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October 27, 2005 Today was a weird day emotionally but it definitely ended up turing out alright. It was one of those days where God keeps you in mind and He just sends littles blessings all day long. It started out with just seeing some people at school that I don't see very often and that lifted my spirits. Then I got back my mid term test from one class. (89%!) Then I found out that in my one class my mark as it stands now is 95%! So that was good too. Then on the way home from school I called my mommy to see how Weaver was doing. He has this lump on the front of his chest which mom just pointed out to my the other day and I was really worried/freaked out by it. So mom took him to the vet today and the vet says it's a fat lump. He's booked for surgery on Monday to get it removed. That was bothering me a lot the past few days. But praise God that Weaver is okay. Then I had my first shift today. It wasn't too bad. It was busy and they just threw me onto cash and doing orders. So I'm like "ahh I don't know what I'm doing!" But by the end of the 3 hours I was taking lots of orders and ringing them in and making the coffees and stuff. I'm getting pretty good at it lol. Now earlyer I had mentioned it to Grant that I had wanted to perhaps see him tonight after work. (I need to stay up as late as I possibly can) I wasn't actually expecting him to show up. But he did, and we rented a movie and just cuddled while watching it. I was so grateful that he came, I totally appreciated it. (you're the best sweetheart!) Tomorrow I work the midnight shift so that should be fun. And I'm gonna be taking CPR/First Aid quite soon. Then if anybody gets hurt I can help them. Yeah. I'm trying my darndest to stay awake, but I'm still getting sleepy. But I need to stay up as late as I humanly can! *pinches arm to wake up* Well I should probably stop writing before it gets too weird. G'night!
October 26, 2005 So I'm pretty sure that I nailed all three of my midterms today!! I'm excited! I didn't really have trouble with any of the questions for any of the courses. And I got back my grade for our fundraising presentation. 90%. Sweet, considering the circumstances that's pretty good. (the girl who was suppossed to bring in the written part had a seizure while driving to school and never made it) But I was confident after we had finished doing the whole thing. So awesome. I'm doing pretty good in that course. Hopefully next Wednesday I'll find out what I got on the midterm. I love getting marks back lol! What a great feeling of accomplishment you get after getting a good grade! I don't have too much else to write about today. I finished my second site visit report. Oh I got my uniform from Tim Hortons today. Gross, it looks soo bad!! Blech! The shirt's see through, so I need to wear a white shirt underneath. But it's a job, so I'm happy. I have my first day tomorrow. Wish me luck!!
October 25, 2005 I had a great thought that I wanted to journal about but I can't remember it lol. Oh well, I've got lots more that I can talk about. So tomorrow's the "big day" my 3 midterms. And I get to pick up my uniform for work and hopefully get my report edited (well I suppose that will involve me writing it *sigh* lol) I did some studying last night for Community Resources. (for those of you who always check up NEW things on my website, you will see that I've started writing stuff that I've learned down). I think it's great, writing out my notes helps me study. Physcially writing them out kinda hurts after a while, and lastly I'm just a much faster typer than printer. Oh and some of the information is really intresting and some of the information people should know. (like the abuse unit, I recommend reading it) I am once again impressed by God and how He answers my prayers. I need to remember to pray more about certain things. I've realized that for me going to school is a privellege that God has given me. Some people go b/c they feel obligated and they don't really enjoy it. I love school and I feel lucky that it worked out that I can go. God is soo totally looking out for me. I love it. He helped me find a job within a week, b/c I needed to or otherwise I wouldn't be able to drive my car. But everything's gonna work out. I went to the bank yesterday and I have a flexi that matures on Oct 31. And that will help cover insurance and gas until I get my first paycheck. Who knew 2 years ago that I would need it so much? Go figure, Grandma just got it for me for a birthday present. I don't know, things are just working out. Part of me is upset b/c I am so busy and I feel like I can't do everthing that I'm used to doing. I've been out of school for almost 5 years. I've kinda gotten into a routine of being avaliable and ready to help at whim. So like we talked about in church, I need to put first things first. Well right now, school and work, kinda first. (well obiviously God is first but you know what I mean) I need work to help pay for school and living and what not. And I need school so I can get a better job when it's over. I hope you guys understand. I'm really not trying to be all elusive and what not. I'm just yeah, insane. And being at school this year has given me more respect and understanding for those of you who are also in post secondary education. Sorry if I ever got upset b/c I wasn't seeing you. So I figure it will all work out in the end. Love you guys but I'm hungry and I want lunch. So tootles!
