The Beginning and the End of The
World
New life breathes again
Damp, dark days have left me behind
And the sun will shine again.
Barren winter days are all in the past
All the storms and gales have now subsided
So we can walk on gods green carpet in peace.
Relaxed and refreshed I emerge from my sleep
Like the awakening of a bear
From my long nightmare.
Too many times I stay away from the fire
In case the heat was too much
Or the light too bright
Lost feelings in a tortured mind
Depraved thoughts in a perverted body
With my poisoned soul and blackened heart
The albatross has finally been hung.
A burning caravan and burning home
As the dust settles and smoke clears
Out of the ashes the phoenix has risen
At last the ghost has been exorcised
And the curse lifted.
The New Year begins and the lambs kick free
Snow on my boots melts, as does my heart
Brave again to face the world.
City young slickers pass by in a hurry
I feel a young kid as the car go by
The came and whispered in my ear
Tonight more than words can say
As we walked round the lions.
These times are against us
Because the climate is too harsh
But burn the candle brightly in the black of night.
Don’t take this child and leave him alone
Standing impaled on the gates
Age is in the body, not in the mind.
So leave me for a week
Memories are forgotten for a month
Or a tear, or forever
(For the time being at least).
Hold my hands as you say goodbye
From around the lions
This honest boy has had too much pain
No more hope in faithfulness
No more truth in lies
I’m clean again with my innocent life
Don’t cut me up and throw me out
Just like the last one
Oh bruised and battered love lies fresh
I’ve got the wine, but the cork’s still in
Stand by me
Stand by me
As we stand by the lions.
The child went to the man
And grew older, but not wiser
The woman went to the man
But she grew colder, but still no wiser
Then the sun shone and they fell apart
Next thing the flowers had gone
And they drifted further and further apart
Alone again with a cynical mind and cynical heart
Waiting for a fool to come play the part
But the days changed
They grew longer and brighter and better
Old man’s life was rearranged
So he wrote it in a letter
Saying; -
I
haven’t felt like this for ages
I could write and write for
pages
Let the wine flow from glass
to mouth
And we’ll take our love from
north to south.
This is just like a fairytale
In my eyes how can it fail?
Because I’m the child and
young at heart
And you’re the teacher to play
the part
I’m now awake from my
nightmare
All I see is you face and hair
With my love I cannot deceive
My reason to exist, reason to
believe
You are my warder behind these
bars
My nurse to soothe the battle
scars
Of a broken heart and broken
marriage
For you I’ll pay full
carriage.
So the man went to the child
And the child was full of laughter
The woman went to the child
They had found the answer.
So raise your glass and drink your drink tonight
For all the boys will be all right
And thank the lord for what we receive
With all our hearts we do believe
Dance to the sounds and turn a blind eye
For when it stops someone will die
Not tonight though as they fall into bed
As the harmonies played on his head
“God looks after his own tonight
Stay with me, you’ll be all right.”
But now the future had begun
As she spoke in foreign tongue
In the entwines as one
The child had gone
In a breaking sun of love and lust
His faith restored in woman and trust.
I travelled with bags in hand
To make a stand for the rights of man
Choice execution, the picture’s a fake
Another monumental decision to make.
A network of lies is the grid of the map
Heart beats like drops from the drip of a tap
Plans are wasted in unforeseen complication
Realisation of virtue, an impossible situation.
Dancing the tightrope as the door is closed
Not looking back is the choice I chose
Catch twenty-four is the insidious folly
To take the musket or cross the dolly.
Out in the open, walking on water
Flocking droves come like lambs to the slaughter
Striving to survive, willing to live
Black and white together in spirit to give
Dynamic, distracted detached from the low
Cynical, clinical determined deathblow
Worst fears confirmed, resigned to the fact
Young men and boys will never come back
But there’s hope in the hearts as the weather is fine
Overpass for the dead; a wake in the sunshine.
One battle is over another is soon
Standing, waiting I’ll be over the moon
I played the game and won and lost
Unreliable boy, I almost counted the cost
Lost the fun but kept the girl
All I wanted was the world
Stepping out brightly into the line
Mourning is over, awake in the sunshine.
Kick the dew off the grass
And we’ll walk through to the past
One summer morning bright and strong
Take me to the place that I belong.
Upon the hill it stands
In the effervescent greenery of this land
Blue sky, clouds have all gone
Wine and music will flow all day long.
