I wanted to have a happy life with and for you
I wanted it so bad
But I pushed too hard
There was a time in my life when my soul was drowned with apathy
There was a time when achieving anything seemed impossible
Once I got out
I never wanted to return
So I made a pact with myself to pursue my goals with intensity and ferocity
To accomplish them at all cost
To leave the apathy behind.
But I applied the concept in the wrong area
I worked so hard at having you....
I didn't let the natural chemistry happen
I pushed our affinity to the limit...
In the name of powerful emotions I felt.
You rebelled...
Not in conscious...
but in where your dreams come from
Where the parts of you operate unseen from yourself
Your subconscious.
My actions, my intensity, my ferocity...
provoked your negative reactions.
Hence, in a way it is you
But, I trigged the change in you
So, I fucked up.
Angela, I am sorry.
And, I will take your advice to heart.
I will be waiting for you
I will miss the closeness we had
I will be waiting to hold you in my arms once again
I will let the chemistry take it's own course.
I will do things differently given the chance.
I will be waiting to feel your arms around me once again.
I will be waiting for you.
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