I don't belong here
I don't fit in here
I am not original, I am an outcast
Nothing I do is right
Nothing I say is correct
The more I try, the harder I fail
My skull dented from beating against the wall
The taste of failure strong on my lips
The vision of doom stinging my eyes
The sound of rejection ringing in my ears
I am an outsider
I am outside myself
Looking in at all the empty spaces
Remember what used to be there
Dreams of happiness
Dreams of success
A chance for the "good life"
I've watched it all turn to dust
I can see my sanity slipping away
I feel my steps falter, my grip loosen
I'm falling into the darkness
And soon I will crash
I am outside myself
I am no longer myself
Gone is the boy that always smiled
Replaced by the man with the heavy heart
The crushed soul, the empty mind
Devoid of feelings, lost for emotions
Yet, bursting into tears for no reason
Love and caring swapped for hatred and loathing
Hatred of myself
Loathing for those who are happy
Why them, why not me
I used to be them but
I am no longer myself