Up there, we stare
I long to be there
When we get there it will be fun
In this heat, sweat and sun
A breeze fills the room
Feast time will be soon
And the scent of it all
As we gather for the ball
Birds sing in an evening mist
He takes my hand in an iron fist
Up there, we stare
I long to be there, at the Camellia House.
The sun sinks in the east
Fattened up for the beast
In the heat clocks turn back
Blurred image as the mirror cracks
Dancing on the breath of breeze
Lying back she takes it with ease
In the night with beads of sweat
He claims we had never met
But it’s a dream away
A lifetime away
You could go there too
He could give it to you
At the Camellia House.
We’ll push out the boat
And off we’ll float
To the Camellia House
Yes the Camellia House.
In the sea of tranquillity all is quiet.
Back again in the same old place
Standing here, forever
Singing the same old tune
So all alone.
Yeah it’s happened again
I thought you had restored my faith in human nature
But I was wrong
So very wrong.
I was waiting for the ring of the phone
Or the drop of a letter
At morning time
Or in the dead of night.
Then it hit me, and I realised
I’d been fooled again
Tricked and robbed
Oh you took my money
And my food
Then my love.
I can never love again after you
There wasn’t anything
I must’ve been blind
That I’ve been used.
“Guilt and power.” You said
Well what the fuck’s that mean?
Now that you’ve gone.
Can’t be bothered to think anymore
Can’t be bothered to hope
You might as well kill me
But I’ll do it myself
No one will ever love me.
Whose side are you on?
Whose side were you ever on?
Do you have any principles?
Did you ever have any morals?
Now it’s time to stand up and be counted
It’s judgement day for the few
Nail me to a cross
And I’ll stand as a symbol for you
For there are too many martyrs these days
Let the nightmares begin
Is your conscience clear tonight?
Too many promises
Lies that you gave to me
Living inside this hell
But you will be all right
But will you sleep tonight?
And you can dance off with your best friends
In their make believe world
There on the other side.
When the rebels become the leaders
And the old order is overthrown
Your heroes become the baddies
And the nice girl is a whore
You could never say goodbye.
Decadence stance, white romance
Police control; dread control
Seven hells, deep, deep wells
You’ll never know
Just what to show.
Two ends of the world
Two extremes
Begin and end with me.
Heaven and hell
The faces of the world.
Madness of the mind
Twisted thoughts rack my brain
Years ago
Years ago
Trying to relive the past
Naughty old whore
With sex in a small bed
Polarity.
A chance meeting; if only please
So I can live now
For the future
And the past
Love in circles
Going round and round again
Small blonde haired girl
Virgin
Please love me now
Polarity.
It’s the beginning and the end of the world tonight
And the stars are not all in the sky
Clouds have rolled over London town
This night will be ours forever.
Bathed in the brilliance of starlight
Atmosphere and tension is so tight
Onto glory; onto glory
Unleash the power of the story.
In the fury of the total war zone
Women and children and left alone
“This victory will be ours, celebrate rejoice!”
In the homes; faces glued to screens
See the action in cathode ray beam
Watching the exciting lightening fighting
Onto glory, onto glory….
The showpiece in the European theatre
Destroying the others, over and over
Time ticks by, one by one
Baited breath, agonising agony
Spirit bias and anger
Waiting for a victory in the last war
The end of the campaign.
A blaze of white light
A blaze of glory
Another young hero is found
Another front-page star.
But remember the General
As you walk away
We salute you
Come back some day
This is the only place to be
It’s the beginning and the end of the world.
Golden days set in sun
Oh what a summer it was
With work aplenty and hope abounding
Before the madness set in.
Primary in honour, valour and loyalty
But in those long hot summer nights
It was the only thing to do.
Tired and weary after a hard days work
Drinking was the only way
False ambitions and false allies
Angels were what I wanted
To chase the blues away.
Celebrations as storms burst out
It was all magical and mystical
No guilt or flowers apologising
Just red raw and embarrassing
Bitches biting in front of Olympian scenes
Trying to escape and stealing cars
Crashing through to the Griffin.
Drunken and drug crazed nights
In front of black and white images
Just for a week
Then tearing away and falling again.
All the jokes and hysterical outbursts
Scared to show my face
But I’m back and I’m better
I am the Griffin
In town to take what’s mine
Remember and enjoy
In the dead of night
Think and enjoy
These Griffin days.