Time To Realize
Time To Realize
You still have false interpretations
Bloom
The garden had been in full bloom
Stranglehold
I tell myself everyday
Apart From Myself
As I count the day
Broken
Open wounds and broken bones
Interphase
Interpreted in many ways
Plain to see my disgust
When I�m with you
Until Next Time
At last you left me
False Imprisonment
Infatuation settles in too quickly
Echo Of Tides
My surrounding of choice
Crossroads
Once we went our separate ways
Careless Intervention
Slowly time passes by
Reoccurring Consequence
You say things will change
In The Way Of Happiness
Within the flames the beast lays
Lost World
The lost world
Tonight
Tonight
If It Was Only A Lie
Things seemed to work
Revival?
Dont tell me your name
Dark Angel
Can I decide what we�re meant to be?
Burden Onto You
Feel as I may
Drifting Into Midnight
Can the skies open up?
Bloom
Stranglehold
Apart From Myself
Broken
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interphase
Echo Of Tides
Crossroads
Careless Intervention
Reoccuring Consequence/a>
In The Way Of Happiness
Lost World
Tonight
If It Only Was A Lie
Revival
Dark Angel
Burden Onto You
Drifting Into Midnight
(she) and (you)
The time has passed
I�ve found someone else
Don�t you see?
You attempt to tempt me
Trying to lure me to your side again
Usually I would have given in
But now my will is stronger
Why must you ruin me?
I do nothing to deserve this
I gave you all I had
Apparently it wasn�t good enough
Only now do you realize after it�s done
That I�m good enough
But now the chapter has been written
And it has been closed
Winter came along soon after
Cold winds
Blankets of snow
Changing the feel of the scenario
I tried to salvage a few flowers
Keeping them safe from the conditions
As hard as I tried
They wouldn�t stay alive
As the whole garden went so did these
It had once brought such joy
But now it is dead
I have to plant new seeds
Forgetting about the last garden
Hoping spring can enhance the growth
Bringing quick relief
Blooming brighter than ever
So I can embed myself in the flowers again
Its over and it has been for a while
Now its time you put it behind
But it keeps finding ways to intervene
I can�t stop measuring things
Against those memories
It�s a shame to do this
Ill end up hurting her
Someone innocent caught in the middle
Do I expect too much?
From somebody here to help me
Giving me reasons to let go
Can I dare be a fool?
And let this trouble me
When after all I�m happy
What else could matter?
Should I surrender myself without cause?
And lose a chance at happiness
Because I�m ignorant to the facts
That lies have me in a stranglehold
Attempting to ruin my life
While pushing others further from me
I�m a prisoner of the past
Destined for a life of disappointment
Unless I fight it
And uphold the present
That we�ve been together
Recognize the change
From what life was before
A tiresome backwards motion
You broke my fall
Yet I still feel the effects
Miles from myself
The momentum carried me further than expected
I�ve got to start over
Taking a different approach
Maybe to find the overlooked
The feelings passed over
Realize the lessons learned are of benefit
That when I�m with you
It brings me ever closer to myself
Motionless till I�m shown
Some signs of life
As if I haven�t seen the light
I�ve caught a glimpse
When at times I had missed
The touch of grace
Scars on her face
If I look into her eyes
Can I see the demise?
All that she�s lived
The things that could of been
Your troubled soul
Running from it all
Laying yourself down
Reacting as if your bound
World around you
You can�t tell what to do
Follow my lead
Forget about what you need
Time will heal your wounds
Feelings you can�t refuse
Getting a taste
While laying your hate to waste
Showed through different actions
It may hit you fast
Or you can go your whole life
Never experiencing love
When you feel it, you know it
Sometimes you may not notice
But its there lying inside waiting
Trust your instincts
If it is what it is
It can take you place unimaginable
Why does this always happen to me
I desire something
When I achieve it
Its never as I want it
There are drawbacks
Never enough
Is it that I expect more than I should?
Failing to notice what is happening
In the moments of silence
I hear you speaking to me
Yet without words
Through your body
I sense it carrying over to me
Are words really necessary?
I�ve put too much emphasis on them
When there was no need to
All the while
What I wanted to know was in my arms
I had you in my arms
The time came for you to go
My release of you was inevitable
Trying to touch you one last time
Grasping a memory of how you feel
Until the next time I see you
While you�re away
Everything feels different
My love for you is there
It just doesn�t feel the same
Since your not here to share it with me
As the distance grows so does my desire for you
Time in between is so drawn out
It�s like I�m running in place
Destined to go nowhere
Until I see you again
Dependency becomes a motive for love
The feeling seems so real
Confusion pollutes what we have together
But what do we have together?
