3Franz Kafka: The Trial, New York, Vintage Books, 1969. The story of Joseph K. -- the respectable functionary in a bank who is suddenly arrested, and then must spend the rest of his life fighting a charge against him of whose nature he can get no information. He was guilty of existing, and because he existed, he must suffer in solitary anguish, unable to learn the direction, if any, of his salvation. To the last instant he believed in vain that help would be at hand. Two men finally murdered him. In his final moment, K. sensed that even his death would be a shame that would outlive him.
The psychiatrist found a fictional situation from a story to compare with my situation. The difference is only that my situation is real and, to help me end my nightmare, nobody has come to murder me. Instead, I am doomed to suffer all my life.