MISSING YOU

I sit and stare

Blankly at the computer screen

Listening to music

That fills me with

Sadness and regret

Wanting you near

You're so far away

Yet so close

The pain I feel

I cannot describe

It tears at me

Pulling me further

Along the dark path

My mind blocks

Memories

Of you and I

Not wanting to remember

Yet not wanting to forget

What we had was special

If only for a short time

I don't want it to go

But it has already gone

My soul lies

Wanting closeness

Knowing nothing will come of it

Trust misplaced

Pain does reign

As does fear

Of trying again

Will trust ever be regained

I think perhaps not

Jaded my heart has become

Hardened by pain and suffering

Yet here I sit

Staring blankly at a computer screen

Missing you

RJC