A moment felt like an eternity
Just the perfection of a moment
The false relationship breeds in my head
I feed myself excuses
To satisfy the illusive answer
I make a promise to myself
Not to let myself sink back into this
Every time I do
I just kill myself a little more
Where I took my beginning steps up to this point
Didn�t realize it then, but now I do
It was kind of worth it
Even tragedy has its advantages
Everyday I used to walk to the lake
Always looking, but wouldn�t dare step into it
Until one day
So scared
The sad part is I didn�t know how to swim
I knelt down and skimmed the top of the water
Testing it
It began to feel safe
After that I kept returning
Going further each day
The water was so warm and secure
I never wanted to get out
Once I got used to it
The feeling was just too good to be true
Nothing to worry about
Until I finally realized where I was
Deep within a mirage
Created by my own imagination
Instead I was afloat in the middle of nowhere
No longer a lake, but now an ocean
This water was so cold
Waves started to crash over me
The tides have turned
Before I knew it the undertow caught me
Dragging me depths into my perception
It took me a while to reach the surface again
Out of breathe, but still alive
Sometimes I go back
But it can never be seen in the same light
An experience not to forget
We met at the same crossroad again
Time at first contact
You look as if I�m a stranger
You speak as if nothing happened
Truth of the matter is something did
I try to look past it
Giving the benefit of the doubt
But as the past has presented
Its only lead to conflict
Why go through it again
When we can avoid
While talking it out
To pull it together
Making ends meet
Sensing similarity
Impulses run rampant through me
Starting to feel what you�ve done
Capturing me as did before
Kissing me with venomous lips
Transferring the poison
This insures my long draw out death
You turn away as not to blame
Speaking without guilt
Insisting that you�ve changed
How can you lie to my face?
I can�t go on like this
I can�t die with such suffering
How can you just watch me die?
Do you have no conscious at all?
For so long you�ve held a gun to my head
Just finish what you�ve started
Pull the trigger
Put me out of my misery already
You never cared in the first place
So why should it matter now
But it always seems the same
While my heart is torn
The only thing you do is ignore
I always take you under my wing
Not sure where to begin
We�ve been through it before
I should know what�s in store
All the words to say to me
Deep down inside I can�t believe
If I consider my heart
And all the times its been ripped apart
Even if I could love you forever
It doesn�t mean we�ll be together
Staring at me with his shallow eyes
Living with no remorse
Knowing every weakness
With your heart tied around his neck
Shall I wait for him to sleep?
Can I obtain your heart without him awakening?
His presence causes a distraction for me
If he ever woke up
What can I do?
Easily run away
Or stand up to him
For one final battle
To finally own a piece of you
Without worry
That someone somehow has taken you from me
Constantly looking over my shoulder
Fearful of the unexpected
The possible theft of your heart
To fascine around the beast once again
I hold the key
Where I seek refuge
Inside the emptiness
Thinking endlessly
Loneliness is the closest thing to sanity
I carry the invisible weight upon my back
You may not see it
More less you can feel it
Dragging you day by day
If there was someone to confide in
Sharing the pain and to take it away
Maybe to understand it
Rather than acting in useless manners
That dont do any good
Just another thorn in my side
You can only fill this void
Take my hand and come with me
To this lost world
Where we can be together
Isolated from all impurities
Releasing whatever demons have arisen
Putting an end to the past
Saving each other from ourselves
Laying down to bed
Staring into the darkness
Barely illuminated from the moonlight
To put a finish to the day
Where so many a thoughts
Had run through my head
I can�t lie
To where I can say
You hadn�t crossed my mind
When everything seems to be a reminder
It�s hard to get away
To make it through the day without you
To live a normal life
Just to survive these days
Hoping for the next to be different
Where I�ll be with you
Today is as any other day
At dawn�s first break
I thought of you
While as night was put to rest
I thought of you
Even if it wasn�t real
Just to have a feel of it
Kept me satisfied
There was always something wrong
Disputes that could easily be resolved
Despite all the miscommunications
I still had you
Knowing there would always be reconciliation
When the fighting became too much
To hear those words from your mouth
Wishing every second to hear your voice again
You always used to say goodbye
Only this time its too close to the truth
I wish we could see eye to eye at some point
So I wouldn�t have to rely on my dreams to see you
As much as you have lied to me
Why cant this be one final lie for me to believe
We�ve been here before
I felt you
You fought it
I needed you
You let go
I loved you
You forgot
As easily as I can forgive
The past may be done
There is room in the future
Enough for us both
Give in
Come away with me
All we need to do
Is start over?
Forever as one or an eternity apart
My eyes tell me one thing
While my heart says another
Perceived as an angel
While you spread your wings
All along concealing a knife in your hand
I look away with trust in mind
While you take aim at my heart
Thrusting it deep into me
You shed your wings
Unveiling the truth of your convictions
You hold me close before you leave
Only to stab me in the back one last time
I can�t be surprised
When it isn�t the same
Looking into your eyes
If I could take you in
Make you mine
Forgive all your sins
Behold we are divine
All the while
I can�t make you feel
Going the extra mile
Acting as if it is real
I know the truth
As well as you
My love with shine through
In the darkness
Eternally burning
This could be bliss
Without ever earning emotion in return
My life was ecstasy
Now all my heart does is burn
Turning you into a fantasy
I can promise you everything
Not that you�ll listen
It won�t mean anything
Your love for me will always be missing
Who can I blame?
It�s not your fault
That you dont feel the same
Like I thought you ought
Shining the beauty
To part the sea
Which stands in our way
Tossing and turning
Drifting us further apart
Impossible to fight the tide
It won�t help the cause
All we can do
Is let fate take its course?
At times end
I find myself on a stranded island
Writing letters
To the ever lonely sea
Sharing our misfortunes
Sympathizing with each other
Plagued for so long
How can I survive?
If I could only make it easier
For you to get to me
But it�s not my choice
Every night I keep a fire burning
To guide and keep you warm
Until the day
The seas divide
