March 27, 2005 Happy Easter to everybody!!! What an awesome holiday!! And I must say I had an awesome weekend! Good Friday was spend hanging with Grant, what more could you ask for? Oh wait, the fact that my family really likes him. My Grandma likes him. And Dad actually drilled him. The four of us (mom, dad, Grant and I) were sitting together after everybody else left and dad's like "So Grant...". It was a good few hour talk. Dad said that respect is a very important thing. And that is defaintly something that Grant posseses. Then later that night Grant and I went out with Kelly and Siegi to the Honest Lawyer. That was fun, a double date. No more third wheeling for me lol. We got into some intresting talks too. Then I had Saturday off so dad asked if I would take him to the mall cuz he had some phone problems. Well first we went to Tom's (that's my mechanics) and booked an appt for Monday to get some work done on my car, like the bearings and to get it safetyed. Then we went to the Pen and Rogers told dad to go back to Future Shop. So we went to the Fairview. Oh my gosh!! It took me 30 minutes to get out of there!! There was soo much traffic!! Oi! Then in the afternoon I hung out with Charlene. She had made lamb curry, yummy! And we watched Harold and Kumar go to White Castle. Really funny movie. While were watching it Grant calls and invites me over for dinner and to "meet the folks" but technically I've already met them. So I was a little bit nervous, not sure why. I guess b/c this time me going over there I'm now "Grant's Girlfriend" somehow that makes me different. But it went really well. I had a lot of fun, and the food was really good. We watched Get Shorty and Usual Suspects. And Grant said something that was soo sweet. I don't think I'll ever forget it. He said "Robin I like you for who you are. And I also like you for who you want to be. I want to help you get there." Wow, when I told Shane that he was speechless b/c he was soo happy for me. Everybody is so happy that I've found such a good guy. He's so awesome!! Wow. Then today went to the folks for lunch. And I did so much at home!! Put oil in my car, cleaned my car, cleaned the yard, took Weaver for a walk, shaved, took my car to Tom's. Lots of work done. I'm tired now so I'm gonna watch a little tv and probably go to bed early. See ya'll! March 25, 2005 Today is Good Friday. I find this day to be very sombering. Think about it, how many years ago Jesus died on the cross for our sins. He paid the ultimate price. I feel so unworthy at times. I am eternally grateful! I love the Easter season. If it weren't for Jesus dying and then raising to life 3 days later we would all be condemed to a life of well hell. So take a moment where ever you are and think about that and pray a prayer of thankfulness. On a less serious note, today were having one of our family Easter things. Grant's coming too. :D This is how it's gonna work out this year. April has to work so were doing our thing on Good Friday. So we also invited Mikey's parents. And since my Auntie Linda and family are up in Staner this weekend we invited Grandma and Grandpa b/c they would be all by themselves. So it's gonna be, Mom, Dad, April, Mikey, Louise and Larry (Mikey's parents), Grandma and Grandpa, Grant and I. Weird eh? Then on April 3rd were doing an Easter/birthday thing with Auntie Linda and family being there. (it's for my mom's birthday, her birthday is on the 2nd of April) I love my family. I can't wait to see Aaron again! It's been forever. And I also can't wait for Aaron and Grant to meet eachother. The 2 funniest people I know in the same room, I will probably be laughing my @$$ off!!! Okay I need to go. Laters!! March 24, 2005 Guess what!!! (if you can't by my last entry) Grant asked me out on Tuesday! It was cool, it was sweet. I really like him. I feel lucky to have found such a good guy. The thing that keeps going through my mind is how I just followed Jesus with what he told me to do and he's rewarded me. I look at my life right now and the way it is, that's what I've always wanted. An awesome support group of friends (I love all you guys, I thank God for you all everyday), my family and I are at a great place, I applied to school (I hope i get in), I have a car, I live on my own, and now I have a boyfriend. A good boyfriend, who encourages me to be myself and makes me laugh. Who is so awesome. Do you know what he did the day he asked me out? He prayed for us. I freaked out inside b/c I've always wanted to have a boyfriend that I pray with. Praying with people is something that is always special to me, and I feel that praying with my boyfriend is extra important and special. (thanks hun) I am soo happy right now. I feel so lucky. Anyways I've got to get going, busy girl ya know! ;) March 22, 2005 I had a great weekend!! It was a lot of fun. Friday I hung out at Grant's house with everybody. I did