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I close my eyes
Escape
You seize to break free
Sense Of It
Was it meant to happen?
Clarity
In collective thought
Inside
I don�t want this
Escape
Sense Of It
Clarity
inside
Far Away
My reality goes blank
I drown out the sound
The silence engulfs me
Left only to hear the voices in my head
Trying to decipher what�s exactly is happening
Am I really going anywhere?
Is this world as real as it seems
Is everything everyone says believable?
Or is it just said to be said
Basically an empty comment
For me to figure out the meaning to
Which in a sense is meaningless
I hope to understand it all
At least I think I understand
For all I know I could have a false interpretation
Everything could be the complete opposite
I could be living a lie
Where am I?
What am I doing here?
Who am I?
But there is no escape
Only temporary sanity
The brief moment of freedom
You breathe life for one sweet instance
Then you quickly gasp for air
The wind is knocked out of you
Life has hit you
The reality has taken you away
You constantly think of running
But the running will make it worse
The time away will rot your existence
There is no way out except through the hallways of your own mind
Wishing and hoping for it all to change
For it to be easier
The more you wish the harder it becomes
The sense of it all continues to wear you down
You cry for help
No one pays attention to the cries
They are too busy with their own greed
Escape comes from patience
Escape comes with tranquility
Your only permanent escape is resistance
Or it is just luck
A flourish here and there
A glimmer of hope
I hear the knock of opportunity
But I ignore it
Every time I go for the door
It immediately shuts and disappears
Leaving me stranded
I try to construct my own future
But it all eventually crumbles
I can never succeed
I can just fail
No other option
Just fail
No better life
Than a complete catastrophe
Looking forward
Where anything can happen
Sooner or later
The luck of it all
Will run out
While I fade away
Whispers in my ear
I am clear of decision
Just let me be
Too many a words
For me to comprehend
Too much not to understand
Everyday is the same
Dwelling on everything
When in turn is nothing
Emphazing on possibility
Where there is no reality
I punish myself
For unknown reasons
Do I deserve this?
Guilt has subsided within
To delay the process of life
Setting the stage
For yet another disappointment
The seconds of anxiety
The hours of anguish
The days of depression
I never asked for any of this
The lost cause threatens me
Everything just slips away
It fills my insides
I stop to think
But my heart continues to bleed
Nothing seems to matter anymore
I wish it would all just escape me
Just leave me with the emptiness
Drain me of all my feeling
All it does is make it worse
Everyone seems to care too little
And I feel too much
