Uhhh, ummm (scared) ok, this is my first fic. Please don't flame me or anything. I don't mind critiques though. They Slayers don't belong to me (damn) Neither does the song E-motion Sickness. It's by a wonderful and talented Australian band
named Silverchair from their Neon Ballroom album. On to the fic!!!
*means song
~flashback
*Erupt again ignore the pill*
It hurt. He knew that she had never been openly affectionate to him, even he could
tell that. But still he thought that... how could she.... how could she and why did
it hurt so much?
~"Gourry, can I talk to you for a sec?"
"Sure Lina!" he said smiling as he followed her into the woods away from camp.
He threw his hands behind his head in a carefree manner and grinned at her.
"What's on your mind?"
"We've been through a lot together haven't we?"
"Yep!" he said proudly.
"And, well, I wanted you to know that you are my best
friend and... that's it."
"That's great Lina! You're my best friend too!"
"Ack!" She facefaulted on the floor in frustration.
"Gourry weren't you listening!?"
"Sure I was! You said that I was your best friend, and that was
all you
had to tell me."
"No Gourry, that's not what I meant."
He felt his stomach clench. That was what he was
afraid of.~
*I won't let it show*
He had really been listening, it just wasn't something
that he had wanted to hear.
~"I can't say that I follow you?"
"What I'm trying to tell you is that we're just
friends and that's all we'll ever be."
"I--can't say that I belive you Lina. I mean we get
along real well right? I mean we fight every now and then
but it's just harmless teasing isn't it! Lina, you put
/me/ over the whole world and-"
Oh by Cephied, that look in her eyes. She was
serious!
"Gourry,"she said softly "I never said that I didn't
care for you-"
"-THEN WHY THE HELL ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME!?!?!?"
He knew he must be scaring her, this wasn't like him. But
you could strike a nerve with anyone, even him. And she
had just hit a very sore spot. "TELL ME WHY! IT DOESN'T'T MAKE
SENSE!!"
In his frustration, he punched a nearby
boulder, succeeding in only hurting his hand, but not
caring. "IT DOESN'T-"
"-GOURRY STOP!" She cried, throwing her self at him,
hugging him from behind, her small arms wrapped around his
larger frame.
*To sacrifice the tortures*
"Please,"she had said when he had calmed down.
"Please understand that this is for the better, i have my
reasons."
"Then what are they?" He asked bitterly.
"Gourry, we reach out for each other because we're
both missing something." She talked very slowly and
evenly, just to make sure that he understood. "we're both
running Gourry. We're running from our past, our families, ourselves.
We're both looking for the same thing in a way. When I met you, I
found
the family I never had. The
unconditional feeling I have for you makes you into my big
brother. I know I remind you of your little sister, the
one that died. Gourry, we're so desperate for family that
our feelings are starting to get hyperactive."
He remained silent,he didn't want to think this much,
it always hurt too much and got him no where.
"It won't bring her back."
He was so confused, was that the reason he was so
close to Lina? Was it just a malnourished craving for
sibling affection that brought them where they where today?
"I promise... to be the best little sister I can."
"Lina, I, I understand." He didn't, he didn't at all. "Just leave
my
alone right now ok?"
"Okay. Thank-you Gourry." She hugged him tighter.
"And I know that you'll find someone that loves you the way you deserve
to
be."~
And the she had left. Gods that hurt.
*Orchestral tear cash flow*
A rustling in the bushed made him turn his head. There
stood a very concerned Sylphiel. "Daijobu, Gourry-sama?"
"I'm fine Sylphiel."
She took a deep breath. He was always handsome, but the moonlight
gave
him a nearly regal appearance. She took a
step towards him. "What happened?"
His wall snapped, he needed to talk to someone, he
couldn't take it anymore. "Lina.. she...guh...."
Gourry'sama was crying!? She rushed to him and he clung to her like
a
needly child. He rambled about all that had
occurred and she had just listened, stroking his hair
comfortingly. It was unusual for her to be the strong one, especially
sense
she was so emotional herself. But for
tonight, for one night, she was going to be strong for her
dear Gourry.
*Increase Escape Defeat
It's all that matters to you*
"Thank-you for listening Sylphiel."
She smiled gently at him, still stroking his hair.
'Anytime Gourry-sama."
