the big question >> where do we go from here?
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Buffy the Vampire Slayer: Going Through the Motions
Will I stay this way forever
Sleepwalk through my life's endeavour?
I don't wanna be
Going through the motions
Losing all my drive
I can't even see if this is really me
And I just wanna be alive
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Evanescence - Bring Me To Life
How can you see into my eyes
like open doors
Leading you down into my core
where I`ve become so numb
Without a soul
my spirit`s sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home
Wake me up
Wake me up inside
I can`t wake up
Wake me up inside
Save me
Call my name and save me from the dark
Wake me up
Bid my blood to run
I can`t wake up
Before I come undone
Save me
Save me from the nothing I`ve become...
Bring me to life
I`ve been living a lie
There`s nothing inside
Bring me to life
...I`ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
I`ve got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought
Without a voice
Without a soul...
Bring me to life
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Buffy the Vampire Slayer: Walk Through the Fire
Buffy:
I touch the fire and it freezes me, <-- it's so damn cold
I look into it and it's black.
Why can't I feel? <-- my apathy
My skin should crack and peel.
I want the fire back. <-- where the hell's my drama vibe?
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So I will walk through the fire,
'Cause where else can I turn? <-- I'm so lost
I will walk through the fire and let it -
Spike:
The torch I bear is scorching me, <-- reference to my entire history of trees
Buffy's laughing, I've no doubt.
I hope she fries, <-- Goldfish Woman, So-Called Directors, etc.
I'm free if that bitch dies...
All:
'Cause she is drawn to the fire,
Some people (She will) never learn. <-- because I'm clueless
And she will walk through the fire and let it -
Giles:
Will this do a thing to change her? <-- change me please
Am I leaving Dawn in danger?
Is my Slayer too far gone to care? <-- I don't care, that's the problem
Xander:
What if Buffy can't defeat it? <-- everything's so uncertain
Anya:
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Or we could just sit around and glare. <-- high school in general, the international scene right now
Buffy:
So one by one they turn from me, <-- well, a few of them
I guess my friends can't face the cold. <-- the US? or Iraq?
Tara:
What can't we face when we're together... <-- I love my cliques
Buffy:
But why I froze,
Not one among them knows,
And never can be told. <-- because I don't know either
Anya:
She came from the grave much graver - <-- I've been to hell and back
Spike:
First he'll kill her then I'll save her -
Tara:
Everything is turning out so dark... <-- why?!
Spike:
No, I'll save her, then I'll kill her! <-- so complicated
Willow:
I think this line's mostly filler. <-- conversations with people
Giles:
What's it going to take to strike a spark? <-- I need to live for something
Buffy:
These endless days are finally ending in a blaze... <-- graduation
All:
And we are caught in the fire, <-- stupid double cohort, WWIII
The point of no return. <-- you can only grow up, you can't grow down
So we will walk through the fire, <-- there's nothing we can do
And let it burn... <-- damn it all to hell
Let it burn... <-- let's go out in a blaze of glory
Let it burn... <-- yeehaw!
Sweet:
Showtime! <-- here goes
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What the hell does "Sarillorn" mean anyway? The Sarillorn is actually a title. It's from The Sundered quartet by Michelle Sagara, which is ironic, since I never finished the series, and not from lack of trying - I think it went out of print. Well, makes the name all the more unique. The Sarillorn is an avatar, the female form of the name given to the "vessel of light". In the story, Erin/Sara/Sarillorn is a girl who gives up the light to walk on the dark side (literally). She falls for the vampirish Dark Lord dude (Stefanos - very Italian, no?) and changes his evil ways. Then she sorta gains immortality and sorta loses her memory and all this other shit. I don't know what happened to her at the end, but I like the name, and that's that.
The address of this page says Red Vipress. Who's that? My alter-ego. Oberyn Martell, alias Red Viper, is a character from ASoIaF. He's very cool. Impulsive and reckless with a nasty streak - everything I've always wanted to be, but not anymore, because he winds up dead. =) I don't think "vipress" is a word, though.
Are you the voice of Daria? No. No, I did not inspire the character, not that I know of. No, I'm not related to her. No, I can't offer any other explanation for her uncanny resemblance to me (or vice versa). I respond to the name, though. Go figure.
How come I can't always tell when you're being sarcastic and when you're for real? That's okay; sometimes I can't tell either.
Uh... I hear you write good. Can you write my biography? Get a life first, okay?
Yeah... I think I do like your work. Where can I read more? I keep an online journal that I write in, like, every fortnight, due to my lack of a life and therefore any material to write about.
