Alone in space, a space in time
Loneliness, a thing so quiet, a thing so calm
Minutes drag as the day wares on
So old, so very old.
The pains of my choice are mounting
My heart bleeds for my sorrows and the agonies of love
My morals and ethics are in question
Why should I care?
The confusion of sins cut deep into my conscience
Your belief in my soul seems so sad
Your innocence seems so wrong to me
But I care.
My heart hurts so badly
The conflicts of love still remain
Should I destroy everything desired?
My achievement, my ambition, my energy
I see the madness; I see the right
The hellish instincts of my romance
I feel the sorrow, I cry real tears
We feel the same; we care.
Life is too short to be depressed;
Enjoy!!
Your dream continues day after day
The perverse revelations of faith
Link us together
No short goodbye
Nothing
Anyway, this is life
That was love.
Trapped by these four walls gathering in
I’m held a prisoner from within
The children run and cry with glee
I wish it was me.
They don’t know what to expect
They aren’t in anyone’s debt
For once in my life everything is silent
All has now been and went
I feel a bystander watching the game
Even the records don’t seem the same.
Darkness closes in on me
But even in the light I can’t see
Restless nights spent lying here
The ghosts of you plague my fear
Visions of you are my only visitors
But when I awake I see you no more
All the time I wonder where you are
Whether you are near or far.
My defences have crumbled and turned to rubble
Out has popped the real me; so humble
My friends don’t see it; they think it’s a façade
All part of a one trick charade
I turn to the bottle in salvation
And find you in hallucination
Now I sit in a pool of tears
Oh God what am I doing here?
I feel the quietness of isolation
And try and remember moonlit relations.
Why can’t we run away together?
Live so safe and warm forever
Emigrate, sun and love days
But we’re going our separate ways.
We could take on the world and win
Nothing could take it away; a sin
Please don’t move we’ve nothing to fear
In the dark stay so near.
In the night we can run and play
Why do we have to move away?
Happiness, a thing so good, a thing so fine
Why do we have to throw things out of line?
Stay, stay we are lovers
This last day will last forever.
Sickening excuses ring from your halls
Yet it’s the murders that respond to your calls
You stand in your pulpits and preach
It’s more than the souls you reach.
A congregation of anti-Christ’s
Killers of innocents pray before Christ
Religion is known by the few
Blood flows down robes and down the pews.
You wage war on the guiltless
Your actions are vicious and callous
You’re a sham; a fake; a fool
You want supremacy; your God to rule.
Don’t you realise your heartless actions will clash?
People will react and then backlash
Your holy orders don’t mean a sod
Just accept there are more Gods.
Demons are calling towards me
As the bright lights flicker, illuminating your eyes
The sickly sweet smell rots away my brain
And my words seem distant and dis-jointed.
The darkness grips us as we now form one
Who is out there?
In the bright light on the horizon
An external laughter sends us reeling
And as we cower, peering into a bleak wilderness
A mist surrounds us, enveloping us in a blanket
Suffocated by my own lustful imagination.
A tearing now occurs from above
Dogs bark, you scream and they rip your flesh
Your breath cools my sweat as you cry out in pain
I am paralysed as your blood splatters me
Suddenly normality returns
And the dogs and you are no more
No objects, or trains this time
All that’s left are the holes.
We stand in the shadows, hidden from sight
Our own alley, in darkness no light
A
Private place our sanctuary
Away from the bustle; as passers-by hurry
Tomorrow I go to seek my fortune
Time ticks away, my call up is soon
Choosing unknown enemies, the saviours of the nation
My belief in my duty of your salvation.
The memories come flooding back
As I think of bags already packed
The laughter, the tears, the pain
Our life together, was it all in vain?
My friends who remain I’ll see some day
That’s if any decide to stay
In the pubs tonight have a drink on me
Remember the line that says “Stay Free”.
