September 28, 2005 So here's my week. On Monday I got my results back from my prior learning assestment from computers. I got 88%, so I took that mark as my final mark and now I don't have to take computers. So I offically have all day off on Fridays! (but I still need to get a job *sigh*) I had/have projects due Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday and next Monday. I have my first site visit tomorow. I have a test tomorrow and next Tuesday. Wow. I'd forgotten how busy school can get. And it's the strangest thing. It's making me really tired. I've found that drastic changes in one's life will make that person tired until they adjust to the new situation. So I figure in a few more weeks I'll be all caught up. But it almost seems so silly to me, being tired and what not. I mean I LOVE my program! And I'm so excited to be back at school. It's just tiring me out right now lol. (funny I know, espically b/c it's me) So I need to find a job, I think I will actively start searching for one now. I need to pay more of my bills. *sigh* I wish I didn't have to work so I could focus more on school but I can't really make it to school if I haven't got a job eh? Well I haven't got a lot of time so I'm outie!! September 24, 2005 So it's been quite the week and a bit. But I know that God is in control and even though sometimes I don't know what His will is, or why He choses to let certain things happen. I do know that He loves me and everybody around me as well. I just don't always understand. And I know that I can ask God my questions, cuz He can definitely handle them. It's good to know that the hard, tough questions I have I can ask God. I mean He created the whole universe, He is all-knowing, all-powerfull. What kind of God would He be if He was stumped by a question that I, a mere mortal, would have. And it really helps you release any anger, or pain. So I had a bit of that happening in my life this week. On Thursday it was Grant's and mine 6 months. I took him out to Kelsey's, out to play pool and then back to his house for a movie. I bought him a hoodie (which isn't the right size I found out :p) and I bought him Young Frakenstein. (I mean come one, a Mel Brooks film, classic B grade material, and it's got Gene Wildler, how could it not be the perfect anniversary movie for him lol) Going to Kelsey's was a lot of fun. And playing pool, awesome, I've missed playing pool a lot! I really enjoy playing pool. It was such a good night. It was good to go out and do something positive after a really crappy week. I love him so much that I just wanted to give him a night to relax and have a good time. He was sweet too. I can't believe it's been 6 months. It's been such an awesome 6 months. I swear I love him more everytime I see him. He suits me so well and I love that. And we can be soo open and honest with eachother. He's encouraged me to be more honest, he's encouraged me to be myself all the time. He's just encouraging to me all the time. He was excited for me that I was going back to school. I mean he was excited that I wanted to go back to school so much. He's always supporting me and helping me. I hardly even have to ask for help. So many times he's already offered or he's just doing it before I even ask. He's something else, that's for sure, and it's a good something else. So Friday was Cody's birthday. I got her a picture frame with a picture of us. (the elusive awesome picture of Cody and I lol) and I got her a mini sharpie and some lip balm. (her favourite kind lol) There was like a whole butt load of us that went to East Side Mario's. People just kept coming. We had to pull up another table. Cody was soo excited. She wasn't going to do anything at all. And I was like "whatever!! I don't think so!" I'm pretty sure that she had an awesome time. Lol. Me, I'm doing good I think. This week has been crazy so I haven't had a lot of time to just sit and think about me and whatnot. Which I think in the long run is a really good thing. Focusing on others is always the best way to go about living. We had our first youth on Tuesday. It was awesome. Shane's helping out. (yea!!) I just had soo much fun is all. I was so hyper! Lol. Afterwards, Shane, Jordan and I went to Bostin Pizza. We invited Grant to come and he did. It was soo much fun. Those 3 guys are soo funny, put them together and wow, I was laughing quite a bit. It was good. Well I'm tired and what not, so I should be getting ready for bed. G'night! September 19, 2005 Yeah I know it's been a while, but trust me lots has happend. As you might remember last time I talked about how I had come to a conculsion about my intellegence. Well wouldn't you know the next day I had English. Now the week before we had to write an essay assestment. (oh and did I mention that I had the flu the day I wrote it too) So I honestly thought that either she would tell me that I needed some extra help with grammer or that she wouldn't say anything which would mean that I stayed in the class. She called my name when she was offering excemptions!! I got excempt from English. I was like one of between 8-10 students from about 40 something that got offered it!! I was soo excited. It's like Joanne said, this was the proof that I was smart. B/C you know what I was the last person to finish, I wrote the whole thing out first on rough draft, I checked soo much spelling and I thought about each word before I used it. (for my grammer) And apparantly I learned something about spelling and grammer and writing essays in high school! Lol! So that was a good thing. And just like my life, something not so good had to balance it out. Driving home that afternoon, my car broke