Flaw Of My Existence
Flaw Of My Existence
Look into my eyes
Insecure Reasons
I see you through clouded vision
Scars Of A Lifetime
Over the years I have inherited scars
Dominated
Dreading the thought of me being your son
Truth Beyond Comprehension
He never hesitates so say hello
Within The Realm Of Status
Blood runs through my veins
Insecure Reasons
Scars Of A Lifetime
Dominated
Truth Beyond Comprehension
Withing The Realm Of Status
Truly Free
What do you see?
I look at myself
Sometimes I can�t stand who I am
All the states of mind I go through
To be controlled by an emotion
I want to believe I�m well
But I�m just lying to myself
Its something Ill never be
I can never be complete
I have too many questions
The only answer is to sleep
Hope for it to disappear
Go away and never to return
It always comes back to haunt me
To settle deep down inside
Driving me insane
I�m bothered by all this
I have to live in this
The picture perfect world
Distorted in unexplainable ways
I try to hide who I am
But it finds some way of escaping
Exposing itself to everyone
I quickly take it back in
Hoping no one cared to look
Deciding to ignore it
I don�t want to burden anyone
I am so sick
Sick of myself
All the happening in my life
I cant say I�ve enjoyed what has happened to me
I cant bare to think what tomorrow brings
Another reason to sleep
Bringing me further from myself
I can�t understand who I am
I�ve never actually known who I am
Just scared and alone
Wishing for someone to save me
Helping me to find myself
I�m tired of searching
I�m lost and confused
Waiting for something better
While being destroyed from the inside out
I need your help
Look long and hard
Find a meaning within me
I can�t seem to find it
To me I�m useless
Here eventually to do myself in
Letting depression have the last say
Overpowering my mind and body
Leaving me in a catatonic phase
I want to stay in this trance
Never to know what is going on anymore
It�s all too disappointing
Makes me cry
Drowning in my pity
At times I feel like I�m dead already
And life continues to drag me on
I want to die
But at the same time I want to live
The disease has consumed too much of my life already
The only possible cure is you
I�ve done my share of suffering
Please save me
Before it is too late
You are not what you seem
Your intentions are false
You feed me nothing but your lies
How can I trust you?
My whole life I couldn�t trust someone
Why change now
No one can like me
I hate myself
Are you the same as the others?
Coming and going
Fading then reappearing
Coming back only for selfish reason
Pushing me aside to get what they want
Then crawl back into the woodwork where they belong
Why are you any different?
Cant I be the same without you?
Why do I need you?
If I fall will you catch me?
Will you be there in thick and thin?
Will your words be a blessing or a curse?
Can this be true or just another mirage
Only time can tell
Forgive me
Pain passed down from family and friends
Stabbed too many times to count
I have been bleeding for so long
Leaving me in a pool of my own remorse
My mind battered and bruised
My self-conscious withered into nothing
The part of me that only really matters is broken
The one that I love could only mend it
I am just so mentally worn out
I sit in the corner depressed from all this
Trying to find an answer in it all
But there is no answer, but all there is are dead ends
I tear at my own flesh to try and got out of this shell
My shell of discontent
My skin has become so thin
I can feel the cold hands on my back
Leading me places where I don�t want to go
Telling me it will be ok
But it will never be ok
You lied
You took me away
Leaving me behind in the damp Holloway of delirium
Messing with my head
I hate you
How could you all do this to me?
Stay the hell away from me
You two-faced motherfuckers
Something must of gone wrong
How can this be true?
Why can't you leave me alone?
I tried to be the one you wanted
I can't be demanded to fill your needs
Just let me be free
Let there be creativity
In my god damn reality
There can't be domination
I wont let there be a recreation
I try looking to the sky
Asking myself why
Why can't I just die away?
From this world of deception living as prey
The pain you feel inside
Never could you decide
Thinking that you could just hide
And leave me behind
You hid me in your closet of lies
Trying to mold me like clay
Making me something I wasn't
Dominating my thoughts and dreams
It is all over now
Living with the guilt
Never could you get what I felt
Your sorries our worth shit to me
There is no time for remorse
What's done is done
When the time comes
I wont make the same mistakes
My past will be an ill reminder of my future
I must break the chain
It can't be the same
Grinning at every meeting
Something just doesn�t seem right
Leaving his problems at home
They begin to build and build
No one will find out the truth until it is too late
His family is as plain as plain can be
Or at least it seems that way anyway
Except once and a while there will be a argument
Is it once and a while or everyday?
He steps through the haunting threshold
The nightmares of everyday life resurrect
He escapes in his sleep
Dreaming for a better life, but it wont just come true
The pressure gets to be too stressful
Dependent on to do everything
Everything to be perfect
His next move is ponderous to us all
As he goes to his fathers closet
Distant memories race through his head
His final judgment keeps being questioned by himself
He has got the better of himself
And decides to finally give in
The doubt is a reality
Remember everything is not as good as it seems
Question every doubt
I breathe the same air as you
Are we that different?
You try to live in the crowd
Basking in the shadows of others
Posing for corporate America
Only to find yourself useless
A mere puppet to the rest of the world
Lowering yourself to the drug induced society
The quick fix to nothing
As mellow as it seems
You are slowly decaying
All you are is a pretender
Fooling yourself to fit in
You are soon dragged into the void
And you are left there to die
To be forever forgotten
You chose the path of idioticy
I walk the path of individualism
You all laugh
But for what reason?
You tend to believe fitting in is everything
But all it is, is a poor excuse to survive
Why be someone else
When you can be yourself
