Title: Succession (1/1)

Author: Rez

Rating: NC-17

Timeline: Any time after 2.14, “Double Agent”

Summary: Like mother, like daughter? Like—Sark.

Disclaimer: Alias and its characters are the property of J.J. Abrams/Bad Robot Productions.

Archive: Cover Me, Dark Enigma.

Feedback: Cherished and always acknowledged: lo_re z@ adelphia.net

A/N: Thanks, as always, to Meghan, alpha beta.

This piece follows “Home Before Dark,” for those who care to read them in order.

 

 

 

 

He hands the keys to the attendant, speaking French; it’s common enough in the polyglot Netherlands, and his Dutch is scant. The safe house is in Wassenaar, outside The Hague. Expensive, a diplomatic ghetto; geopolitical adversaries rubbing shoulders over petit déjeuner and champagne cocktails. Hide in plain sight.

 

She greets him pleasantly, even with warmth—no trace of the intensity of Madrid or Stuttgart or a dozen other way-stations. She’s genuinely fond of him, he knows. What he feels for her can’t be defined or even spoken of. He scans her face, takes a sounding of the calm he finds there. She’s temporarily at rest, he decides.

 

She carved him out of dirty candle-wax one raw night, grew him from a cracked seed, conjured him out of the roadside muck—an exercise of careless power, her abilities so great she’s never questioned that he’s hers. And he is, always will be. She looks into his eyes, stripping him bare with no effort at all. Her smile grows. “Come in,” she says, touching his cheek lightly.

 

Her own eyes are pitiless, at once hot and cold, opening onto insights he has no ambition to understand. He follows her through the door.

 

In recent times he’s found he can see beyond her, something he couldn’t imagine at the beginning. He acts for himself now, not only for her; doesn’t share her obsessions, knows an independence of judgment that widens the distance between them. He believes she’s aware of this, and approves. She’s not possessive, at least where he’s concerned.

 

But being around her recalls him to discipline, if he needs recalling. His mind’s a spacious room, very clean, beautifully lit and proportioned, aired and maintained by methods unavailable to the herd. He’s an adept, by now, absorbing the essentials of each experience, extracting the lessons. The remainder is dismissed, giving him liberty to breathe.

 

He learned this from her as well.

 

On his back, an animal, baited and staked, persuaded to something greater by her strong hands, her soft voice, the essentials of pain—and pleasure. But not till the lesson’s learned.

 

*

 

She straddles him, letting him feel the sweet, slick heat in store for him. He’s in heaven but he knows by now it’s not that simple. He can’t care, just at present; he’s so ready it’s hard to wait. She slides down his thighs a bit further, and he can’t believe she’s going to—

 

—She reaches up for the gimcrack chain he wears with his mother’s little gold-plated cross, last earthly evidence of that small woman’s existence. She snaps the chain.

 

He shouts, seizes her wrist, blind with thwarted sensation and outrage. She breaks his hold easily, smiling. Strikes him across the face with her open hand. His blue eyes widen, looking up at her in shock. She holds up the chain with its pathetic trinket.

 

“Will you forget her?” Her low voice is like an angel’s, soft, slow music; but she’s a devil, a devil, he thinks. He shakes his head, panting. No.

 

“Ever?”

 

No.

 

The hand that struck him caresses him now, sure and perfect, all he’s ever wanted. He moans, moves with the motion. It stops.

 

“Do you want more?” He’s breathing desperately, straining for her. Won’t answer. She caresses him again. Another anguished sound. “Want to finish?”

 

“Christ. Yes.”

 

Her smile again. She holds up the chain.

 

“More than you want this?”

 

He writhes, hating her.

 

“No, you bitch,” grinding his teeth. He twists, trying to unseat her. He’s never succeeded. Doesn’t now.

 

She strikes him again, getting his attention.

 

“Will you forget—this?” Her touch pierces him again with pure feeling, pleasure no different from pain at this far boundary of sensation. If he doesn’t answer he won’t get through this, and he thinks he’ll probably die. She’s almost killed him before. Another shake of the tousled blond head.

 

No.

 

She laughs—throws back her head and laughs. Looks back down at him, fondly, smiling just for him, as though she might really love him. She tells him:

 

“Beautiful boy, angel eyes. Of course you will.” In that low, slow, slightly distracted voice, her fingertips brushing his lips. And even that makes him shiver.

 

“You’ll forget this every time it happens. Know this, understand it. Don’t confuse things. Now, right now, you need this—” another intimate caress, another knife of agonizing pleasure going through him. “You don’t need this,” holding up the chain. “Do you understand?”

 

And he does understand, through the extremity of his desire, his distress. She has such a clear way of showing him things. Though he thinks she’s wrong about forgetting the sex; that’s definitely impossible.

 

She reads his mind, she always does, and he hears her delicious laugh again, low and soft. She tosses the chain into a corner like so much trash, leans down to him, so beautiful; takes him in, finally, helping him to release. He’s almost there—

 

“I promise,” she whispers. “You’ll forget this, always, every time, I promise, I promise—” and he’s gone, a bolt of pure energy aimed at her, the words echoing in the emptiness as he launches himself from the edge of the world. I promise.

 

He leaves the chain where it fell, when they go.

