Today's emotion:

Today I had a doctor’s appointment.  My mom made me go because she said I do not eat enough.  The doctor said she does not really see a problem with how much I eat, but she has problems with what I eat.  She said I really do not eat healthy.  I told her I have not had a single glass of milk in about 2 and half years.  She said my bones are probably bad.  Maybe that is why many of my joints ache.  She wants me to take a multivitamin, like Centrum^®. Don’t old people take Centrum^®??  I feel old.  She told me I needed a new Tetanus shot, and they could do it today. In the back of my mind I said, “Isn’t Tetanus the one that hurts.”  Then when the nurse came to give me the shot it only literally took 1 second and did not hurt at all.  My doctor did say she wants me to come back soon for blood work.  She wants to check to see how low my levels of calcium and Vitamin D, among others.  She also wants to check my cholesterol, because the men in my family have a history of having really high cholesterol and dying of heart attacks in their early thirties.  I was supposed to hang out with Abiola today, but I am not. She said we could go shopping today when she gets out of school, which is at 2:10. Then a couple days ago, she tells me she wants to be home by 6pm. We were going to go shopping in Natick. I told her there is no way I’m going shopping in Natick and coming home by 6 if I’m leaving at 2:10 or so. Therefore, we are not going.   Mom had invited Jessie to supper on Monday, but Jessie did not come. I really do not think she wanted to come. I had nothing at all to do with mom inviting her, and for most of the day I was unsure about how I felt about her coming over. Then a little before she said no, I decided it cold be interesting if she came. She had said the day before that she wanted to hang out with me, just to see what would happen. I told her I did not really feel like “just hanging out with her.” Then after I thought about it for a while on Monday, I decided if she came to supper, maybe we could hang out afterwards. I figured that would be easy, she would already be here, maybe it would be ok. Monday night I communicated with her through Facebook messages and she said she might come next week to supper. Well last night I sent her a message and asked her if she was coming to supper next week. She said she had not thought about it all and had not decided yet. However, the way she said, it seemed like she was not going to come. I do not think she will come. She wanted to hang out, and I finally gave in and was going to, and now I doubt she will come over.