Two chats that took place 15th Feb 2000
And so it seems that this page has been resurrected somewhat. Well, this is the first time I'd been on the chatroom for a long time but here's a couple of amusing tales of (first) depression, suicide and (second) blatant lying. Who knows if she believed me?
kidraper: "i bet you like the attention"
megin_16_f: FROM YOU"
kidraper: "aha"
megin_16_f: I THINK YOUR BEING DISCUSTING"
megin_16_f: AND I DON'T APPRECIATE IT"
kidraper: "why?"
megin_16_f: WHY WOULD I?"
kidraper: "i can be nice if you want"
megin_16_f: WHAT THE HELL"
kidraper: "what the hell, what?"
megin_16_f: YOU WERE JUST A COMPLETE AND TOTAL DINK TO ME"
megin_16_f: WHY WOULD I FORGIVE YOU"
kidraper: "only to get your attention"
megin_16_f: WELL I WISH YOU WOULD HAVE TRIED A DIFFERENT APPROACH"
kidraper: "don't tell me it didn't work"
megin_16_f: ANYWAY"
megin_16_f: WHY DO YOU WANT TO DIE"
kidraper: "i just feel unloved"
megin_16_f: SO DO I"
kidraper: "it's such a horrible feeling, isn't it?"
megin_16_f: IT REALLY IS"
megin_16_f: DEPRESSION IS A ILLNESS NO DIFFERENT THEN ARTHRITIS OR ANYTHING"
kidraper: "I mean, what did you do last nihgt, it being valentines and everything"
megin_16_f: I HAD TO WALK 2 MILES IN THE SLUSHY RAIN"
megin_16_f: AND SNOW"
kidraper: "what for?"
megin_16_f: TO GET TO THE STORE"
megin_16_f: I DIDN'T WANT MY MOM TO DRIVE IN THE STORM"
kidraper: "is there someone that you love?"
megin_16_f: YES"
kidraper: "who is he?"
megin_16_f: AND THATS WHY I'M STILL ALIVE"
megin_16_f: MY BOYFRIEND"
megin_16_f: I'VE BEEN THROUGH IT ALL"
kidraper: "why do you feel unloved then?"
kidraper: "if oyu have a b f"
megin_16_f: I'VE HAD A HARD LIFE"
megin_16_f: A REAL HARD LIFE"
kidraper: "tell me about it........."
megin_16_f: I'VE BEEN IN AND OUT OF HOSPITALS"
megin_16_f: I'VE ATTEMPTED SUICIDE"
kidraper: "how long ago"
kidraper: "?"
megin_16_f: RECENTLY"
kidraper: "why did you attempt suicide?"
megin_16_f: I'VE BEEN CUTTING MYSELF FOR A YEAR NOW"
megin_16_f: IT WENT FROM CUTTING TO STABBING"
kidraper: "where do you stab yourself?"
megin_16_f: ON MY LEGS"
megin_16_f: I'M ON SEVEN DIFFERENT MEDICATIONS"
kidraper: "do they think you're insane?"
megin_16_f: NO OF COURSE NOT"
megin_16_f: BUT MY ADVICE TO YOU IS NEVER SPILL YORU GUTS OUT LOUD IN A CHAT ROOOM"
megin_16_f: THAT IS A BIG MISTAKE"
megin_16_f: I DID IT ONCE"
kidraper: "isn;t that a "sure sign" of insanity - i mean I'M not saying you are but don't the authorities?"
megin_16_f: AND THEY TOLD ME TO SHOOT MYSELF IN THE HEAD AND SHIT"
megin_16_f: NOPE"
megin_16_f: ITS REALLY NOT"
kidraper: "what do they suggest you do?"
megin_16_f: CUTTING IS MY WAY OF COPING"
megin_16_f: ITS A ESCAPE"
kidraper: "not the nicest escape"
megin_16_f: JUST LIKE ISOLATION"
megin_16_f: ITS NOT THE RIGHT WAY"
megin_16_f: YOU CAN GET ADDICTED TO IT JUST AS EASY AS CIGARETTS"
kidraper: "do you ever think about counting to ten?"