He looked up into her beautiful green eyes and smiled
back, the first time since his outburst. Sylpheel... she
had always been affectionate to him, but he never realized
just how much he enjoyed the gentle priestess' company. It was nice
for
someone to listen to him and not call him an
idiot.
And as he fell into sleep's warm embrace he had one,
pure thought come to his mind. "I could be happy... with
someone like her."
*Cotton case for an iron pill*
Hidden in the shadows, a small figure watched the two as they fell
asleep
in each other's's arms.
"They'll be sooo embarrassed if someone catched them
like that!" she thought with a grin. Still smiling, lina
turned and headed back to camp.
*Distorted eyes_*
She really hoped that they wouldn't be too angry with
her. it was for their own happiness after all. She had
meant what she said, Gourry was the sibling she never had.
It wasn't that she didn't love her sister. She did, she loved
Luna-neechan. But there was something...
She wasn't scared of her sister for no good reason
(Not that she wasn't intimidating), but for something that
happened rarely. Sometimes, Luna's very presence brought
an unexplainable fear. A gentle touch would cause her a
searing pain, as if Luna was hot iron. There was no
logical reason to it. She didn't want to know why. It was always when
Luna's eyes turned ice-blue, when Cephied took
over...
But that was ridiculous right!? After all, Cephied was
an ally to all humans.
*_when everything is clearly dying*
She didn't want to think about this anymore. It hurt
her head. Rubbing her temples, she continued towards camp.
*Burn my knees
Burn my knees*
Did she love Gourry? It depended on your perspective.
Was he a great friend? Definitely. Could it have gone
further? Who knows.
She didn't know how many people knew this, but Black
magic pretty much killed the aging process.
She didn't want to watch Gourry or anyone else grow old. That was
selfish, she knew. Besides, she had channelled
/Nightmare/ magic on several occasions. Hell, she had
/hosted/ the Golden-Eyed Lord once. No one had ever done
that before, so there was no way she could know the long
term effects. The way she saw it, she was either going to
live a ridiculously long period of time or die very soon.
And belive you me, Lina Inverse had absolutely NO intention on going
back to
the Sea of Chaos anytime soon.
*All my friends say...*
It was obvious that she cared about him. Any blind
idiot could see that. And maybe if the circumstances had
been different it would work out. She wanted him to be
happy, she also didn't want to get in the way of someone
who could ultimately make him happier. Sylphiel's feelings where
genuine,
Lina always realized that. Maybe they would marry each other and grow
old
together. Sylphiel's white
magic would certainly cancel out any effect the Dragon
Slave had on her. Or maybe they'd both find someone else... life was
funny
like that.
*Emotion sickness*
She walked into the campsite and smiled as she thought
of her friends. She loved being around them, they made her happy. She
would die for them and knew that they would do
the same. But did they know? Did they know about her
sleepless nights? Her gut feeling that something was
wrong? Her fear that the something was her? No, probably
not. But she didn't really want them to.
*Emotion sickness
Addicts with no heroine*
Amelia. She smiled as she gazed fondly at the smaller
girl that lay in sleep. Amelia was always supportive,
always there. Despite her idealistic rants she was a sweet girl and a
damn
good sorceress. "She'll be an amazing
queen," Lina thought with a smile.
Xelloss. Lina didn't know what to make of the
Trickster. He had betrayed them in the past and still no
one knew what his real agenda was. But there where times__
times when he seemed to care... well, for a mazoku anyway.
Zelgadiss. Poor guy, he was so torn apart. he really
wasn't a horrible monster but he'd never realize it. But
sometimes, she could break in and force him to be somewhat
happy. She had made him laugh. That was a special moment
for her. Now it was her goal to make him laugh as often as possible,
to
bring him out of his shell so to speak. Hey,
where was Zel?
"Ahem"
"Zel!" She hissed whirling around. "Don't scare me
like that!"
He looked at her for a moment with a slightly amused
expression on his face. Then he shrugged and his mask was
back in place.
*Distorted eyes..
When everything is clearly dying*
"... I was scouting the area," he said quietly. "And I
saw what happened."
"You did?" she asked a little nervously.
"Why did you do that?"
"..."
"I thought you loved him."
*Burn my knees
Burn my knees*
"He's like family Zel."
