Claudine Barreto grieves for her love
A SPECIAL TRIBUTE TO RICO YAN
I want to be remember by the people that I help.
As somebody who always managed to
be there,
When they needed
me the most. And I always told them,
that no matter what
happen, I'll
always here by your side.
And will never stop until, I'll help you to achieve
your dreams;
-=RICO=-
Claudine Barreto grieves for her love
As this shows section says it, Claudine Barretto bared her all in this exclusive
interview after her beloved boyfriend, best friend and partner Rico Yan passed away.
Truly a hard and touching conversation, no emotions were withheld from the public’s eye as Claudine showed her
true self, with no facades whatsoever, only pure, genuine emotions. And thus, here it is.
"Hindi ko alam. I don't know. Hindi ko alam kung nasaan ako ngayon" a shocked Claudine expresses.
The emotions that are flooding up in her heart and mind is something that can’t be explained
through mere words. The frustrations and the sorrows, it’s something one would never wish to experience. But unfortunately, Claudine did.
"I was in Subic with my family. Sa lunch napansin ko na ako na lang ang nag-iisang kumakain sa table.i had a felling na something was wrong and kakausapin nila ako ng hindi ko alam ng tungkol
saan. My mom went down and she was pale and sabi niya nahihilo lang daw siya. My dad and Marjorie and my kuya Dennis was in the room, tapos kinuha ako ni Kuya Dennis and
kakausapin daw ako ni daddy sandali. I went up and, pinaupo nila ako and sabi nila be strong. Tapos sinabi nila na Rico daw was in Dos Palmas and last night daw he passed away."
"Tumayo, I couldn't breathe. Tapos tumayo ako, hindi ako makaiyak. I went down and I was calling his cell.
It was off. I think Marvin called me and he was crying and I was screaming at him because he was crying.
Yun lang. and then I was hoping that he was still in the hospital. Hindi ito puwede. I don't know what I felt exactly but
sinabi ko na this can't happen. This can't happen to me, more to him. More than anything this cannot happen to him."
But the will of the One who created the world cannot be stopped. Rico has gone and his loved ones have been left in
tears and sorrows. And unfortunately, being showbiz personalities, rumors about the reasons for Rico’s death spreadout like the wind, some bad, others good.
"Kung anuman ang nangyaring gulo sa amin tapos na iyun. Naayos na yun. We talked about it. Before he left alsohe called. Okay na kami. He said the same things he told me nung 17, I'm sorry and I'll just give me time to think and
after Holy Week he'll know what to do. But he did not come back. We we're okay. We were talking about what is going
to happen. And we forgave each other na. It was only us who knew what happened. We were supposed to go to take
a cruise and then he wanted to go to Palawan and I said I didn't want to. And he asked me if I wanted to come. I said I
want to spend time with my family first and we'll have time to think. He said it's okay. Sabi niya when he gets back
everything will be okay. And it's not okay. Because he promised na when he gets back nga, we'll talk and I don't know.He didn't keep his promise. And now I don't know if I'm going to see him again kahit na sandali lang."
Painful as it may be, it is true. But with all the hurt and the sorrow, a death of someone loved can’t always be about
sadness. Memories, good ones, will always be remembered for sure. The time spent with each other will never ever
be forgotten.
"I learned a lot. There were so much good memories. And I don't know how this could happen to us. WE had so much
dreams and plans. We had so many secrets na kami lang may alam. And it's all gone. Much more after that day, we
had a big fight. Wala lang. Siguro it was just, siguro it just had to happen na we would fight about small things. Things that really don't matter. Siguro in
preparation yun for this one."
But what actually sparked this fight?
"It was just one big fight about nothing. It was very petty that became very big. But I did talk to him after nun and we were texting each other pa. Now I keep feeling his text, all the time. We really had a big problem. But it was a small thing that became a big fight. But it was okay na."
With everything that has happened, nothing can ever be changed. He was here and now he has left. But forever, his love and Claudine’s will always stay and will last through more than just a lifetime.
"God! I do so much! Sobra, sobra! I don’t know how I'm gonna be able to get through this. I still can't believe. I'm so helpless. All I can do is just talk to him. I say that he broke his promise again, that when he gets back we'll fix everything and that hindi na niya ako iiwan. Pero parang he just had to go and I can't do anything about it. Even if it is so hard, like bakit ngayon? I didn't even get to see him or to hug him. Or to say that I really love him again. It was only through phone."
Simple things to people alive but when the time comes and it’s already too late, the pain can be unbearable.
"Painful sobra. Parang slowly he's killing me also. Ang sakit lang talaga. I cannot explain. It's hard when you wake up and you know that the person I love most is not there. The most important person in my life."
And with all the hurt and the sorrows, one can never avoid having some regrets.
""I'm sorry for not being there that night. That's all I can say. Kasi if I would've been there, baka something lang could have, He could've been here pa. But I know naman it's God's will. But maybe lang."
And with that wish, forgiveness must also follow.
"And I can't now" Claudine utters.
Maybe time will come and heal the wounds. In the meantime memories are the only ones left to cherish.
"Even before. We were okay already. We were supposed to talk to his friend who is a priest.
Fr.Caluag. And it would have made things better pa."
But as she said, it didn’t push through. But now, the people that Rico’s life has touched are becoming more evident. His goodness is now being recognized. And Claudine only wishes one thing.
"Huwag niyo siyang kakalimutan and alam ko na gusto niya na andun kayo. Huwag niyo siyang kakalimutan."
And to Rico…
"God, I miss you so much. God, I miss you so much, Hon!"
*This site is constructed in the loving memory of RICO YAN *