Why does understanding come with such a high price?
In all the eons of the existence of this universe
Why couldn't the creators come up with better methods?
Maybe this was the better, then why not a less painful?
I watched helplessly as it devoured you
I would have gladly taken it into myself
To spare you that pain
I'm not so good at this anymore
I remember when we were apart
Waiting and Waiting
Then finally moving heaven and earth to be together
The time was an eternity, each hour a pin prick to the heart
Each day a snail, accompanied by a sigh
And now I face those long hours again
Those slow days until my time comes
With no relief in sight this time
I'm not suicidal, but I hope I don't make it much past seventy
I can't wait to see you again
I'll be so used to physical form, I hope I recognize your soul alone
Will you appear as you did here, as you would have
As you did long ago?
I can't stop myself from using phrases like "long ago"
It's just how my human brain is wired
Will you be the mist that surrounds me?
I know you'll come for me, and I'll know you instantly
You're already the spirit that sustains me
I used to feel like half a person
It's hard now not to feel like less
I know you'll always be here with me
Inside me
I just wish I could hold you
Kiss you another thousand times
Tell you all the things you already know but never get sick of hearing
Help me find a new purpose for my life
All our plans are in a nice green casket across from Piggly Wiggly
Are you laughing at that too?
How come you're so beautiful?
When we make love there will it be like here
Will I not be able to tell where my soul ends and yours begins?
Never say kiwi, I'll never say mosie
We knew what we were talking about
When we said Forever
9-16-00