down! Another transmission leak. I was sooooo thankful that Cody was in the car and that she had CAA. And the guy didn't take too long in getting there and he was really nice and helpful. I took it to a new mechanic b/c it's across the street practically. (and lucky me it was ready on Friday when I got home from school) So I walked over and picked it up. This weekend I was babysitting. I mean like the whole weekend long. I started 9:00 Saturday morning, and I finished this morning at 7:30 am when I left the house for school. The kids were awesome. (it's amazing what a few incentives will do to the behaviour of children) Bascially the parents said that if they weren't good the presents they bought the children they would be getting them at Christmas time instead of when they got back. And plus the oldest one wanted to borrow my Bill and Ted DVD and I said if he was good and went to bed with out any problems he could. They went to bed perfectly both nights. I was almost in shock b/c they never do that!! They were awesome the whole time. We watched 2 movies. (one each day, they were all off tv for the weekend and the mom -for my sake-said the kids could watch one movie a day) I took the kids for a hike to see the caves. (I think it tired me out more then them lol!) They loved the caves. I have yet to meet a kid that has not enjoyed that hike. Either they love the caves or they love the little cliff thing that you can climb. Or the bush wacking down the escarptment. (it's soo much fun doing that, even though your pants end up brown from all the mud lol!) I also did a bead craft with the kids as well. I took them to Orchard Park out in NOTL on Sunday morning. They all had their showers or baths with hardly any troubles. The one girl is in a tom boy phase and she doesn't want to be clean, wear a dress, give people hugs etc. It's kinda funny b/c she's always been the girlest girl I've ever seen. But whatever. It was fun. The parents aren't coming home until tonight so their Opa and Oma came over at 7:15 this morning to relieve me lol. It's been fun. So I'm in school and I'm really liking it, I'm kinda getting a feel for the place and what not. The classes aren't hard. At the moment I'm down to 10 classes. (hopefully I will get out of computers, well I took the test and I didn't know how to do 2 things so I should pass it with really good marks) And then I'd be down to 9 classes, and not have had to buy a single text book! That is sweet!!! We do everything in groups. I'm serious, we do book reports in groups, case studies in groups. It's kinda funny b/c they would take you like an hour at home to finish them but instead you get to work with others. Oh well, they are trying to teach us the value of working with others. I know. For those of you who have had a bad week I'm praying for you. (trust me it's been a week for bad news for a lot of people.) Well I'm off to Math now. So tootles for now ya'll! Lol. September 14, 2005 So while I was talking to Grant today I kinda came to this conclusion about myself. (I love it when these things happen) Now for those of you who know me, know that I think I'm not very smart. Well I figured out exactly what it was that bothered me. I'm not as quick as other people and in the way our schools work the quick ones are considered smart, and the not so quick are considered average. Grant compared me to Perrin (he's a guy from Robert Jordan series that I've read) And it's soo true, I have to work things out and think about them before I do them. I can't always get things as fast as some people. And hanging around the Barron's so much this year has made me feel less intelligent. (B/C let's face it, they are all VERY quick) So I guess I don't feel so dumb anymore. It does take me longer to process stuff. But I get the right answer, I just have to think it through sometimes. It definitely made me feel better. I guess you can't expect people to all learn the same way. (also something I've been learning at school about how different children develop and stuff like that) So my great conclusion is that I'm not dumb, I'm just not as quick as others, b/c I do things differently. I feel content with that. Happy. Cuz I can get good grades but it's only b/c I work so hard at it, but that doesn't make me less intelligent. (in fact working hard at something is quite smart) So that is my big thing that I wanted to share with you all today. September 12, 2005 So I've been in school for almost a week now. Crazy eh? It's been awesome. I've met some people that I'm getting to know better. And at least it's people that I can be in groups with. (oi, group work with people you don't know, frustrating!!) And I've spend lots of time in the computer lab lol! Playing games, fun! Today I'm in the lab from 2:30 until 6:30. (I have to drive Mikey home today and that is when his last class ends) Today I had math methodolgoy. I hope it's not too hard. I don't like math very much but this course is all about how to teach math. So I think basically we'll be doing simple math. One of our projects is to invent math games. Which should be fun. And like I've said a million times, the work isn't hard it's just a lot of work. (oh yes alot isn't a word, I learned that the other day, and for those of you who knew that :P) So on Saturday I decided to go to movie group b/c I hadn't been there in a while. (and also Grant was babysitting) But it was great fun. I miss hanging out with them sometimes. Anyways, we watched "A Series of Unfortunate Events". (I saw it in theaters with Cody) I love that movie! It's so funny. I've read all the books, great books as well. Anyways, so Shane and Zeal went outside for a talk. (lol, Joanne