| Ideas, Thoughts, Attitudes and Opinions |
| I really love riding my motorcycle. It makes me feel a little bit wild, a little bit rebellious. I enjoy the feeling of freedom that it gives me. I like it when other bikers nod or wave at me to acknowledge me. I belong. I feel like other people notice me. Not that I want to be the center of attention or anything, but I do enjoy a little attention. When I am riding, I am alone with myself and the bike and my fate is pretty much in my hands. I feel a higher level of confidence in myself. I am empowered somehow. All my senses are hightened. I feel closer to my creator and communicate more. I feel grateful to be alive. |
| I am making plans for my future. I am deciding what I want to be when I grow up. I want to do something creative. Pottery, or drawing or music. I don't know exactly what yet. I am going to need some training in whatever I decide on, thats for sure. I have made a good living doing accounting for the past 25 or so years.. And I am content to continue to do it for as long as I have to. But its not my passion. Its only what I do to make a living. But, as I grow older I really feel an ever increasing urge to do something that I can be passionate about. An urge to create something that says something...about me and what I feel and believe in. In 2002 I took a Stained Glass class and really like doing that. I've started writing poetry again. Maybe these outlets will be the beginning of a positive change for me. |
| I am very grateful for the life I have today. I am fotunate. I am a recovering alcoholic and drug addict, and I am glad. I feel like I have had the privelidge of getting to live TWO lives instead of just one, like most people. And the liabilites that existed in my former life and in me, have become assets for me. I have learned to try and appreciate everything, and to try and remember not take anything for granted. I have learned that if I have to, I can loose all my material possessions, and as long as I stay clean and sober, I can start over. I have learned what true friendship is. I have learned what family is. I have learned what true love is. I have learned what pain is. I have learned what it is to loose people I love. Through death, or just through seperation. I have learned what is important in life. I have learned how important it is for me to not just believe in, but to depend on, a power greater than myself. Every Day. I guess for most normal people, this knowledge comes pretty naturally and easily. But for me, it was a struggle to learn this stuff. But I am grateful and awed that somehow I was on of those who have been able to receive the gift of sobriety, while som many others don't. |
Everybody's wonderin' what and where they they all came from everybody's worryin' 'bout where they're gonna go when the whole thing's done but no one knows for certain and so it's all the same to me I think I'll just let the mystery be Some say once you're gone you're gone forever and some say you're gonna come back Some say you rest in the arms of the Saviour if in sinful ways you lack Some say that they're comin' back in a garden bunch of carrots and little sweet peas I think I'll just let the mystery be Everybody's wonderin' what and where they they all came from everybody's worryin' 'bout where they're gonna go when the whole thing's done but no one knows for certain and so it's all the same to me I think I'll just let the mystery be Some say they're goin' to a place called Glory and I ain't saying it ain't a fact but I've heard that I'm on the road to purgatory and I don't like the sound of that I believe in love and I live my life accordingly but I choose to let the mystery be Everybody is wondering what and where they they all came from everybody is worryin' 'bout where they're gonna go when the whole thing's done but no one knows for certain and so it's all the same to me I think I'll just let the mystery be I think I'll just let the mystery be |