June 28, 2006 So tonight was my "girls" graduation. Wow, I can't believe their graduating! Four years earlyer they were just my little grade nine girls. I love those girls so much and I'm soo excited to see what the years ahead will bring for them. When I get the pictures developed from tonight I'll do a comparison picture lol. (like the one with Aaron and I) I'm so glad to be a part of their life. In other news, I had an intresting weekend at work. I got to be shift supervisor on Friday. (whoo hoo being in charge lol) and on Sunday night when I was working I had to call the cops on a guy b/c he was being so rude and loud and so obiviously drunk that he was quite the distrubance. He got arrested. Some of the other girls on shift were a bit freaked out. But not me, I kinda went into take control mode and their was a situation and I just dealt with it. I tend to not panic in bad situations. That is a good thing. That is also something that I like about myself. I'm going camping. I've made a reservation for July. I've gone and done it. Tomorrow I'm going to make sure I book my time off. I am getting away and I am soo excited! As of now, Aaron, Grant and most likely Shane will be joining me. My fav cousin, my best friend and my boyfriend. It looks like a good weekend lol. I'm soo gonna do some fishing! (and hopefully catch some and have a delicious meal!) Anyways I got work tomorrow and I have to get some sleep. Working 7-3 takes a lot out of me. B/C I HATE mornings lol. That's why I haven't been writing as much, I haven't been online all that often. So I'm outie! June 14, 2006 It's funny, people keep asking me what's new and what's going on in my life, and I keep saying nothing. But I was thinking I haven't really shared about the book Captivating that I've been reading. I've never had a book impact me that way before. I mean I cried many times while reading it. Okay the basic idea of this book is that women have three basic things about them. They want to be the beauty, they want their own role in an adventure and they want to be romanced. I mean you look at women in the church and they are critized soo much for wanting to be pretty, you're considered vain, or on the opposite end if you don't take any time on your appearance you're considered plain and boring or insecure. All three of those things are frowned upon. I mean the book talks about how EVERY women has beauty to unveil. And it's true!! Beauty comes from a soul that is peaceful and at rest. You can look nice on the outside but if you're striving too hard people won't want to be around you. I've always struggled with the beauty issue. I want to be pretty b/c all women want to be pretty, but I felt like the people around me would consider me vain and it was this huge struggle inside of me. I was hurt a lot by the beauty issue growing up. Those were some of the tears that I wept that night with Grant. So picture this, you want to be the beauty, you're told you shouldn't be so how can you mourn or get upset by not being allowed to, it's wrong so I shouldn't be upset over something that is "wrong". So I never allowed myself to feel that pain b/c I felt it was bascially a sin. But it's not, and this book struck a chord with me. Beauty is something that God has given every women on earth. It comes from Him. We all have beauty to unveil, it's a matter of letting our guards down and showing it to people. We often hide behind, bossiness, or shyness or whatever it is that keeps you hidden away. Take some time, relax, let your spirit and soul be at rest. Let yourself revel in God's love and His amazingness. That will reflect on your appearance. Also, about the romanced part. Guess who the great romancer for every women has to be before she will ever be satisified? Jesus. We look for our romancer, our purser in guys around us. They will fail us, they will let us down. Let Jesus be your lover. We are His bride afterall. The part in a great adventure, I think I got that part down lol! This book is so awesome, I think every girl should read it! June 7, 2006 I remembered last night possibly one of the funniest stories from the weekend and I didn't put it down! Silly me! At the wedding their was candles on the table (go figure, candles at a wedding reception lol) anyways Kevin and I were playing with it, seeing what stuff would burn, ie sugar, sweetner, salt etc. Well Grant took the candle away from us. Then later he moved his wine glass (which I might add was filled with napkins lol) The napkins caught on fire!! It was soo funny b/c Grant got SOO embarassed!! It was definitely funny. So I read the book Captivating. My friend Briar bought it for me. I don't think I've ever read a book that has had that much impact on me. I don't know how to describe it. It's like it was talking directly to my soul! It felt like the book was written for me. I cried so many times while reading the book, it was soo good. I recommened that every girl read that book. Even if everything doesn't 100% apply to you, I do believe that the majority of it will, and that this book will help you. So that's my plug for Captivating lol. Anyways I'm off. I just wanted to share that funny story about Grant. Adios! June 6, 2006 Wow I just looked at the whole patethic two entries that I