Didn't you used to have another journal under the name Vipress? Yep, at vipress dot scribble dot nu, but stupid Scribble removed all the archives without notification. I am so PISSED OFF. How could you?! I didn't complete my entry backup...! That's six months of my writing you tossed into empty cyberspace, you stupid fuckers.
What's this ASoIaF you're always going on about? Let me enlighten you, illiterate fool. ASoIaF is - duh - an acronym, and it stands for A Song of Ice and Fire, the fantasy event of this century. Penned by a brilliant man named George R. R. Martin and currently consisting of three volumes (A Game of Thrones, A Clash of Kings and A Storm of Swords) and a supplementary short story (The Hedge Knight), it is a breathtakingly beautiful yet brutal saga of history, politics, war and magic that will rock your world. I idolize GRR like others worship JRR. =) These books are brilliant.
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The Room - The Window | Your choice of the "stormy" window reveals a self-righteously pessimistic, potentially nihilistic personality. Your temperament is mysterious, dark, brooding, gloomy, powerful, changeable and ominous. You may exhibit anti-social behaviour such as raining on other people's parades. You may succumb to wild, uncontrollable urges with thunderous, brute force and violent expressiveness... You are colorful, with a love of painterly angst...
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Me according to Emode...
Personality: The Critic | "You are complex and thoughtful. You look beneath the surface. You're good at chess (or would be if you played). Pondering deep thoughts sounds better to you than going out on the town. But you can be so critical and introspective that even positive qualities can seem like faults. You carry quite a few burdens on those little shoulders of yours. Sometimes the world seems so gloomy that you just want to crawl up in your cozy bed and sleep it off. You hate chaos at work and prefer a structured environment. Sometimes you feel undervalued by your boss, but everyone notices your motivation and talent. You wish you dressed snappier."
Colour: Brown | "You're a credible, stable color that's reminiscent of fine wood, rich leather, and wistful melancholy. Most likely, you're a logical, practical person ruled more by your head than your heart. With your inquisitive mind and insatiable curiosity, you're probably a great problem solver. Easily intrigued, you're constantly finding new ways to challenge your mind, whether it's by reading the newspaper, playing a trivia game, or composing a piece of music. Brown is an impartial, neutral color, which means you tend to see the difference between fact and opinion easily and are open to many points of view."
Signature Colour: Sterling Blue | "Serious, intellectual types like you meet their match with a cool color that sparkles with the same striking intelligence as you do. While you may not be the person at the party kicking off the karaoke, you're probably the one starting up stimulating conversations and making your cohorts chuckle with your quick wit. You're likely to have an insatiable curiosity that's catchy, and friends who know that you are a great person to turn to when they need a logical head to help them sort through their problems. You probably have a way of keeping things deep that people truly appreciate!"
Flavour: Mocha | "Strong and rich � but not too sweet � you're the flavor of late nights and early mornings. A coffeehouse regular, you've cornered the market on deep thoughts and probably have a little more than your fair share of brains. In fact, those who know you may even consider you an intellectual, a label that suits you just fine. Deep and thoughtful, you love the academic life � or at least the structured pursuit of knowledge."
Movie Star Double: Cate Blanchett | "An intellectual like you needs to be played by someone who understands how to be deep without being boring, someone who can grasp complicated subjects and make them seem clear cut, someone like Cate Blanchett... Were you sometimes the kid in class who realized when the teacher made a mistake � even if you didn't always point it out?"
Romantic Pattern: The Mentor and the Prot�g� | "...love grows out of deeper need to learn and understand other aspects of your life through the teachings of someone else. Love isn't the only thing you're after. You want power, success, attention, maybe even fame. You want to be recognized, doted on, and adored for your talents. And the object of your desire is the person best suited to provide you with these things � a boss, a mentor, a teacher, or a troubled genius."
High School Identity: The Brooding Artist | "Laughing in homeroom, crying in third period, brooding at lunchtime. It's nothing serious � just part of the act for a brooding artist like yourself. Whether it's acting, painting, writing, or interpretive dance, your channels of expression might have made you a little 'different' in high school. ...observing the absurdity of high school. The same insight that you had back then just might help make you famous some day (if it hasn't already)."
Pop Star Style: Deep and Soulful | "You project a cool, intellectual vibe, and your friends and family are probably often impressed (and maybe a little intimidated) when you wax philosophical. To those who really get you... your passionate and profound nature burn[s] more brightly."
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| 09.07.03