Anniversary

 

Last October (2005), on a windy morning

One year ago, the 6th exactly

You told me my big blue eyes were magical

Engaging, amazing, other synonymic tactics

You said my style (or lack thereof) appealed to your soul

Minimalist fashionistas with

Similar ways of walking

 

Spark, Tingle, Smile

 

Thought of it a real life love story

Baz Luhrmann would have directed beautifully

Our eyes connected that fateful day; said to one another

Doesn't God have strange ways?

Did he handpick soul mates from the bottom up?

Both of us anti-Christ, but still somehow in trust

That we were meant to last all the evenings and tomorrows

Time would grant us

 

Innovatively different in ways I cannot explain

Using English terms, and poetry's vain

All I know is

I knew you knew that I knew as well

That you understood that I understood

I got it

You got it

We got it pretty damn well

 

Two months in, I wore your clothes to sleep

Three, said we'd last for ten years (at least)

The connection at its peak, alive and furious

A surreal phenomenon, love's rose colored eyes

Four, you said you cannot lose me

Said, I'm not going anywhere, believe me

 

Hopeful, Happy, Together

 

Seven, you'd marry me when the time was right

Picture a house with a view and a tiny doghouse

Throw in a white picket fence as well

Nine, I knew I really loved you and sacrificed it all

Gave you my heart (as cliché it may sound)

Trusting you to cherish it, keep it safe from harm

Don't break it, I am…

 

Attached, Obsessed, Devoted

 

Ten, we made love like two lovers in the night

No wine needed, it clicked, 'twas alright

Eleven, you cried on my shoulder in fear of me dying

During an afternoon viewing of Sweet November

 

The other day, I surprised you outside

You shaved off all your hair, the strands dead and gone

Many hours I spent in the red wine months

Caressing your scalp, kissing your dandruff

Memories and hair

Chopped away

 

The fire's dying, but I don't know how to feed it

I carress your body, but you get no feeling

I kiss your lips, I smile, I laugh

You smile, but your eyes say

I'm just pretending

My blue eyes, not so magical anymore

 

I lost that bracelet I cherished so dearly

The one you told me was a promise piece of jewelry

I'll always be there for you

Gone as quickly as it came

 

Numbness, Panic, Tears

 

It's the night of the 6th and I'm all by myself

We're not broken up, but we're not one anymore

I cannot stop crying, but nobody knows

My big blue eyes well up with tears

 

Your arms not around me, although you say we're okay

Your voice sounds bothered

It seems like only yesterday, last night

We spoke together about how much we cared

And all of our voices were peachy sweet

The fruit has rotted into a moldy exterior

 

Last October (2005), on a windy morning

One year ago, the 6th exactly

You told me my big blue eyes were magical

Engaging, amazing, other synonymic tactics

 

My eyes are still big and they are still blue

I have the same clothes and similar shoes

Your sweaters still fit me, your bed is still plaid

It's October the 6th, but not 2005

A year has passed and your love has withered

Something has died, a child's corpse

Too young to die so soon

 

But, I still love you and it's alright

I will lie with you in tomorrow's twilight

For our anniversary fuck fest

Or so it seems

 

I will wake up the next morning and leave you sadly

Then cry the whole way home

Happy One Year Anniversary