Life after Richard

For anyone that's ever lost someone they know what the pain feels like. There's like a hole in your heart that will never be filled again. That's how I feel when I think about my cousin. I miss him so much. Not a day goes by where I don't think about him and the life he could of had. Before I go to sleep every night I never forgot to say my prayers for Richard. For him to watch over me from day to day. It's been a year since his death, yet it still feels as if it were just yesterday that we buried him. I hope 1 day I will be reunited with my cousin. And I hope he now knows what he meant to me. Richard's death has changed me in so many ways. I try my hardest to live each day as if it were my last. People say time heals everything. That's such a lie. You NEVER get over the death of a loved one. The thoughts are always with you. And it may seem like it get's better, but for me it doesn't. There's always's the "What If's" Richard probably never realized the impact he had on everyone. We all miss him, and he'll never be forgotten. Richard died just 2 weeks before his sister was born. Jenifer is now a year old. She'll never know what her brother was like. But I'll be there to fill her in on what a great person he was. He also had a nephew who was only 1 at the time. Brandon turned 2 years old, two days after Richard passed away. Which mean's he is now 3. When you ask Brandon where Richard is, he'll tell you. He says "Itchard's in heben wif god" Richard loved Brandon more then life itself. And now he won't even be here to watch him grow up. Richard left behind many more ppl who loved him. And the 2 others were his mom Lynne and sister Crystal. Crystal is soon to be 19 with another kid on the way. And his mom is trying. She somehow makes it through the days. I don't know how she does it. Richard's dad is no longer a part of our lives anymore. He and his wife Mary have moved. Rich hasn't been back to the cemetary since the funeral. Not even to wish his son a Happy 14th, and 15th bday.