develop a cold (which I am still fighting) and it kinda hit me Friday oi. Saturday we all went to Sarah's for an Easter thing. I won the chocolate dog. The meal was great!! Kudos to you all! Sunday we all went to my parents (well everybody but Grant) for lunch then to my place to watch The Incrediables. Great movie, very funny. Grant and I had an intresting coversation. Wow, aren't I being vague? Ask me about it, or just keep reading and I'm sure the results will show up here lol. Oi, let's just say it's a matter of time, and that time is coming up soon. So yeah, I got to remove staples for most of the day at work. Lol, and I was hyper so that made it even more fun. Work has been going good. God totally changed my attitude there. But I guess part of it is b/c I'm really hoping that I got into school cuz then I can move on. I don't really want to be a cashier for the rest of my life. Their mailing out the acceptances on March 30th so hopefully I hear right away!! I really hope I get in!! Well I really don't have that much to say right now. So peace out!! March 17, 2005 Happy St. Patrick's Day!!!! Whoo hoo!!! Everything is green today. I painted my nails green, I'm wearing green socks, a green tank top and put green things in my hair. And I've got the feeling that if I try green beer it will be just as gross as regular beer. :p. So were all going to Grant's today for a party. That'll be fun, parties are always a blast. Lol, I think it's funny but I've been eating Lucky Charms all week. (it being St. Patrick's and all) I'm feeling good. I've started doing my devotions while I eat breakfast. It's such a good way to start the day. I do devotions and then on the drive to work I pray. God has been working in my life. I feel much calmer, I'm not really worried about my future right now b/c I know God has it under control. Like about school, Grant, my job, my money situation. I gave it all to Him and it's soo freeing!! I don't want to take it back b/c I screwed up my life soo bad and it's taken God to put it back together. Cuz there is noooo way I could have done it myself. It's amazing what God will do when you let go. (read my poem that I just posted under poetry, it goes more into the whole letting go theme.) Well I don't have much more to say. I'm just very joyful right now. Tootles! March 15, 2005 I slept for 12 hours last night!! Boy do I feel nice and rested. Ahhh :D. Lol, I like having days off b/c then I get to sleep in till whenever I feel like it. I've had a few good days. Let's see last week I only didn't hang out with Grant on Thursday and I only didn't hang out with Cody on Friday. Pretty sweet eh? Lol, I think it's funny. And we were at my mom's like 3 times last week. She loved it. On Sunday we had a singles ministry pot luck (Lol it's funny b/c apparantly I will now HAVE to make angel food cake for any potluck that I ever attend again) and then we went bowling. Oi, I'm not very good at bowling but I have a great time!! We had six of us on one lane, Cody, Kevin, Allen, John, Shane and I. It was fun. Then some of us went to my mom's for pizza. (basically Shane and Allen left and Grant joined in) We all had a good talk. I love my family lots. And I'm so glad that my family and friends get along so well. :D. I just feel settled right now, like grounded almost. I have been controlling urges to overeat, (thanks for the help Cody :D) I have been pushing down desires to become depressed, I've been praying everyday for a while right now. I feel like God is in control of my life and I'm just waiting to see what he's gonna do. Sometimes it's freaky b/c He throws me in ways that I didn't think I could go but when I'm there He gives me the strength and desire to continue in that area. Trusting God is hard, but it's soo worth it!! It's so much better b/c He has greater plans for you then you have for yourself. So Grant got to meet Kelly and Seigi on Friday. That was fun. We all went to Kelly's house. Kelly's awesome!! She gave me this beautiful coat and a whole set of dishes!!! She's awesome. And when we all got to sitting and talking, Kelly grilled Grant. It was funny. Basically she told Grant that if he hurts me she'll kick his @$$. Grant said that he appricated that. They all got along so well and that excited me. I miss Kelly I don't get to see her near as much as I would like to. (remember, we used to work together almost everyday) I guess I realized that Kelly is my fighter, and I love her for it. She always fights for me and she's not afraid of anything. And Seigi is amazing as well. He makes me feel safe and special. He treats Kelly so good, I love it. She deserves to be loved that much. March 10, 2005 To quote Shania Twain "Men's shirts, short skirts. Wow oh oh oh. Really go wild and feel the way I feel. Man I feel like a woman." I "borrowed" mom's cd, ha ha if she ever gets it back!! (smiles b/c her sly plan has worked!) It's such