with this disaster became me
And name me as the fool who only aimed to be
Almost blue
It's almost touching
That we're almost through
There's a part of me that's always true
Always
All the things that nver come to an end
Now it is only a choice in a few
I have never seen such an unhappy couple
Almost me
Almost you
Almost blue
Hard Fall
I guess life is hard when you're just a girl
When everyone wants you to be something you're not
Should I close my eyes and try to hide from the world?
Stop my independence before I get caught?
Who knew things would turn out this way
No longer carefree day after day
Suddenly I'm the responsible one
Am I sitting on top of the world
Or is the weight sitting on my shoulders
Are the stones I skipped across the lake
Turning from pebbles now into boulders
Please take me by the hand
As I walk to this uneven land
And save me from myself
Before I hurt anyone else
Why won't the days pass by like before
When all we wanted to do was have fun
Everyone is changing now more and more
I'm just glad I'm not the only one
We're just not allowed to laugh and play
Think before you act is now what they say
Suddenly I'm the responsible one
I'll lie down and be tied down
I'd rather not move at all
I'll look back to see how far I've climbed
That's going to be a pretty hard fall
March 5th
I'll look up at the ceiling again
To stop myself from crying
My thoughts of us happy ever after
Are fading away and dying
I never thought it would end up like this
I almost regret our very first kiss
As I clench my hands into fists
I wonder how much better she is than me
As my world spirals down into a haze
It doesn't seem like this could be real
There isn't a world for me without you
I've had so much pain there's nothing left for me to feel
I'll wait all day by the phone
Hoping you'll call but you don't
I'll tell myself things will get better
Even though I know that they won't
Day after day it just keeps getting worse
Things will never go back how they were
It kills me to see you with your arms around her
Is she really that much better than me?
Is it actually over now?
Is it actually ending?
The perfect couple I knew is gone
And I have to stop pretending
Not Yet Titled
Spiralling down into endless dark
I know tomorrow this is gonna leave a mark
I can't fell your hands, can't see your face
This sure has turned into one scary place
The pills and the smoke have turned into a cover
Today doesn't matter, neither does any other
I'll just lie alone, trying not to think of you
My eyes are red from crying, they used to be blue
I won't walk across a bed of needles
Not even for you
Crawling under clouds of smoke
Is something I can't do
Please won't you come away
Hold me and tell me it's okay
Promise you won't do it again
I never could believe it then
Spiralling down into endless dark
While you're out drunk in a park
Let me touch you and remeber your face
Before you leave and the memories erased
Why won't you smile, why are you always down
Why have your eyes changed to red from brown
Will you come home and cry for me
It's falling apart, but you won't look and see
I can't take this
Not Yet Titled
I just took it for granted
Too many years of my life
I thought I was the one
Who would always have the light
I guess it never turns out
The way you want it to
Now I guess for you to be there
Is asking way too much of you
How could you turn your back on me
Just let this thing drag on and on
Why can't I just wake up tonight
And have that shadow of him be gone
I guess we'll never rebuild
This fallen broken home
And neither of you can see
That I'm still here all alone
As I walk down the hallways
With the curtains drawn and dead
I'll trip and I will fall down
As the pain swims in my head
How could you pull me into this
Don't keep saying it's all your fault
There are some things I don't want to know
By the way your other friend just called
Forced Matrimony
You think we're meant to be
Future bride is all you see
Just assume that I'll change my name
I'm trapped in this control game
And now I can't go
To greener pastures
I'm planning my escape
Can't we just back down a bit
This smaller space has made me sick
You locked me in your heart shaped cage
Substition forcing love
It's not the wedding I dreamed of
While I'm locked inside your heart shaped cage
Slowly the future falls
As I start to screen my calls
Scared that you'll come and stay
Can't go up and down today
Abuse, communicate
Please open up the gate
You know that I won't stray
