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THE RANT PAGE!!!! |
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5/17/03@4am--I should be in bed now sleeping off this "drunkeness"(how the hell did I drive home??), but I have to put up this 'guest rant' from my brother. Most of it rings so very true!!
Your poems and rants have a lot to do with women, so I am assuming you just had a relationship end though I don't know for sure or if so with who since I don't get to see you very often. But I do know that is the worst fucking thing in the world. Well maybe not the very worst cause I can think of some really messed up stuff. But I know I would rather have a broken leg than break up with someone becaues at least then you know it is going to heal in a fixed period of time and that the pain is really just that short period where the leg gets snapped and that is it instead of having that same level of pain for what seems like forever. I still get fucking pissed if I ever really think about *name deleted* and that was three years ago. I mean I would have rather she had died then to do what she did, because either way she is gone, but at least if she had died you would have at least think she still cared, and maybe even more important you know she is never coming back instead of going through like the year where you still think she might realize that you were actually pretty good. Oh well didn't meant to turn the topic to about me. The main point is just that it will suck for a long time but it goes away eventually.
(That's the only part he got wrong....pain never goes away....it's simply replaced by new pain!) |
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5/15/03---Just a random rant, with very little detail. Does anyone know how hard is to look at something everyday and remember how glad you were when you first found it, and all the fun times you had with it, only to be reminded on a daily basis of how you didn't measure up in the end?? Man, it really sucks ass!!!! |
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5/15/03-------The F*ciKING. cable company recently updated my service, and in doing so they moved my Comedy Central from channel 52 to channel 80. The only problems is, they haven't got everything fixed yet, so I DON'T GET CHANNEL 80!!!!! Ain't that a bitch. One of my few little "twinges" of happiness comes from having Comedy Central on while surfing the net. Now I'm denied that. Sometimes, I really swear life is out to get me!! |
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5/14/03---You know, I got an anonymous email asking me why I felt I was ugly. That's a fair question, so I'll give a fair answer. It's not like I haven't had girlfriends before, I've had a few in my lifetime including a couple that lasted anywhere from 2 1/2 years to around 7 years. That's right.....7 years. Pretty damn long time by today's standards of relationships. Hell, that's longer than a large percentage of marriages. Anyway, besides those long term ones, I've also had a variety of short term ones. But here's the thing. The vast majority of them, if not all, ended about the same way. Everything was going well(or so I though), and the next thing you know, there's problems. And then....BOOM....I'm single. Now maybe that's my fault for not being more observant....I don't know. But here's what I DO now. Months after, I'll eventually bump into the ex again, and I get to hear how I always treated them so well, did everything for them, always was nice to them, yadda yadda yadda. Sounds great doesn't it? Well, it actually really sucks ass! Why? Think about it. That basically means the girl was thinking.."Let's see...he treats me very well, better than any other guy. He's always so sweet to me and does nice things for me on a constant basis. But hell....this isn't what I want in a relationship! I'm gonna dump him!" So what's missing there? Let's see...respect, check. Kindness, check. Love, check. Physical looks, ...um....uh......ohhhhh, just missed the mark. You know, growing up I used to cling to the hope that my great personality and respect for other people would win out over my non-attracive looks. It was basically the only thing that kept me going as far as relationships go. And even after the first couple times I was proven wrong, I still thought 'Maybe it was a fluke. Or two flukes. Or three flukes'. But now I've come to realize that society has warped so many people's mind that personality will never win out over looks. It's a sad truth, but a truth none the less. It took a bit for me to learn this, but after being beat over the head enough with it, I've finally accepted it. You know, to know if something is hot, you have to know what cold is so you have a basis for the comparision. So it stands to reason that to know who is attractive, you have to people like me who are ugly to compare them to. |
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5/12/03---My very first entry on this page! Yay!! Ok....I have seen a show that EVERYONE must watch. It's called Most Extreme Elimination Challenge. Let me tell you about this show. For the longest time, the japanese have done shows featuring lots of crazy stunts and challenges. Sort of like Fear Factor on super steroids. Well, this show is obvioulsy one of those(it's imported...every is asian, contestants, hosts, audience etc). But whoever had the brainstorm to import this show to America also came up with an excellent idea. "Why not have somebody do voice overs, instead of dubbing or anything like that?" So you have this 'old Godzilla movie' effect when you watch the show...but the stuff they say is fucking funny as hell!!! It's all jokes and stuff. Kinda like what they used to do on Mystery Science Theatre(another good show). But that's not even the best part(altough it's funny enough by itself). The stunts...OMG!!!! These are the type of stunts drunken frat boys think up, but never have the balls to do. I saw one called "The Human Fly" or something. Basically the person swung over this pond and then released the rope and tried to 'stick' to this big wall while wearing a velcro suit. But the angle at which they swing makes sure they fly pretty damn fast, and usually end up crashing into this wall and tumbling to the ground. I swear it looks like some of them get seriously injured. Seriously, I don't even do this show justice with my description. WATCH IT WATCH IT WATCH IT. It comes on TNN, and I caught it Sunday, but it might be on at other times.
On other subjects, apparently there's this big shock over the winner of Survivor. I've never watched the show and frankly could care less who wins. But this 'shock' bothers me. The winner was this model, who apparently on the show was bitchy, lazy, and overall not a very nice person. I don't get why people are shocked. Look people......I've said it before and I'll say it again. The "BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE" of the world will almost always win over us "UGLY PEOPLE". What I mean by that is, if you have a certain 'look' that society judges to be above average...it allows you to come out on top more often than not. You can have THE WORST personality in the world, but if you have the right 'look', you never have to worry. From people that get promotions, to those who win contests, to love and relationships.......unattractive people will always lose!! Always!!! I can say this with complete confidence being one of the unattractive ones.
Well that's about it for the first rant. I could go on and on, but I'll space them out. Wrestling is about to come on, and while cleaning house yesterday, I discovered I still have a case of these cheap ass 40oz beers from a long time ago. And I'm sick and really havn't been eating well so I plan to switch to a liquid diet and see just how much beer I can drink while watching wrestling. Sometimes a sad existence is better than no existance(but not much better). |
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Basically, this is just gonna be a page where I write down various rants, observations, things I find humerous, things that piss me off, and whatever the hell else I want to(because it is MY page. So be warned, a lot of the stuff I write about will probably piss some people off, might upset others, might make you laugh when you're not supposed to. I'm not apologizing, I'm just giving you a heads up. I'll probably post a new rant every couple days of so. |
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