| Are you who think you are? We all have been lied to since childhood. I was convinced in my mind and heart that I was gay but it was a lie. Once we started to belive a lie it become (our) truth. The truth is JESUS Now I now the truth and he has made me free , from (the gay lifestyle)and from death ,sin, povety, sickness, diease, lies and every evil work. By faith of the Gospel of Jesus Christ, by beliving in trusting ,and relying on. I was told by a deceiving spirit that I was gay as a child because as a child I was molested by a family member. As I grew older I started to belive it , an persue it, my heart was figthing against it. (lies/preversion: a strongman cheif demon assigned to destroy my soul )enter my heart,when this happen. As I grew older I fought back and forward trying to understand things of in the spiritual realm with my natural mind at that time not knowing about the spiritual realm. I didn't know it exist ( curses, demons ect.) I just knew what had happen to me . I told no one wanting to forget it myself trying to block it out. My way of dealing with it was trying to make my self forget it ,so to speak. Doing what was normal for a young teenage boy, girl friends,parties hanging out with my freinds ect to prove I was okay to my self I use to tell myself it's just a phase I'm going through .One day it will go away:( another lie ) Things was normal as they could get .Until some bad relationships ,I'm talking years not months the longest one was eight years with Vernetta and the most painfull was two years with Kim. My daugthers mother Tracey was about four months did the most damage to my whole being as a man.The pain was a excuse to turn me in the other direction the wrong direction. The heart break of the theses three women one after another,and the seed that was planted by the devil (the lie) began to grow out of pain and hurt. Being alone only added to the the seed that was planted by the devil to try the gay life stlyle.So I began to belive the lie started to persue the lie. Not knowing I was set up from the begining, This whole thing was a set up to fall into homosexuality fall into a snare of bondage and lies and death. Yes by the devil himself God saw fit for me to go threw this besides it a cruse in my family. Before I understood about the Lord Jesus. I was igorant and saying how could he let this happen to me. Now I can bless others by wittness of the power of God in my life that lose me from the devils lies and tricks. God using this now for his Glory gives the me the victory over what was a curse in my life turned out to be for the Glory of God . I tried the gaystlye uncomfortably for 8 yrs or so off and on I was ashamed of being gay so I was never really happy then. More time off than on drugs was getting a hold on me until the last two years got serious. God use that too I was told by a deceiving spirit (a thought in my mind) that things will get better, it's okay, it's alright. All the while knowing truly in my heart I was miserable. Ashame ,angry ,bitter, hurt, rejected and confused.This was leading me toward death, in the shame that I felt about my self I began to num myself with drinking,weed,& cocaine premo's and then crack rock. My experience in the gay lifestyle was never comforatble I never felt like I was doing the right thing and now I know why. My heart knew the truth Jesus said he wrote his commandments in our hearts prasie be to God Thank you Lord Jesus! --(2 nd Corinthians chap3 V 3). Today I can testify of what beliving the Gospel can do in your life. It can change you if you will allow the Lord to change you. I am still being delivered in my heart, by the God purging out all the junk from deceptions, lies. ect. As I continue to follow Christ the Lord continues in his work in me to perfect me, overcome and get the victory. I am free from the bondage of drugs, cigrettes,drinking No programs or special groups just beliving in and on Jesus. (The Gospel) It's Five years now going on 6 years in June 2004 . Free from drug abuse and all the other stuff. This is what giving your life to Christ can do, change you inside out We can be a new creature in Chrsit Jesus , I am the righteousness of God, I am a prince,and a king a child of the most high God a heir to his Kingdom. If you belive the Gospel it will set you free from every evil work the lies the devil put in your lives to hinder us from being free and saved ,blessed , prosperous in our ,spirit ,soul and body made sound to go on to perfection in Christ Jesus to overcome and stay in the blessings of God the father. This is why I'm asking are you how you think you are? |
| A lie is what the devil says about us, (that's not who God says we are) once we start to belive the lie and it become our truth. |
| Delivered from a Lie |