| I never would have thought it would turn out like this. Never thought I wouldn't wanna be your friend. Never realized it wouldnt hurt knowing you didnt like me like that. But also never realizing it would hurt more to find out who you really are. Never could have imagined how self-centered you are. Never thought I would feel so much anger and hatred for someone I thought of as a friend. Never thought all along or figured it out. Never thought you were putting on a show then trash talking when I wasnt around. Never imagined you would read me so wrong. You are so p-a-t-h-e-t-i-c self centered bastard who needs a rude awakening. I dispise you and everything you are. I know to take your words like a grain of salt, to blow you off like the wind. But I know when I see you, I will want to believe that you are so good, then i will remember everything you couldnt say to my face... I hate you so much. Rebecca Hontz April 18, 2003 |
| a note on this poem, all of these thoughts are real and its truly how i felt at the time, but just on the same note,everything is fine now...things worked out in the end. |