an awesome cd. Cody and I were listening to it today as we were hanging out. It was cool, I got this message basically telling she's bored and wondering if we could hang out when I was off work. Of course I complied with her wishes. We went to Quizno's and out for Bubble Tea. Then we had small group were we met up with Kevin and John. I wanted to play pool tonight, but nobody else wanted to. So Cody and I went to McDonalds and talked there for a while. Good talk. We have been doing soo much talking recently. It's just that I got a few things stuck in the loop. (lol hmm, I wonder who/what that could be lol) And Cody's got a few things of her own stuck in her own loop as well. So yea this week has been cool. The other day I experienced another one of those "this is it" moments. It was Wednesday after TUG, Shane, mom, Cody, Grant and I were all hanging out at my mom's. Everybody got along so well and it was just a special night for me. It was like I was surrounded by people who care about me and it was soo relaxing and comforting. There was no stress, no worries. Just calm. It was great. I'm learning lots this time around at TUG. I started the Good Sense Budgeting course. I'm going to learn how to manage my finaces. I'm at the stage "One paycheque away from disaster". Lol, how true eh? Cody's going to join us next time. It's good for Cody, Shane and I. One thing I've been realizing lately is that God is involved in ALL aspects of your life!!! Not just the major things. He cares about how much you eat, how you spend your money, who you end up being married to. Anything that consumes your time with worry or doubt is something that you should let God deal with. Be it friends, work everything. Learning this has taken a huge load off of my mind. I feel lighter and soo much happier. I'm trusting God with things and He does such a better job! Well I'm tired. I get to sleep in tomorrow. (yea!! I'm gonna get more then 7 hours sleep tonight!) Later days! March 8, 2005 Picture this. Sunday afternoon after lunch, April, Mike and I are doing dishes. Mom is doing some kind of paper work at the table and Dad has already left for work. I put in Shania Twain's greatest hits album. (my gosh I need to get that cd) and I crank it. The 3 of us are DANCING and belting out the song in the kitchen, soo funny. Mom was singing too. But April, Mike and I were dancing as we were doing dishes. It was great fun. I don't mind doing things if I have great music playing. It was just one of those experiences that are just too funny! So I went with Cody to Niagara College today, to find out how to drive there to see what the campus is like and what not. After we get there and get a parking pass we finally go in. Wouldn't you know it? There is a power failure! So we ended up hanging out with Grant and went home when they closed the school down. Well actually we went to Cody's house. Grant and I took sanctuary on her bed while Cody threw things around her room "cleaning" lol. Nah, it looks really good right now. But it was fun, at one point the 3 of us fell asleep on her bed all cuddled up together. I got to be in the middle, a Robin sandwhich. (the pic below is taken from Superbowl, but you get the idea) In other great news some my closest friends got engaged last weekend!!! Soo totally excited!!!!! Like you have no idea. I watched their relationship develop and I was there for the whole thing. I mean I knew it was only a matter of time but I wasn't expecting it soo soon!! Congrats you two!! Lastly I'm excited b/c I've been dealing with things when they actually happen. Like okay guys, let's admit it. Monday night RAW sucked, everybody was being snarky and I went quiet. I don't get quiet very often, usually when I'm upset. But it's been resolved already!! Like I talked to people, I prayed about it. (which helped soo much!) I don't know what was totally wrong. I know Shane was worried and I appricate him calling me on it. And I also appricate Cody coming down and talking to me to see what was going on. She felt it too. But left, right and centre I have been resolving things. Not letting too much time pass before I say something. I've been praying every morning about Grant and I. Cuz I don't know if anything will even happen. But I'm not worried about it b/c I've given it totally to God. How exciting is that? I mean sometimes I take it back and I get worried or anxious or upset again. But for the most part I've been totally steady. WEIRD!!! Me, being steady. It's like wicked cool! Cuz usually I'm a roller coaster and it's quite the ride. Anyways it's getting late and I've got work tomorrow. So peace out ya'll!! March 7, 2005 Soo John's back from the army. He's here to stay. Wow eh? It was so random I was on my break on Friday and I get a call and my call display said Barron's so I figured it was Grant and it wasn't, it was John. I freaked!! I was soo not expecting it!! So all