8.03.02:
does the news seem surreal to anyone else lately? i was cruising
cnn a little while ago, and the headlines were like "britney's dad pulls
gun on teens" and "did west coast surfer save space shuttle" and "what mcdonald's
doesn't want you to know!" seriously, i'm thinking maybe someone was
hacking again. that would be funny. hackers are cool.
lately i've started to dream of a place where people keep to themselves and
don't busy themselves with the personal affairs of those around them. i'm
starting to think that that place might not exist. why is it so hard
to stop gossiping? what'd i ever do to anyone? is my private
life so intriquing? i never thought it was, but apparently i was wrong.
it's funny, i guess, in a way. i try my best to just keep quiet
about people and speak when spoken to and live and left live and respect
those around me. and those around me never seem to do the same in return.
bottom line: if i want you spreading rumors, i'll propogate those very
rumors myself. and i'm not responding one way or the other. because
i don't have to defend myself.
today i had one of those "devil/angel" conversations with myself, totally
unintentionally. i got into the shower and literally said out loud
"no one will even notice you did it" and then a second later i said "no,
there's a price for everything in this world, travis. someone will
take note of it." and i stopped, bemused, shook my head, and shot a
load of this shower foam lindsay bought into my hand. it smells like
mint. i like it. my arms smell like a candy shop now.