introduction

I was either going to figure how to do this 'F@#%*'N!!!' webpage or take a sledgehammer to my computer. I like to think I know my way around programs, but I have never felt so inept...

Anyway, here it is, my first attempt at starting a webpage. It was suggested by someone who has a great webpage. First Disclaimer! I make no promise that my page will be great. After all there isn't even a fu-ca-ca spell check or at least I can't find it and I am admittedly the world's worst speller. Chances are nobody will ever see it, so thankfully, it won't matter...

Believe it or not, being a bad speller has not prevented me from becoming a screenwriter. However, I live in a town where the dentist, the dry cleaner, the guy at the carwash and even my old elementary school teacher are ALL screenwriters. Can you guess what bustling metropolis it is? Yep -- sunny Southern Cali - I did actually go to film school, cut me and I bleed cardinal and gold (YAY Troy!). But the purpose of this web page is to talk about my journey to lose weight. I must confess that this seems a tad self-indulgent, like my weightloss is important to anyone else besides ME. In fact, I was even a little afraid to do this and then I thought, get over yourself... So, over the last few weeks I have seen and read some AWESOME websites about weightloss surgery (WLS) Now, I am attempting to put finger to keyboard and chronicle the last hurdle I've yet to climb... My thighs, my stomach and oh, Lordy, my big ol' butt.

A little over a year ago, my older sister had WLS. To date, she has lost 162lbs. and counting. Unless she wants to be invisible, she's pretty much done with the WL thingy. Seeing her go through that totally demystified the process for me. I have lost weight, off and on and off again most of my life. The longest I sustained my weightloss was in college. I think those late night *editing* sessions totally helped me forget about food. The funny thing though, when I was smaller I still saw myself as FAT. In fact, I am certain that keeping that self image made it a reality... So this time I do not want to merely lose weight. This time I want it gone for GOOD! I am in the beginning stages of making that happen. Just praying to the Gods that Blue shield doesn't go all bureaucratic and heartless on me.

I am single and am super nervous and excited about buying my first home. I always thought that would be something to do with husband in tow, but so far it hasn't worked out that way. I did come close to going 'there' and realized that I was not Houdini and that I could not magically change a person and make him everything I wanted or needed him to be, so I had to say... Bye,bye,bye. Unfortunately, I said hello to Nana's pound cake, fried chicken, macaroni and cheese and other magical food groups that I now carry with me on a daily basis. But I am ever hopeful. I have not given up on men, just boys... I guess I would describe myself as fun-loving (I know that's corny). But I really do like to laugh and do lots of fun things. I am obsessive about the t.v. shows that I watch, far too many to mention and retain any modicum of dignity. I am passionate about movies and music. I listen to EVERYTHING. From cheesy pop to overblown neo-soul and even a little country... LOVE the Dixie Chicks, they're cool. My father is a writer. I think that's where I get it from. My mother is my biggest fan. She is the one who encouraged me to go after my dreams. I am the middle child and yes, I do have a little Jan Brady in me, but I swear it's much better that it used to be. I mentioned my older sister, I also have a younger brother who towers over me. I am the shortest in my family at 5'7", so you can tell that I come from a family of giants. My mom and dad divorced when I was a wee tot, which meant I spent my summers in New York. I used to love 'Shakespeare in the Park' and 'Zabars' (from far too early on) and the Guggenheim (I know I am dork, hear me sigh). I guess that's pretty much the low down on MOI. As I learn more about what I'm actually doing with this site, I plan to add more stuff, but for now I'll clue you in on some of my favorite things... Look over there...

Favorite things...!

Movies
(In no particular order)
Terms of Endearnent
Lenny
The Bad Seed (It's a riot)
Say Anything
Shakespeare in Love
Malcolm X
Sixteen Candles
Love and Basketball

Television
(Again, in no particular order)
Angel
Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Ed (Although it's starting to bug me a little)
Friends
Roswell
Sex and The City
Soprano's
Project Greenlight
The Bernie Mac Show

Music
Everything! especially:
U2, Bruce "The Boss" Springsteen, young Michael and the JFive, not scary Michael, Billie Holiday, Ella Fitzgerald, Miles Davis, Janet, Maxwell, Pink and N'Sync (I am not ashamed!)

Writers
James Baldwin
William Faulkner
Edwidge Danticat
David Sedaris

Favorite sites:
www.obesityhelp.com
www. musze.com
www. reevesdrive.com
www.eonline.com
www.blissworld.com
www.godiva.com
www.realtor.com
www.hgtv.com
www.tlc.com