Once again, indescribable
The words too colorless, formless
Like the force that still protects my heart
It still sits warm in his immaterial hands
Engulfed in his intangible arms
Still skipping a beat
When a seemingly directionless gaze
Penetrates to its tiny core of soul
Proclaiming truth, casting no judgement
Asking only for love in return
His own personal never-ending fount
That essence so invisibly blinding
My head spins while it fills in
The missing lips and breath
That my skin so badly demands
The voice, the music
That my ears need to hear
Dizzy, timeless ecstasy
I panic as it slips away
Come back, stay with me
Single tears following each other down
A song that is just him starts on the radio
I'm still with you, I'm not going anywhere
I know, panic button gone
Fear of the Unknown obsolete
Death no longer that dreaded foe
Whose brilliant idea was it to dress Death
In a black robe and give him a scythe
I say dress him in jeans and a t-shirt
Give him a functional pocket knife from a flea market
Give him crystal eyes to capture the light of Life
Prism it and cast it as a rainbow on the wall
Our only guarantee should be a good friend
Or is that too gothically morbid?
I know I'm babbling, because I know you're listening
Let me close my eyes and lean my head against you
Small, content noises escaping my throat
Because I feel you stroke my hair, your lips on mine
Only you could make me purr
Flashes of our world in my mind, our beach
I'm going to make love with you there
On the sand, in the water
But I have to wait so long to get there
It'll go by in a blink, you'll see
You're waiting for me, midnight eyes, strong hands
Beautiful spirit
How many will I be waiting for?
Special, worthy, lucky people
Will you be here when I wake up
Of course I will
He strokes my hair and whispers me to sleep
My face hurts from smiling
3/30/2001