Rating: G Pairing: none Category: poem Disclaimer: The characters used in the following story are not mine. I do not make any money out of this. It's written for fun and for the fans of the show. Feedback: [email protected] Teaser: Stanley Ray Kowalski turns into Ray Vecchio.
A Different Kind of Death or The Cross That I Bear by Birgitt Schuknecht
Author's note: On various mailing lists there are discussions of the character of Stanley Ray Kowalski. I haven't seen any ep with him in it, but I currently collecting bits and pieces about him from character sketches, fan fiction and from the aforementioned discussion. I want to get to know this character. The following poem I wrote for two reasons. I want to make a first attempt to write about a character that is still developing in my mind. You may call it a first impression. Second, I want to preserve some ideas I have for a future full-length story.
They are giving me some time on my own To realise what a fool I am And I can see by the look in their faces They know what a fool I am
Taking in the smells of this room makes me dizzy This room that still belongs to ANOTHER man Taking in the view of this room makes me sad This room that still belongs to ANOTHER man
Sitting down on HIS bed I try to regret my decision It's just a different kind of death Remembering the last months I lived my own life It was just a different kind of death
There's no great difference after all Between being Stanley Ray Kowalski and pretending to be Ray Vecchio There's no great difference after all Between living with no meaning and living as someone else
It's just a different kind of death And I was a fool to believe I could make a change
On an impulse I open the top drawer of the bedside table I find an envelope On an impulse I open it I find a chain with a cross attached to it
I know it's HIS left behind deliberately And I understand HIS fears of discovery Maybe my task isn't just another kind of death Maybe it's my chance to begin anew
I have to protect HIM That's the cross I have to bear And I will bear it And I put on the chain around my neck