"It's because of your aging isn't it?"
She was a little startled, he was right to the point
wasn't he? She was also a little surprised that he had
known about that little known fact. "I'm impressed that
you even know that. And yes that is a reason, among other
things."
"Lina... just how old are you?"
"Oh wipe that look off your face! I really /am/
seventeen I think."
"You think!?" He asked puzzled.
*All my friends say
All my friends say...*
She bit her lip, she shouldn't tell him this, but it
might be for their own good. "Don't you dare tell the
others, not yet." She had dropped her voice so low that
had he not had such sensitive hearing he wouldn't have
caught it. "Ever since I sealed the Giga Slave in me
something's been wrong...I...have memories I don't think
are mine, know things I don't think I'm supposed to
know..."
"Lina," he said concerned, "tell me about it."
"No," she said simply. "I've been thinking enough
tonight, I refuse to talk about it any more, so please
don't ask right now."
"Only if you tell me later."
"I can do that,"she said smiling. "Good night." She
turned and walked to her bedrole.
*Get up
Get up
Get up*
But Zelgadiss wasn't done there was still something
important that needed to be said. "Wait. Lina?"
'Yes Zel?"
*Get up
Get up*
"What do you really plan to do!? Be alone the rest of
your life!?"
*Get up...*
She stared at him, a little shocked at the outburst. He usually
never
showed any emotion at all. What was making
him so upset? "Do you?" she countered.
"This isn't about me!"
"We're not still talking about Gourry are we? Look, I
like Gourry, I could be happy with him, but he's not my
soulmate and I'm not his so we'll move on!"
"Well, then what are you looking for?" he asked, turning his head
away.
"Excuse me?"
"Don't make me repeat it Lina."
Is he blushing? shaking the disturbing thought from her mind she
said,
"Honestly? I'm not sure, he could be
anyone. But I need a kindred spirit. I need someone who
will stay with me for the possible centuries that I might
be alive. Good night Zel."
*Won't you stay right here*
"A kindred spirit" Zel thought climbing into his bed
roll. It only made sense that she would want to be with
someone who would live as long as her. Maybe he... nah.
"Wonder what she meant__memories that weren't her's? Who knows what
that
Nightmare magic had done to her. He
shifted a little, trying unsuccessfully to get more
comfortable. Lina wasn't acting like she normally did. It unnerved
him
when she dropped her loud facade. It made her look so vulnerable.
*Emotion sickness
Addicts with no heroine*
He could be with her for centuries. He thought glumly,
his thoughts switching to self-pity. In this form anyway. Rock
doesn't age
and he could use protection spells to keep away erosion and and... and
who
was he kidding. He didn't
deserve anyone like this. But if he found his cure, he
would never be able to remaster any black magic, he was too frail in
his
original form. "I'll bet L-sama had a real
good laugh when she created me. Either that or she was
stone drunk." Neither where pleasant thoughts. Sighing, he continued
on
his fruitless quest for sleep.
*Good things will pass*
My my, tonight had been especially tasty. Xelloss
leaned against the tree, quite content with the feast the
silly little mortals had been providing him.
Earlier with the swordsman, ah that was delicious! But
then the Priestess had comforted him... Xelloss pouted then brightened.
'I'll bet Lina-chan planed that." The
Chimera, now he was an all you could eat buffet! ^_^
"So what will you do now little Chimera?" he murmured
opening his eyes. "Will you forgo your cure to be with her and face
possible rejection or will you vanity lead you to
find your cure only to be too frail to support higher level magic?"
Ah,
this was a very good night, too bad the
Princess had stayed asleep the whole time.
*Good things will pass*
"Lina." He looked over at the sleeping sorceress. He
knew her fears. He knew about the memories. He knew why
it hurt to be near her older sister when Cephied was in
control. "But how much do you know Lina-chan?"
*With no excess lessons learnt*
She really had no idea. Why she is as strong as she is, who she
is...
/what/ she is. His grin grew larger.
*E-motion sickness*
But he knew... and it made for a rather grand secret
don't you think?
He'd let her be for now. She could think what she
wanted. Soon, she'd realize everything, even if she didn't want to
know.
*Lessons learnt*
He quietly teleported away, thinking only of how happy
Zelas-sama would be when she heard his report.
