WHY ME GOD
OJO 2004

What have I done to you
since I deserve a fate like this one
without any change at all
is it so that I forgot to pray
in the right way
or was it so that I asked too much
or even prayed too little for forgiveness and mercy
or was it so that I showed no regret
that could satisfy your high standard
or is it so simple
that I have committed so many great sins
that you will never let me come in
the gate to heaven

Please give me an answer
so I can know
how to satisfy you dear God

What have I done against you
since I deserved a kind of life in misery like mine
was I stupid and acted too foolish most of the time
or did I forget to show my respect to
you when it was necessary
or was it so that I told you too much
and you were scared
how can you expect me to learn anything
without a teacher around
to tell when progress is coming
and who will snap my greedy fingers when
I try to steal the apple
that I gave to him this very morning
I am just asking dear dear God

What have I done to make you feel
this way about me
and what have I done against myself
since I lost the personal contact with you my only God
was it so that I enjoyed this earth life
too much in every way
so I forgot the necessary way to go and how to pray
was that the reason you came up with
since you decided to let me live
in the darkest darkness
without any guiding lamps
and I ended up with some huge clamps around my soul
which are totally impossible to take off or remove
what have I done and what will the final
cost be for someone like me
I am just asking dear God
is it really so that there is no hope
for me to be saved
and that my time is used
and my chance to come into the loving
eternity is abused
since I forgot to thank you often enough for my life

What have I done to you
since my destiny seems sealed and closed
for any kind of change
into something that could have been a better life
or is it so that I have missed every message
you tried to give to me
how I should follow your advises to become free