Rising Phoenix
Rising Phoenix:
It bring me to this again
Straying:
Give the gifts
Embodiment Of Sight:
I must shade my eyes
Memory Relapse:
The day has drawn itself thin
Routine Suffocation:
The color of the sky never changes
Day By Day:
I�ve become too involved
Withered Expectations:
Expectations high
Rollercoaster:
Up and down
In Dependence:
Every morning I wake to a struggle
Straying
Embodiment Of Sight
Memory Relapse
Routine Suffocation
Day By Day
Withered Expectations
Rollercoaster - (8/5/01))
In Dependence - (8/30/01))
Beginning To End(And Back Again)
Come around full circle
Where I was a year ago
I sit atop this pile of shit
That I call my life
Situations brought to my attention
Yet again
There are choices to be made
I can�t bring myself to do it
No more risks
But that�s all I have to sacrifice
Everything I�ve said
Everything I�ve lived
To start over
As if Ive known nothing to this day
A virgin to the world
Forgetting the scars of being fucked
On a day to day basis
A whore of society
Clueless to what I�ve felt
A pin prick
Turning into a knife wound
Now tender skin
Tensing up
Attempting to hold up
Against what�s to come
I may become stronger as time goes on
But you can only hold on for so long
Till the moment
Where you break apart
Losing your will to live
Where you�d give up life
To rid yourself of the questions
Just for a chance of clarity
Friends aren�t friends
Dreams aren�t reality
Life isn�t life
At times finding yourself
Sobbing for surrender
Pleading to yourself
To relinquish the punishment
Once and for all
To destroy all you�ve known
And rise out from the flames
As if a phoenix
Making its world its own
Gliding through the skies
Breathing in the ashes of the past
And just not caring
Flying higher than ever
Reaching the very brinks
Willing to merge with the sun
To look upon the world
Shining on it all
To the undeserved
Feed them
Build them
Deconstruct the rest
Work for a lifetime
Live for not one moment
Try
Try again
Consume me
Spit me out
Go without me
Take my essence of reality
That trails behind me
I�ve lost respect
For all that I see
Taking too much in
My eyes desire more
More of what I cant have
Sight can be so deceiving
Everything looks so close
Close enough to touch
Yet when I reach
I fail in obtaining
Depending on eyes
Too many times
As if they can find answers
Becoming greedy at times
Fighting against my own will
They cant feel the pain
When disappointment takes over
Quick to indulge
I close my eyes
Just to be pryed open again
Leading me through
Following illusion
I would rather be blind
Then see what I see
And feel what I feel
Taking me on a journey
Beyond my own thoughts
Everything as one
The good
The bad
My life
Eyelids weary
I take the day further
Even as my eyes close
My mind pursues
Still perceiving
Bit and pieces
In and out
Collective thought remembers
Recalling the feeling
The atmosphere itself
Turns blue skies to gray
Upon this painted canvas
Traveling on the straight path
Images are cycled
Everything feels the same
I have no choice
But to live as I�m told
My choices are meaningless
Looking for ways to rearrange it
Can further the confusion
Giving up one life
To start another
All that has been learned
Gone
If it could be that easy
To wash it away
Cleansing ignorance
Putting out the fire
That�s burning me up
Trapping me within
This ash-covered portrait
In this downward spiral
To focus
Only deeper and deeper
Into the sleep I fall
Cutting all ties
To the world I once knew
Good and plenty
Heart fulfilled
Cant get much better than this
I�ve never felt this way before
But I still drag on in disgust
Something inside
Hidden behind it all
That I can never find
All I can do is point it out to myself
Letting loss take my wind
Not caring what tomorrow brings
Slight hope that it won�t come
An early ending
For the sake of one day
I�m going far
Strapped down
I�m falling short
I cant do this
Too much is taken
To mark any gain
My well-being
Is threatened on a daily basis
Who I am
Is not who I want to be
I�m
Tired
Worn
Unhappy
Desperate
Hopeful
(Trying)
We hit a peak
ANd quickly drop
Whats it worth
To go to the edge
Look down
Contemplate
Turn around
Go back
Now we begin again
I refuse to move
I rather be nothing
Then be pushed and pulled
In a struggle
It all stops here
I want to lay still
Only to live my life
As a newborn
Entering this world
I can barely walk on my own
I need as much as I can get
This hold refuses to yield
I can't control the cling
Too dependent to let go
I urge to be pacified
Feelings of abandonment
Momentarily falling
Vulnerable
Cold is colder
Dark is darker
Pain is life threatening
I can't rely on myself
I've failed to gain my wings
I expect the world
But little did I know
I have it already