In my struggles many have died
Too many like me have cheated and lied
This could be the last time that you see me
Just keep all the good times and the spirit of me
My ghost will return to you
Remember the way I do of you
A hex is cast now
But I can’t show you how
Time to say goodbye
Believe in me, try
I will realise all your fears
Now please now love, no tears
Goodbye in this night
Moon, magic and mist
Farewell my friend
Remember the last laugh.
Another dawn breaks, another icy day
Struggle for freedom to have your say
Smiling faces of children happy one day
Because they all live for liberation day.
In the house now away from faces demure
By the fireside so safe and secure
Reach for letter burning in your hand
Read the words now, time for the stand.
The call to arms is what you need
The call to arms for country and creed
Now’s the time to take the fight
March now brothers; right, left, right.
The memories of the summer before
Now riot shields and the martial law
All the screams that we never heard
I cry at the thoughts that you stirred.
Now you’re running, running back to me
Scared of losing, because the blind can’t see
Reunion, now the end is nigh
Kill somebody before we all die.
The call to arms is what we need
The call to arms for country and creed
Now’s the time to make the stand
Fight sisters for this land.
I would be lonely, if I wasn’t with you
Trust in Almighty the religion is true
On the radio the news is now told
Lots more martyrs and exploits bold
Fires are burning across the land
No more newscasts, the telly’s banned.
News of tanks, now we shake in fear
No more water so forget the beer
In my home now with faces demure
In the fire, scared and insecure
I reach for letter burning in my heart
Read the words, now it’s time to start
The call-up to fight this land
The call-up to destroy our land
Leave the loved ones, to war I go
Death lust beauty, blood into the snow.
The end, a finale, a wave of a hand
Colours melt and blend into one
As the picture fades
The mist has cleared and I see where I am
Is it any use?
All the times that were wasted
Words never said
The sickness of fear as I waited
Disappearing in a pool of darkness
I hear you calling, shouting, crying
Fall about in laughter. Dying.
Draw the curtains, think yourself cheap
As we look at the scenery from our hill
Go to old places, old ways
Lower the flag in celebration
Jubilation as the sun burns down
Forget about me
Out of sight is out of mind
Your theory is so wrong
In your acting hate.
In the shadows
Hidden scenes, romantic dreams
This real lie, aching, paining, breaking
The last time; blood-splattered night
I was waiting for it to come
I had to wait a while, for the punchline.
Barren days forgetting you
Cloud riddled evenings of madness
Searching for a substitute
Drunken words, meaningless
Only spoken to pacify
“Stay with me for Christmas”, for a while at least.
Colours turn and blue
Crying alone in the sky
Now it’s time for home
The sickness, life, killing
This is it
Enjoying the end.
These times are failing
These times are falling
The sky is filling with red
My heaven is dying of lead
Strange animals fill the street
Spectres set to cover the sheet
Red, black, grey days
In this climate no one can stay
Things are falling
Days are crumbling
This is it, in the end.
Customs and habits have changed
Our lives are being rearranged
Night and day blend into one
Soon all these things will be gone
Vultures and parasites will soon die
This is true, this is no lie
Fires smoulder in the cities in ruins
Babies cry from their mother’s wombs
Life is crumbling, time decaying
World is falling
This is it, in the end.
Don’t try to understand this philosophy
Changing, changing our technology
Close your eyes everything is fine
Ha! Live the dream, but see the signs
Artificial society, judged by looks
Don’t believe? Just read the books
Lord and Lady, Pharaoh and King
Can’t you hear the tune they sing?
The Roman Empire is all gone
This one’s going with the bomb
Louder, ticking, louder, ticking
This noise is sickening.
Hitler and Napoleon had their day
The third Antichrist is here today
Forget it, forget it all
Live your life for full in the fall
Falling
Calling
Dying
Lying
Decaying
Praying
For the end.
In this darkened room in the dead of night
I lie awake as the clock ticks time forever by
Outside winds howl as winter approaches
Blowing away autumnal leaves, down to die.