 

He was a child then. He’s never since proved her wrong.

 

*

 

They have a drink: vodka, a tradition she ignored for a long time, but the point of that discipline has dulled. Later, the Indonesian cook serves them spiced meat and rice.

 

She studies him, saying little; asks an occasional question. He’s familiar with the silence, always watchful in her company. He answers, observing while she considers what he tells her. Her potential has never been greater, and will go on increasing, he knows, as long as she lives.

 

He’s a power in his own right, now. He could still die at her whim on any day at all.

 

Not today.

 

*

 

Never refuse pleasure, she’s told him. He never has. He still takes whatever she gives, always gives her what she asks. Though he’s a connoisseur, lately, less easily pleased.

 

She hardly notices. Knows him so thoroughly it’s almost as though she believes he could never surprise her. A failure of the imagination; a symptom, he thinks, of the isolation in which she lives. He crushes the sudden, clear memory of her daughter, the American, and their odd, clumsy encounter, barely a week ago.

 

And he responds to her automatically, conditioned by all that time in which she schooled his body along with his will. It’s been years since he knew how to distinguish one from the other, or cared to.

 

*

 

He lifts his head, drugged on the smell and feel and taste of her. She rarely allows this particular pleasure. Earlier, he got a few words of Russian out of her, a more frequent victory as he grows more skilled and her seclusion increases. So he ventured to insist. He rests his head against her knee, breathing hard. Hears her voice, slow and distracted:

 

“And the Bern meeting—it went as expected?” A hard smile crosses his face. He wipes his mouth against her silky thigh and pulls himself up.

 

“Fuck the Bern meeting, Irina,” he says.

 

She smiles back, indulging him. He rolls over, pulls her onto him. Kisses are another thing she doesn’t often permit; nor does he, the vulnerability too great. He has another troubling flash of Sydney Bristow, her ripe mouth against his, and the gulls crying. His hold tightens, briefly.

 

*

 

He flexes his hands, arms outstretched, gasping. She says:

 

Anselmo called … there was a 24-hour delay in Los Angeles?” Hands hot against him, around him, taking him—strong, cruel, sweet, needful touch—indolent voice. He laughs, breathless. It’s a contest for certain. It always is.

 

“He’s such a bore. I couldn’t bear the thought—ah—

 

She smiles, relenting. Rakes a nail down the long muscle of his thigh. His sudden breath hisses through his teeth. She does it again, harder this time.

 

*

 

“But—there was a woman … he thought.” She’s sliding onto him, long legs stretched against his, slow, heavenly torture. Then, more slowly still, up again till she barely holds him inside, flirting, exquisite sensation exquisitely prolonged. And down again—but not quite—

 

“—Ah—  But he’s fighting it. “—When—” He can’t breathe. Flexes his hands again, reaching for control: “—did that ever—matter—to you?” And she’s fully in command, every advantage on her side.

 

But he’s possessive, this once—determined to keep something for himself—since he still has no idea why it all happened, that afternoon last week. He’d never lie. But it’s nothing to do with Irina

 

—And she plunges onto him, leaning forward, her silk-velvet skin electrically charged against his belly. She drags herself up again. He moans through clenched teeth, looking up at her, knows she sees the resistance in his eyes. She lets her weight intensify the sensation, presses her hands against his chest. She quickens the rhythm, so tight and so slick around him, forcing another low sound from his throat. Her long hair teases his skin. He moves, involuntarily.

 

She always does this. He still won’t speak. She won’t need him to. Her voice is less languid, breathier:

 

“—It was sudden. He said. Someone you knew—”  

 

His head goes back as she forces him toward release. He sees her blurred face above him, through his lashes, so close now—

 

—The dragon-fire eyes looking inward, where the solution shimmers through the surrounding noise. A half-smile, signal that she’s on the track, sees a supposition approximate to the ragged, empty space where the answer should fit.

 

A special smile, not one he’s ever seen before. She looks at him, yields to his ruthless hands directing her as he thrusts urgently into her. The tender smile widens and she throws back her head on a sudden breath of pure pleasure. Her soft voice floats down to him:

 

“—Sydney.”

 

He comes hard:

 

Yes,  yes,  yes,  yes,  yes.

 

*

 

“There’s something I want you to remember,” she tells him before he goes. He’s still, focused. This is the teaching voice. He hasn’t heard it lately. She touches his shoulder, trying how solid he is, maybe; how strong. She says:

 

“Between want and have, that’s a straight line.” She smiles. “You know that, by now.” He looks back at her, listening.

 

“But need is never satisfied. Remember that—if there should come a time when you aren’t satisfied.” And, as if to herself, “You’re still so young.”

 

It’s not what she told him, years ago. He has no idea what she’s talking about, but he files it, knows there’ll be a moment when it’s clear. She finishes:

 

“When you take what you need …” She brushes her fingertips against his mouth. “…You should remember that it takes you, as well.” And she pulls his head gently down for a kiss. He’s unnerved, a little shocked by the anomalous gesture, with its taste of benediction, its hint of farewell.

 

“I’ll see you in Lausanne,” he says—flat reassurance, for his own sake—and turns away brusquely.

 

She smiles and shuts the door.

 

 

[End]

April 24, 2003

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