wrote for May. Apparantly I didn't have a lot to say that month. Well I just had a great weekend and I can write about that! Grant, Cody, Kevin and I went to Sarnia for Bill's wedding. Bill is Cody's ex-boyfriend and one of Grant's friends from Heritage. So we finally left St. Catharines at like 2:00, and I was off work at 11:00, not sure how that worked completely. But whateves (and yes it is spelled that way on purpose!) So we start driving to Sarnia. Sometimes when Grant drives he scares me, if he's driving in Toronto traffic it tends to really tire him out and I SAW HIM NODDING OFF WHILE HE WAS DRIVING!! Freaked me out, and he was driving the Tracker which is standard and I can't drive standard. So I decided to engange him in lively conversation to keep him awake. Now I'm currently reading Captivating (amazing book, there will be entries written about that book, don't you worry!!!) and there was a section in the book that I wanted to read to Grant b/c it impacted me soo much and it was such a wonderful passage so I read it to him. We then discovered a few things, the first one being that apparantly I am a good reader when I read outloud, two that we both thing it would be sweet and romantic if we were to read books outloud to eachother and thirdly that reading helps keep Grant awake while driving. So I read quite a bit to him on the ride up and back. So we got there eventually. It took us kinda a while to get there. Oy. So we get there and Kevin and Cody aren't too far behind so we wait for them and then we go swimming!!! Yeah swimming. Then we got dressed and went to the restraunt at the hotel. Very fancy! It was awesome. Cody and Kevin were quite cute while ordering the food and getting it and the whole deal. Now I had brought a game that I borrowed from my fellow youth leader Dan called "Battle of the Sexes" and the four of us played it. (girls won!!) Then by that time we figured we should probaby get some sleep. Oy, except I COULDN'T SLEEP. Grr. So after waking Cody up b/c she was being loud, we talked for a bit, felt bad b/c Grant was puking in the adjoining room and were like "poor guy". Cody and I decided to go for a walk around Holiday Inn in our pj's. We walked around, found a vending machine, got some junk, ate it in the lobby. Then we decided that we wanted to go to Duty Free to buy something for the boys, b/c at Duty Free there's no taxes. Excellent idea. So we go to Duty Free, and realized that after you buy stuff at Duty Free you have to cross over the border to come back to Canada. Opps, I didn't have my id with me. So we bought the boys a present each. (I payed all of mine in coinage!!) We tried crossing the border (in our pj's at 3:45 am in the morning) They gave us a hard time to say the least! But we got back left the presents for the boys. In the morning the boys ordered us breakfast and brought it to us in bed. The presents were in the way of the adjoining door. Umm, I remember Grant saying "They went over the border" in a slightly shocked/irrated/upset sounding voice but he actually dealt with it quite well!! I was so impressed. So we all ate breakfast on Cody and mine's king sized bed. It was great. We got ready for the wedding. I got a manicure and got my makeup done for it. It was fun. The wedding was quite nice, we went to Dairy Queen between the wedding and reception. The reception was awesome. It was an open bar lol, and there was dancing, it was my first time meeting Bill and Beth but they both seem awesome! I definitely woulnd't mind getting to know them better. Cody and Kevin left after the reception to go somewhere else so I had the whole bed to myself. Yeah huge king sized bed to myself. Too bad I couldn't fall asleep. So I talked with Grant, there has been some problems recently in my life, dealing with stuff that I haven't dealt with before. He prayed and told God to "get off his ass and do something" but the second he said that and took that leadership it was like this damm burst inside of me and I just started weeping. It was crazy. But I definitely could sleep afterwards. Drive home was uneventful, I read more books to him, we talked more. But it was an awesome weekend. It was relaxing, it was fun. It was something that I totally needed. I was craving a road trip, and a wedding is always fun! So the first book Grant and I have decided to read to eachother is Wizard of Oz. We discovered this tonight when at Wendy's with the youth. I made a reference to the book about Wizard of Oz and he didn't catch it, I was kinda surprised. He's generally read so many of the whole stories of children's stories. So I said, hey, let's read that one as our first, and he was like "yea, why not." So I'm excited. I love reading and Grant loves reading and I just can't see how this isn't romantic and sweet, I totally think it is. So Grant and Johnny moved on Thursday. I helped after work. It's not a bad place. It suits them. I bought them black bathroom accessories. (so nobody else buy them anything for the bathroom for their housewarmnign party!!) So cool! I have a gift for shopping, I'm really starting to believe that! I just find the perfect things for people. Anyways I hope this entry makes up for the crappy ones of late. I felt like sharing so I did. Good night everybody!