October 24, 2005 So I had my math midterm today. I think I did pretty good b/c I didn't have any trouble with any of the questions. Only 3 midterms left, and they are all on Wednesday. (yeah I'm spending the next two nights at home studying) But I think I'm doing pretty good in school right now. My goal is to get all 80's and 90's. (I would prefer all 90's but I don't think that's possible) We get our midterm assesments on Halloween. I will be very excited to see what my grades are. :) Here's hoping for good marks. So Joanne's party went well I think. (I mean my house got cleaned, my BASEMENT got cleaned lol) She said she had fun and that was kinda the goal so I think it was accomplished. (oh and a shout out to Patti for reading my blogs :) I think that's awesome, do you mind if I ask Shane for your e-mail? Please let him know, thanks) Joanne made out like a bandit lol, she got quite a few presents. It was just a fun evening. Shane, Grant and I went out to Kelsey's before the party. I was hungry lol. So this Saturday marked Grant's and mine 7 months together. We spend all day together. Which was huge b/c Grant and I haven't had alone time in like weeks!! Insane. School keeps me very busy. Now don't get me wrong, I love it, but. Oi. Oh and add in the fact that I got a job. (I got a job!!) I am now an employee of Tim Hortons. I will be working at the Grantham Plazza one. So come visit me ya'll! I start my orientation today. I hope to get around 10 to 20 hours a week. I mean I need it. I love how God is faithful. He answered my prayers, I love it when He does that! I think that's everything, I will write more later. Perhaps after I finish the horrid day of midterms. lol. Peace out!
October 18, 2005 SWEET!!!! I'm stoked!! I got back 2 projects today and I got perfect on both of them. The one was flashcards and a worksheet. This teacher is a hard marker and the first project we did we didn't do that good on. So my group was like "let's work hard and get really good". If we didn't get at least 80% we were gonna be upset. But all our hard work paid off cuz we got 100%. And then for my other class I had to do a School System Report and it was worth 15% of my final grade. I got Grant to edit it and we spent 2 hours on a 3 page report (that was double spaced)But it paid off b/c I got perfect on my report!! And for that same class we had a test last week and I studied soo much for it. I got 92% on my test!! Sweet!! So my grade for that class is pretty good so far. We have 5 units and each unit we have an inclass assisgnment. (so basically if you show up and do it you get perfect on it) So far I haven't missed any of those. I love school. Too bad I don't always love the girls in my class. I mean the classes I'm taking are pretty easy. But some people are failing and not doing very well. I don't get it. If you would READ the assignment and SEE WHAT the teacher is ASKING for you would do well. Don't do fancy pansy things and complain that you did bad when you didn't do what she asked for. (sorry such a huge pet peeve of mine!!) So for those of you who haven't heard. Joanne's birthday party is at my house on Friday, 7:30. Be there or be square. *starts singing, it's hip to be a square* Anyways, it's gonna be a good time, fun and laughter! So I'm feeling better. I kinda gave everything up to God and He's taking care of it. My devotions today had this awesome quote. When conviction runs deep, courage rises to sustain it. Today's topic was about holding true to what you believe cuz God might save you. But if, was the point. So yeah, God might rescue you, He might heal you, He might deliver you. But if He doesn't, are you still going to serve Him? It was very encouraging to me. Sometimes things come up and they're hard to face. But if you put God first He is in charge and everything will work out. God doesn't do anything for ill intent to any of His children. So I know that God's plan for me is only benefical. So why not let Him run His plan? Instead of me pushing for my own? I mean it's soo easy to compare it to little children. Let's say that a child does not want to study for a test but you push them and push them. And your plan is for that child to score very high on the test. And b/c you pushed them to study they do. Yeah sometimes it hurts and it isn't always the "coolest" or most exciting thing to do. But the end it pays off so much more. I love God b/c of that. When I let Him run His plan the benefits are sooo amazing it's awesome! Okay that's my entry for today. Peace out ya'll! lol.