kidraper: "and calming down"
kidraper: "and like thinking, it's ok really"
megin_16_f: THAT JUST DOESN'T WORK FOR ME"
megin_16_f: I'M IN REMISSION"
kidraper: "do you think it's not ok really?"
megin_16_f: AND I HAVEN'T CUT FOR A MONTH"
kidraper: "that's good news"
megin_16_f: OR ANYTHING LIKE TAHT"
kidraper: "had urges?"
kidraper: "?"
megin_16_f: ITS LIKE TRYING TO QUIT SMOKING AND SOMEONE LAYING A PACK OUT INFRONT OF YOU OR SMOKING INFRONT OF YOU AND OFFERING IT TO YOU"
megin_16_f: ITS NOT EASY"
kidraper: "do you just want to do it when you've had a shitty day"
megin_16_f: NOPE"
kidraper: "it's just that.... i'm new to the game - not the best way to describe it"
megin_16_f: WHEN I FEEL REALLY UPSET OR WHATEVER"
megin_16_f: IT MAKES IT GO AWAY"
megin_16_f: TEMPORARILY UNTIL THE NEXT TIME"
kidraper: "a greater pain than that which you have to suffer.....?"
megin_16_f: ITS A WAY OF RELEASING EMOTIONAL PAIN THROUGHT FISICAL"
kidraper: "how did you try to kill yourself last time?"
megin_16_f: IF I TELL MYSELF IT HELPS IT WILL"
megin_16_f: BUT IF I TELL MYSELF IT DON'T"
megin_16_f: IT DON'T"
kidraper: "witht he knife?"
megin_16_f: NEVER USE A KNIFE"
megin_16_f: I USE MEDICATION"
megin_16_f: I HAD THREE MINUTES LEFT TO MY LIFE"
kidraper: "you stab yourself with medication?"
megin_16_f: I WAS ON A HEART MONITER AND iv"
megin_16_f: YES I DID"
megin_16_f: BUT WAIT"
megin_16_f: AREN'T YOU THE ONE WHOS DEPRESSED"
megin_16_f: DEPRESSION IS LIKE A HURDLE THAT YOU HAVE TO JUMP OVER"
kidraper: "you're helping me out by telling me that there's others who aren't happy all the time - quite the opposite"
megin_16_f: OK"
megin_16_f: MY WHOLE FAMILY IS DEPRESSED"
kidraper: "have you (pl) had counselling?"
megin_16_f: OH YELL YA"
megin_16_f: I HAD IMPATIENT AND OUT PATIENT COUNSELING"
megin_16_f: AND BY THE WAY"
kidraper: "what's that mean - what's the diff?"
kidraper: "?"
megin_16_f: IN THE ROOM"
megin_16_f: WHAT YOU SAID TO ME"
kidraper: "errr yeah?"
kidraper: "?"
kidraper: "what did i say?"
megin_16_f: THE RAPE ME UP MY ASS STUFF"
megin_16_f: UNTIL I BLEED"
kidraper: "yeah"
megin_16_f: THAT WAS A ROTTEN THING TO SAY"
kidraper: "I didn't mean it, honest"
megin_16_f: I'M A NICE PERSON"
megin_16_f: BUT I THINK I DESERVE A APOLOGY"
kidraper: "i am too, if you get to know me"
kidraper: "i am sorry, truly"
kidraper: "forgive me?"
kidraper: "there's no need to ignore me.... is there?"
megin_16_f: sorry"
megin_16_f: i wasn"
megin_16_f: i do have to go though"
megin_16_f: i come on here everyday"
kidraper: "oh right...... fair enough"
kidraper: "i'm pretty random in my visits here"
megin_16_f: put me on your friend list so you know when i come online"
megin_16_f: everytime you go into a room it will tell you if i'm online or off"
megin_16_f: bye"
megin_16_f: see you soon"
kidraper: "bye"
angelkiss2266: hey r u really eminem??"
kidraper: "yup, straight up"
angelkiss2266: hey u there??"
kidraper: "you betcha"
angelkiss2266: right..."
kidraper: "what proof do you need bitch?"
angelkiss2266: do u have any kids???"
kidraper: "not yet, the bitch is expecting though"
angelkiss2266: really.............."
angelkiss2266: cool..."