Never an In Between
It has to be one or the other
Can't go between
Can't take cover
No grey between the black and white
I can't decide
I'm up all night
You have no idea what it's like
When love forces you to choose
Could be the worst mistake
When you've got everything to lose
So bring me back to life
As you've killed my tortured mind
It's not fair when what I need
Is the hardest thing to find
I'm sorry for all this
I know I'm going to miss out
I'm sorry for all this
I know I'm going to miss out
On one of you
So I'm prepared to take one side
It hurts to think
How I'll decide
maybe I'll let go of everyone
Stay home alone
Give up have none
The Only Victim You See
Having the weight of the world pushed on me
With your hands on my throat making it hard to breathe
Cutting me off from the world outside
Your shadow follows me and I'm forced to hide
I thought this was over
But then you drove the dagger deeper
Now I'm too scared to dream while I sleep
We knew it was over
But you pushed for one more round
And you're the only victim you see
I don't think I deserve to be scared of these lies
Your pleas and excuses that you use like a knife
It hurts when you mention the us from before
Now I'm confused standing out this door
Appearances can be decieving
Cry that you're still not recieving
I need my respect 'cause you stole all that's left
Not Yet Titled
Don't even start to pretend
That your past has left you behind
I know it will catch up
It shows in the backs of your eyes
I know we'll be smashed
Like stained glass in two
So drink the red water
Hold up the glass with cheers to you
Like drowning in bleach that washes out the colour
Tell me more stories with you as the other
Cold memories have made an appearance at the start
Unwilling you old shadows grow stronger in the dark
These words that were dead
Are brought back written on a page
These words that were dead
Have only grown bitter with age
Not Yet Titled
Frozen in time our memories start to lose their shape
Barely kept alive by faded faces in a photograph
Swept under the rug
Scribbled on a piece of paper
The page is finally torn
We could've kept it later
All those years we spent together
Slide by like lights in the distance
Repeat the mistakes for souvenirs
So we can remember those precious years
So quickly we lose our famous glory
A new subject for the documentary came
That one memory on paper
That we kept for so long
Becomes obsolete so fast
Makes way for new and young
We lost our way
There's no end of the day
The words that she said live forever in years
But now they're all lies
I'll cry in my head and shed no tears
Because it's only a lie
Not Yet Titled
Broken mirrors and deception
Painted pictures blind you from what you should see
Stopped in time the two of us
Beauty of a person can be smashed so easily
Like a stained glass window
Seems delicate and easily broken by the world
Like a stainless steel blade
Stabs you from behind but you don't believe it cut you
Cut truth into your skin
Still don't believe the blood
As the one who did this
Laughs that your faith is dead
I never thought a picture
Could damage us beyond our hope
The shadows aren't truth
Everything you see is in your head
It's a tragedy
That you have too much trust in mankind
They commited murder
You cover your eyes, you'd rather be blind
It's a love story
The happy ending replaced with a subtle death
Love is dead
I can't save you from your perfect world
Not Yet Titled
Fallen ahead of ourselves
Tripped over lines of non-existant years
Lost what we were looking for
Set in routine by substitution fears
A white rose cupped in my hands
Beauty trapped as we were
Budding life and dreams
That weren't really there
As I walk through the rain
My cold soaked skin
I think of what I had
And how it was torn away
By bullets
By flesh
By myself
Not Yet Titled
Can't we let it die
Cut it's throat and throw it down
Let it fade
I miss our days
Clear and open withour burden
Of bullets embedded deep in our lungs
Her words are like bullets
My pleas are like dust
We built this wall
Using words that were never said
I came unarmed to this gunfight
No one told me I'd have to fight
If they had
I never would have left
My perfect illusion of safety
Can it be saved?
I give my heavy heart to the cause
I give my calloused hands to the cause
I give my hot loving tears to the cause
I pray a thousand prayers for the cause
Please saw we can be saved
I give my whole life to this
Please say we can be saved