October 17, 2005 So I got more marks back today and they were both mid 80's :). I'm really enjoying school. It's a lot of work but I don't mind. It's like I need to prove something but I'm not sure whom I'm proving it to. I guess part of it is proving it to myself, I think partly proving to my friends. Most of my friends only met me after high school and sometimes I don't always act like the brightest bulb in the box. So I want to show them that I am smart and that I can do well in school. And lastly to prove my mom right, that I can do well in college. She's always believed in me and encouraged me to do my best. It's really good having supports like her in my life. And Grant and Shane have encouraged me the whole time as well. And Joanne has always said "I know you're smart." So yeah. Plus if I make the honour role then I get honours on my certificate. I mean it doesn't really matter if you get from 60%-79% b/c it doesn't state your grade. But having honours makes a differene. Besides some of these classes are ridiculously (and I spelled it right) easy! Like if I don't get between a 95%-100% in personal care there is something wrong with me. Espcially b/c I worked for 6 months in extreme personal care environment. So far I have perfect in the class but we've only handed in 3 things lol. So yeah, next week is like midterms already. Insane. I will have so much studying to do in the upcoming weeks. Midterms. Already. Some of these classes I haven't had a test in yet so it's gonna be a bit daunting. But hey it's okay. So I'm trying to find a job. I droped off a bunch of resumes and filled in a bunch of applications on Friday and I haven't heard anything yet. I need to find a job within the next 2 weeks or I can't drive my car. So I'm praying right now. I just know that I don't have a lot of time to offer employers. But kudos to Char for spiffying up my resume for me. :) Isn't that sweet? And it looks really good too. I think I'm doing okay. I'm feeling better. I'm still upset about a relationship in my life, but I don't know if she wants to fix it. Heck I don't think she even knows that she hurt me. I mean we are both really busy and let's face it we haven't seen eachother in like 2 months. But she was such a pivotal person in my life the past few years. She was there when other people weren't. But I guess we've both grown and changed and that happens sometimes in life. I just wish it didn't have to hurt so much. :( So this Friday is Joanne's birthday party. There have been sooo many birthdays recently lol. It seems like everyother week I'm going to a party. (not that I mind of course) Anyways I'm outie. See you latah dahlings!
October 15, 2005
Wondering thoughts of mine today. Why do relationships have to travel in cycles? Why must you go through periods of pain, hurt, of distance of not being there for eachother? Why? Why can't everybody be at the peak of the cycle all the time? Why do we pull away from eachother. When we know we shouldn't, that we aught not to? That if we all lived in community, if we all loved eachother. If we all just (and this will sound corny) got along. If we all looked out for our neighbour. How much less pain and suffering there would be. I heard something that quite disturbed me in Psych the other day. Here it is: So I went to a comedy fest yesterday in Hamilton. It was a fundraiser for McMaster Hospital. It was the second fundraiser in two days that I attended. Kinda funny how that works eh? But I like it when fundraisers are special events. More fun then traditional ones where you just give money. In class we learned all about the different types of fundraising. Were actually doing a project where you have to plan out a whole fundraiser and everything. Were doing a dinner and a dance "for the" Easter Seals. I'm making the fliers. Which is fun b/c I love doing things like that. Well I should be going. Umm, later.
October 10, 2005 HAPPY TURKEY DAY EVERYBODY!!!! I had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I got to have two dinners and shot my diet to hell. (meh, starting again tomorrow, and I was doing so well! Lol) I spend yesterday with Grant's family. That was fun, lost at cribbage, but beat Grant at Othello. But today I guess karma came back and bit me in the but! Cuz I lost EVERYSINGLE game I playd today! No joke! But it's all good. The food was wonderful, it was great spending time with family. I am truely blessed. I need to focus on that. So umm, yeah. Here's kinda something that I realized today. I need to do my devotions more regularly b/c it's been effecting my life. I am strong in relationships. I care about people, I try my hardest to be avaliable to people and be helpful and encouraging and hold people accountable. I feel that I have let tons of people down recently. And just for the record, I am sorry. I'm sorry that I haven't been there. That I haven't been a good friend recently. I know I can't make excuses and it's not acceptable. But for what's it's worth, I'm really sorry. Hopefully when I get my devotions life back on track things will go back to normal. [but I do fear that I will get more involved with school work and be even more busy :'(] But I'm just struggling right now with the feeling of failure. I feel like I can't help anybody. I just don't have the resources anymore. And I feel so bad. I know I'm on a brink of a change, and that God is going to be working in my life. But this just really hit me today. So please pray that I can get my devotion life back on track. I need to do everything in God's strength. Okay. I'm outie.