you know why I'm laughing) Anyways Shane comes back inside and asks me if I had any advice for having moths in ears. No, I said b/c I've never had a moth in my ear. A little moth flew into Shane's ear and it was fluttering around inside. He wanted to Q-tip it out, no, no, no, no! Bad idea, so I took him to the hospital. Laughing for most of the way there b/c I mean comeon, you've got a MOTH in your ear! LOL!! Anyways there was no line up at all (thank heavens) and we left the house, drove, got him in, and back within an hour. (and they lived fairly far away.) It was a great bonding time for Shane and I lol! (love you Shane!) So next weekend I'm doing another whole weekend babysitting gig. It should be fun. I'm starting Saturday morning at 9:00 and I will be going to school on Monday at 7:30 and the kids grandparents will be taking over and getting the kids ready for school. But I'm excited, weekend gigs always pay well. (even though I usually end up spending money on the kids taking them out somewhere.) So for those of you hoping to see me on the weekend, sorry, I'll be busy. September 7, 2005 So guess where I'm putting this journal in? At the Niagara College campus in Welland. I just had my first class. Six pages of writing. It was really neat b/c she gave us a handout and the main headlines where on it. So all you had to do was add the points. I like it better that way. It saves me using my paper. I learned all about baby farming and the history of CAS. (Childrens Aid Society) The class is called Community Resources. I now have a 2 hour break so I thought I'd hit the lab and play games, check e-mail and what not. School is gonna be good, but oh my gosh am I gonna have a ton of homework! In the class that I was just in she was telling us about the assignments. They ALL have to be done in groups. Which means that it has to basically be done out of class b/c they don't give you in class time to work on things. I mean think about it, I currently have 11 classes. (hopefully I can get out of 2) That's gonna be alot of work. But I don't think it will be very hard, just time consumming. So yesterday Cody, Kevin and I went shopping at Staples. It was fun. Cody bought a little white board for our locker, and I bought a locker mirror. (same pattern and style so they match) It was fun, I also got more stickers. Then we met up with Charlene at McDonalds and then went out for bubble tea. Oh Charlene, how I love you. (lol, you know what I'm talking about) A good time was had by all. Then Charlene came over to my house for a bit and we chatted about boys and what not. So I heard an awesome quote from Cassie on Monday. "Friends are forever, boys are whatever". She saw it on a shirt, I laughed soo hard when I heard it. Isn't it great? I definitely (there you go Grant, it's spelled right lol) liked the quote. So things are going good. I still feel tons better. I prayed and it fixed everything. (that's the way it always is so why don't I just do it?) *sigh* B/C I'm human and I always try to do things my way first. Right *slaps wrist, bad Robin* So I need to go eat lunch and then go off to my next class! Tootles! September 5, 2005 Happy Labour Day! I know it's been a while since I wrote, I've just been a little bit busy. I went to Darien Lake on Thursday and I had a great time. I also went to a family thing with Grant's family on Sunday. We went to his grandparents boat club. Lots of good food and we all just hung out all day long. That was really cool. Mom went with Dad on the road again this week. This time there going to Miami. Which I think is really cool. But I miss the fact that my mom won't be here when I start school. I know it's silly but it's a big change in my life and I always like having my mom there. So yeah, tomorrow is Orientation. I'm going with Cody and Mikey. (lol they both have been there for a year already) I'm excited to find my classes and learn about them. And meet teachers and the whole thing. I'm a little anxious about the whole school thing. I know it will be okay, and everything will be fine but it still makes me nervous and upset. I mean I got homesick when I moved out! For some dumb reason changes freak me out. I think back to what I learned with Anita and I can't belive I'm doing this to myself. I have the power with God to not be upset or anxious. He is in control and I know that. I think the bottom line is that I need to pray. So I need to remember that God has a plan for my school. That me going to school is His plan. That actually does make me feel better. So Robin needs to lose weight. When I was at Darien Lake 4 things happened that made me realize that I need to lose weight. They could have been embarassing but I'm going to try to take them as a sign/message. So people I'm asking you to help me. I need the support and encouragment from you all. Please remind me not to eat junk food if I start. If say I ask you to go for a walk with me please do come with me. This is a problem that I've had for far too long. I want to lose enough weight to go back to Darien lake and be able to do something that I couldn't do b/c of my weight this time. I think this was the first time my being overweight has actually disabled me from actually doing something. And I didn't like that. I mean I'm at a point in my life right now where it's not something that is brought to my attention all the time. Like I've got a boyfriend, I've got lots of friends, I've been accepted to school, I'm involved at my church. I just don't think about it. But it is a serious issue. And I know how often I complain about my physical issues but I really do want to change and I'm asking for your help. Okay. I'm out.