My thoughts return to sunnier climbs
And to a girl I thought I once knew
There was Mark and Debbie and Mandy and Steve
And we were Adam and Eve
A foggy night in February
Now they’re the things I miss
School days were the best of my life
Walking home together, hand in hand
Or just talking at break-time
Then at the parties, dancing around the floor
With a bottle of cider in hand
And then standing in the alley, kissing out of sight
But your Mum always knew where you were.
Going for walks on Sunday after The Big Match
Lying down in a green field and home in time for tea
Arguments, deceit and lies never seemed that bad
Talking on the phone; all the screaming made me sad
One sunny afternoon we almost went too far
But nothing was spoiled like in the back of cars
Long summer dives in the countryside
Yes England was beautiful then
We were the perfect couple, untouched, unharmed
No sweaty screw in a toilet or lonely girl attacked
Or little boy molested
I went away and never came back.
One winter night as the ice melting
You were surrounded by jewels
But you kept this rough diamond
It worst winter of our lives
It was the best one for me
For we were together as one.
After church on Christmas Eve you gave me your present
And we celebrated a foggy new year and time stood still for me.
It was all so innocent, the love of it all
Loving letters and short telephone calls.
I accept it all on a cold winters night
I guess I was what drove you away
Of all the mistakes I’ve made in my life
That was the biggest
For as the tears of joy after the Cup Final subsided
They were replaced by sadness
As I read your last letter.
“I’ll never give you up,” you wrote
But you did, you silly girl.
I loved you Juju
But those three words go along with the rest
Filed and stored within my chest
Lying alone in a double bed
ILY words never said.
Jack and Jill went up the hill
To fetch a pail of water
Jack spoke to Jill and learned to kill
They went like lambs to the slaughter.
Do you remember the good old days?
(Oh yeah?)
Were they good and fair?
Were the skies blue and fine?
Did the sun always shine?
The fatal mistake to look at the past
Forget the pain, for how long it lasts.
The good old days – change your ways
Another pays – find new prey.
Remember the good things and not the bad
Not the wasted time and things so sad
Forget the agonies of funning with fright
The trials of strength and might
The times I tried to see the right
Blood and tear dreams in the night.
Jack and Jill went up the hill
To fetch a pail of water
Jack stabbed Jill; he had learnt to kill
Then strangled their baby daughter.
Don’t look at the photos, a waste of time
A sad reflection on a thing thought fine
A horror exhibition in a gallery of pain
A world declining in a life of shame.
Remember years ago, when they told you, you were great?
And you believed and couldn’t wait
You and me were nothing more than fools
Staring into deep, cloudy pools.
Now I’m cynical and older
I’m not taken in and I’m bolder
Met the girl; where’s she been?
She says she loves you; what does that mean?
Never ever look away
You know what happens when the cat’s away.
Believe in yourself
There’s no one else
Not trusting
Keep it burning
Don’t just shout
Keep your doubts
Watch the lies
Watch the ties
Don’t believe the sighs
Wait for the goodbyes.
“There’s not much
involved in casting doubt,
To hard to think
about,
I’d relate my
thoughts to you,
But I’m not so stupid
to put my faith in you.” Dexy’s Midnight Runners
I reject this system that we live in
It is cheap and full of hypocrisy
A filth and scum ruins this land
The pigs feed on the suckers
And the people eat the rubbish.
Scientific advancement isn’t worth a fuck
We don’t deserve anything
There is no confidence, no faith
Television rots the brain
Fills it full of sterile crap
Everyone is after a quick profit
When they say for life they mean till someone else
The weeds and parasites destroying the minds
People lacking jobs and money
Always looking for security
But rely on concepts of insecurity
Cheating a false sense of reality
Rebels fighting for worthless causes
Not seeing the real world
Or the hate or violence
Be blind, keep preaching revolution
Parasite for your own ends
Filter out
Or try and breakout
Before it gets too late.