October 6, 2005 WHOO HOO!!!!!! For those of you who knew how worked up I was about my Psych test well I got my grade back today. 92%!! I was not expecting that and I am stoked that I got that!! I really enjoy that class. (begins to wonder if maybe that is her calling) I mean I find the whole thing fascinating. And I really seem to get it. I think I will take my elective in Abnormal Psych. I'm already going to be taking Developemental Psych. But Abnomral seems sooo interesting! Learning all about mental illness and what not. And I just might take Intro to Psych II. That's about all I wanted to share. I was just so excited that I had to let you all know!! I'm outie!
October 5, 2005 So I had a really encouraging day today. School went well. I got back a case study that we did and we got perfect on it! (that is always encouraging!!!) And classes just went well today. I finished my Site Visit report. (due tomorrow lol) And I hung out with Shane at his house while he edited it. That was a lot of fun. Shane found it soo amazing that I can talk and do homework at the same time. Like when I was there I actually got something accomplished. Shane really didn't do anything when I was there lol. But I got a really good start on this big report due Tuesday. (worth a big chunk too) Then the best part, Cody had called me and wanted to go out for bubble tea. I said yes and we went out. She totally encouraged me!!! She said that she had noticed a maturity in me and how much I had changed and that it was for the better. I was soo encouraged by that. (thanks hun) It's been a good day. And then when I got home talking to mom encouraged me as well. This was about the youth. Mom had been talking to some of the kids parents from youth. And the one mom was impressed by how I connected with her son and was happy for that. That was awesome! I really enjoy the youth group this year. I've connected with so many of them. It also really helps that this is my second year. It definitely makes it easier. Plus the kids are just so great!!!
So Turkey day is coming soon!! Whoo hoo!! So this puts into mind what am I thankful for? And you know what? I have tons to be thankful for. So I'm going to list a few.
October 4, 2005 So I got some projects and tests back today. Most were in their 80's and one was in the 90's. Except one project, we didn't do that good. We got 70% on it. It's an easy class but I guess we didn't do enough, you know what I mean? Our group is determined to get better next time! I also had my psychology test today. I think I did pretty good. I mean I only had issues with like 2 questions. (as in I couldn't figure out which answer was most correct) I suppose there's always a chance that I got more wrong but thought I was right. The best surprise today was that on the assestment math test I got 82.7%. (I don't do so well in math and I was pleasantly surprised to do so well) And that test that I had last week. (my first test of the year I was a little bit anxious about, only b/c I hadn't done a test in a few years) Well I got 84% on it!! That was nice too! I am going to strive very hard to make the honour role, b/c I want to graduate with honours. I'm doing pretty good. I'm really getting into the swing of things. I love learning and going to school. I don't even mind doing homework. (Lol, I can just see teenagers cringing right now!) I have a week of "rest" this week. Then it's back to having 5 projects due in one week. Lol, sweet. Now the BIG projects are coming out soon. But I love it. I mean I have 9 courses this semester and then next semester I have 8, so in all this year I will have taken 17 courses! Oi, and I got excempt from 2! One of the girls in my groups didn't get excempt from any classes and she has 11 right now. The work load must be so much! Were thinking about getting me to peer tutor her in Computers. That way she gets the help she needs and I can get paid for it. Bonus eh? So tonight is youth again. I'm leading the game. Danish Longball it is!! (what a great game!!!) And this year Shane is helping out doing youth with me. It's awesome. And Jordan is there and now that were all close it's soo much fun. I love him sooo much. (he's my second cousin) He is incredibly funny! (random side note I looked up how to spell incredibly, yes for all those English and grammer freaks I'm trying) After youth, Shane, Jordan and I have been going to Boston Pizza and it's been a blast! It's just a hoot and a half! Anyways I need to do some homework. Got stuff due tomorrow! Cherrio!
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