Reed's Armory -- A Malcolm Reed Fanfiction Archive ..

Title: Duet

Author: Mareel

Author's e-mail: [email protected]

Author's Web site: http://www.geocities.com/bdebpr

Fandom: Enterprise

Pairing: Archer/Reed

Rating: R

Category: Slash

Series: Accepting/Loss

Sequel to: Loss

Summary: After Reed suffers a serious injury, Archer and Reed notice how it affects their relationship.

Comments: Future medical science seems to be up to the task of mending most of the injuries suffered by the Enterprise crew. But what happens when the damage is permanent? Thoughts from both Jon and Malcolm on the effects of an injury on their relationship.

Archived to Reed's Armory on 10/09/2003.

I can't help it. Whenever I make love to Malcolm, fear washes back over me...what if this is our last time?

I was terrified at nearly losing him. All our time together hasn't been enough to show him how much I need him at my side, how I live for his smile, his touch, my name from his lips.

Now I think I'm scaring him. I scare myself sometimes, at how entwined we've become. Why am I the one with this desperate need to feel alive...loved? I'd understand it from him.

I envy his acceptance, his implicit trust.

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He's become voracious in bed. I know I satisfy him; the evidence is in his touch, in his eyes, and...well, everywhere else. Still he needs more, craves being even closer...as though trying to merge our souls as well as bodies.

I love him completely, but it's hard not to feel a bit inadequate against wave after wave of unrelenting desire and need. I know he loves me...was scared nearly to death that he'd lost me.

But I'm not as I was, so perhaps he has.

Is he trying to prove his love to me, or to himself?

~the end~