i really shouldn't be up this late, but i got to thinking as i was sitting around doing nothing with my time, and i've developed a list, boys and girls.  oh yes, a list, a glorious list which will end all lists!

what travis needs right now:

a girl who likes
-to sit up all hours of the night typing on the internet,
-indy cinema as well as hollywood vehicles helmed by pacino or deniro,
-ska music,
-doesn't drink or take drugs,
-hates junior at work and would be willing to cripple him for me (and lou and lisa),
-classic rock,
-eats general tso's twice a week,
-emo,
-punk,
-memento,
-would pay for everything so i could drop out of school and not work,
-would be willing to pay for a beachfront estate,
- me.

i guess that last one would be the most important, but if i found someone who for, whatever reason, would fit all the other categories, loathed me, and still would settle down with me, i'd totally be all for it.

yes, that list above meets everything i need in a girl.  that, or that one special someone i've been gazing at in awe over the past couple weeks.  christ, my face hurts just thinking about how much i'd smile if she were here right now.

wow.  that came across as really cheesy, i'm betting.

but utterly truthful.

she's incredible, and i wish she'd realize just how truly special she is - she's a gift, and i wish i could tell her so.

but i can't.

or, perhaps more correctly, i won't.

because, well, you see, i could; physically i do have the ability to tell her she's a gift.  i just lack the will.

...uhm....

...holy christ, i'm rambling, aren't it?  but, it's allowed, because it's 2 am, you're asleep, and you won't read this till, like, 12 hours from now.

never did get that fight club dvd.  it was rented out, so they picked me up the vhs instead.

"but, i really wanted it for the commentary."
".....?"

they have no idea.

uhm, well, yes.  i think my mom's going to wake me up for church tomorrow, so i guess i better at least try to sleep, eh?

ever wish it were your birthday just so people would seem nice(r) to you?

and give you gifts.