In the days since I ended my friendship, I've been trying to heal my wounds that were caused by the breakup. I'm making progress on my anger management sessions again, using the various methods that my therapist had given me. I still have my Koosh ball, and I take it everywhere I go. Whenever I see rush-hour traffic on the expressway, I just squeeze my Koosh ball and count silently to ten as I do. I also listen to relaxing music (either WNUA or one of my jazz CDs) to ease the pressure of sitting in heavy traffic. In the latest session, I've been working on removing the word "idiot" from my vocabulary, because I never meant to hurt anybody with that word. In retrospect, it was wrong of me to use the word, and so I apologize to everyone I've offended with it. As one era draws to a close, another one begins, which is my getting reacquainted with my old high school buddies. I've noticed that some of them are married with kids, and I'm happy for them. I'm having fun teasing them with the news of my engagement, but honestly, I love them all because they're like family to me. I'm sorry that I missed the ten-year reunion, but I hope that I make it to the next one. But for now, I'm moving on from the relationship that I guess was never meant to be. I'm so disappointed at the fact that I had to see seven years go down the drain, but there was a line, and he crossed it. Once again, though, I'm making steady progress on my sessions, and in the end, that will make me a much better person than I was before. Since I couldn't sleep, I figured that I would go ahead and write this. Afterwards, I'll try to get some rest and prepare to take on next week, LOL! Seriously, though, I'm happy with my life again, and I am glad that my old friends are back in it, because they were some of the best friends I ever had! I hope it remains that way.