I was so
Blinded
But today
I was so
Disillusioned.
He's no saint,
Ego growing by day,
And you,
You for some reason,
Still want him.
Well, I don't.
Have him, he's
Yours even though
You need desperately
To get over him.
She's something
Different entirely
Underneath.
She wears a
Mask, too.
Can I blame her?
She has feelings
And maybe she
Doesn't care,
But she's human.
I'm fond of
Her now.
She's like me,
In a way.
That's nice.
It's good to
Relate to
People you have
Nothing at all
In common with.
And you,
You're abusive.
You deride and
Ridicule me to
A ridiculous point.
I'm not putting up
With you anymore.
I have no feeling
When it comes
To you.
Goddamn, but
When I think of him
You all but disappear
With the rest of
This miserable world.
Am I falling?
Because I don't
Seem to be standing.
How can I, when
My knees are so weak?
He's beautiful,
With intense eyes
And a silky voice.
The attraction is mental,
Not to mention chemical.
Lord, what a world
This is becoming.
So much stress,
But somehow, I see
Through new eyes.
That sun outside
Is welcoming
And there is paper
To be filled.
Why worry?
Why hold grudges
And preconceived ideas
When there is more to learn,
And the world will
Continue to spin?
I just can't think
About my obligations
When there are so many
Things I want to see
And do for myself.
Why don't they realize
That some teenagers
Do have deeper thoughts,
That some of us
Have lives of our own?
It's unfair that they say
'Do this' and 'get that'
When my emotions
Won't stop, and
I want so many things.
What is a parabola to me?
I'm falling for him,
Having new revelations
Every day, and I just
Want to stop and see.
Brand new eyes
But I can't use them
Had a change of heart
But there's just no time
To get used to it.
Grasshoppers to name
And notes to take
But I'll wait awhile
'Cause I'm having another
Change of heart.
love poems anonymous