kidraper: "can't think what to call it though"
kidraper: "maybe leeroy"
angelkiss2266: hailie.."
kidraper: "as in salasie?"
angelkiss2266: no...i just like the name hailie.."
kidraper: "whatcha think of Leeroy?"
angelkiss2266: what///"
angelkiss2266: a/s/l"
kidraper: "as a name - is Leeroy a good name for a kid?"
kidraper: "26/m/straight outa compton"
angelkiss2266: is it a boy or girl???"
kidraper: "a boy"
kidraper: "Leeroy isn't a good name for a boy"
kidraper: "uuuurrr girl i mean"
kidraper: "Leeroy's not a girls' name"
angelkiss2266: leeroy is not a good name for a girl..."
angelkiss2266: lol"
kidraper: "if it was a girl, i might name it after you, what's your name?"
angelkiss2266: so....what's ur real name??" Santa's looks in Yahoo for Eminem's real name.... takes time
angelkiss2266: angela.."
kidraper: "oh, that's a shit name bitch, wouldn't call it that"
kidraper: "no offense"
angelkiss2266: what???"
kidraper: "i hope i didn't piss you off"
angelkiss2266: no............."
kidraper: "you asked my name - it's Marshall" Yey, success
angelkiss2266: hey do u remember me??"
kidraper: "from where?"
angelkiss2266: in ny the tunnel... the club"
angelkiss2266: the blond that kept hitting on u??"
kidraper: "i remember the place, what did you say to me?"
angelkiss2266: u came up to me..."
kidraper: "oh yeah!!!!"
angelkiss2266: hey..."
kidraper: "did we make out?"
angelkiss2266: yeah......"
kidraper: "i reckon i remember you, angela! woah, fancy seeing you here!"
angelkiss2266: u don't remember do u???"
kidraper: "no ha ha ha"
kidraper: "just trying to be nice!"
angelkiss2266: what's so funny??"
kidraper: "hey, that's not like me!"
angelkiss2266: ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh...................."
kidraper: "u don't mind that i don't remember do you?"
angelkiss2266: no........ that is ok....."
angelkiss2266: i thought u were out of detrot"
kidraper: "look, i better be going - next time i'm in nyc i'll check you out - some way i can get hold of you?"
angelkiss2266: e mail i'm moved to az..."
kidraper: "detroit is where i was born"
kidraper: "i moved"
kidraper: "what's yo email"
kidraper: "?"
angelkiss2266: it says ur female.."
kidraper: "i lie"
kidraper: "keeps people on their toes"
angelkiss2266: right.................."
angelkiss2266: okay....."
angelkiss2266: u know my cousin??"
kidraper: "what's her name?"
kidraper: "?"
angelkiss2266: Fred Durst is my cousin"
kidraper: "who's Fred Durst?" Uh Oh Back To Yahoo
angelkiss2266: ur not eminem........"
angelkiss2266: first eminem has akid..."
angelkiss2266: halie"
kidraper: "you dont mean THE Fred Durst do you?" More success
kidraper: "as in the limps?"
angelkiss2266: limp bizkit... u should know him......"
kidraper: "i don't know him that well"
kidraper: "only met a couple of times"
angelkiss2266: what's ur wifes name...."
kidraper: "mary"
angelkiss2266: ur touring together... arn't u??"
kidraper: "no, she's back home"
angelkiss2266: when r u coming to az???"
kidraper: "when i get your phone number"
angelkiss2266: u have my phone already......................."
kidraper: "i lost it, bitch, god"
angelkiss2266: oh......................."
angelkiss2266: sorry................."
kidraper: "so?"
angelkiss2266: to personal e-mail me"
kidraper: "what's your emial then? lost that - if i ever had it"
angelkiss2266: u didn't hve that.."
kidraper: "can i have it?"
angelkiss2266: will u send a picture???"
kidraper: "yup"
kidraper: "if you want"
angelkiss2266: [email protected]"
angelkiss2266: sighned??"
kidraper: "i'll try - don't know when i'll get to a scanner though"
kidraper: "i gotta go - see you soon, i hope"
angelkiss2266: bye honey...."
kidraper: "tell Fred I wanna see him fucking soon!"
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