of us went to an all nighter at Calvary that Friday. (all of us being, Grant, John, Cody, Kevin and I) Well Kevin didn't do the all nighter cuz he had to work but he came for part of it. It was great fun! We watched Taxi, Flight of the Phenoex and Troy. (I love Troy!! Am currently reading The Odyessey) It was great fun. Didn't sleep a wink, how could I? So after the all nighter we all went out to Perkins. Now I was exhausted!! So Cody came over and we slept on my fouton till 5:00. Then everybody came over and we watched more movies. Then Cody and Kevin slept over at my place. So all together I spend 36 hours straight with Cody. Nifty eh? Then yesterday Grant took me out to see Hitch and The Pacifier, both are great movies. I really enjoyed them both. Hitch was awesome though!!!! So I had this amazing weekend!! It was great! Thanks guys!! Yeah, so my new glasses are in!!! Booyah!! Check them out! Pretty sweet eh? I really like them. And everything is all clear again, which is extremely nice. I can read street signs again. I don't have any more time cuz I have just finished eating breakfast and I have to go to work. So ciao! March 2, 2005 Found the shovel!! Well actually mom found it. She's soo good at finding things. She's the one that found my glasses earlyer this year when I couldn't see. Lol, she just has this knack I guess. This is what I've learned so far this week; Re-enacting scenes from "The Notebook" is fun, Weaver does not like broccoli, don't use your arms when you rock climb cuz there not as strong as your legs, I'm very much a compulsive overeater and it's a problem, Charlene likes British men lol!, spinach really does get stuck in your teeth, I think that's about it lol! And yes each thing that I've learned has a story. Ask me sometime. So yeah work was good today. Went out with Jen again, mmm, meatball subs and wedges! Man I just can't get over how good these wedges are. Soo yummy!! You just put salt on them and then dip them in mayo!! It's like heaven reached earth and it's located in your mouth! *starts drooling*. So yeah, tonight here are my big plans.. Shovelling and cleaning. Please somebody save me!! Oi, my shoulders are oober sore!!! It hurts to pick anything up. But the sidewalk needs to be shoveled. Well actually last night I finally got a hold of my mother and I asked her to bring over her shovel this morning. I let Weaver out this morning only to see my mom shovelling for me! Too bad it snowed again. :p And I need to do the drive way anyways, I swear one of these times I'm going to get stuck! And nobody is here to help me get unstuck. Tomorrow I have another appoitment with Anita, and hopefully my glasses will be ready a day early! I can't pick them up on Friday cuz I work. Well speaking of shovelling I gots to eat supper. March 1, 2005 I.. am... sore... everywhere. Oi, I went rock climbing with the youth group today, which was great fun, but my muscles are all stiff and sore. I had a blast!! But I'm not very good. I have no strength at all! *blushes* And my shovel got stolen today. Who steals shovels!! I was all set to shovel the sidewalk this evening and I went to do it and there was no shovel!! So ridiculious!! Work was also good today, I got to remove staples from paper. Yup. My work is so important. Lol!! (it was soo slow b/c of the bad weather!) Yesterday we watched RAW at my place!! Yea!! Then after everybody left Grant and I were chatting and I let Weaver out. Then I forgot about him!! When I remembered he was gone!! Dumb dog took himself for a walk. I was freakin!! If anything every happened to my baby I'd be oober upset! So for like 20 minutes Grant and I looked for him. Couldn't find him. By this time it's like 1:00 am!! So Grant had to go home and Weaver still wasn't home. I said I would wait till 2:00 cuz I needed to get sleep. Weaver did come home on his own. I saw him running from all the way up the street!! (I live on a busy street!) Then I called Grant (who had just made it home) and told him!! I was sooo relived!! I was so afraid something would happen to him. But it didn't!! Thank God, which I did!! So yeah currently reading "Breaking Free From Complusive Overeating". Wow, some of the things that I read in that book are really hitting home. I eat b/c I'm bored, upset, mad whatever. I'm an emotional eater and I tend to "graze". Which basically means just snacking all the time. I need to stop doing that. B/C I'm putting food ahead of God. That seems so silly when you actually say it outloud, but it's what I'm doing. And that's not right! So please you guys, help me to eat when I'm actually hungry. I need to break the habit!! Lol, yesterday Shane is like "accountablility works with you". I'm like "I'm the poster child for accountability". Cuz as soon as I know that other people have noticed my problems I have to fix them. Plus it just gives me that extra boost. You know? Well hasta la vista!!