| First Nights |
| As the childe slowly enters the world of the Damned, she learns about the society of the undead through her sire's tutelage and accumulated experience.Should the sire introduce her to other Kindred, the Fledgling may gain firsthand knowledge of the pomp and ritual associated with the vampires' society.Most sires, however, sequester their childer from other Kindred, fearing that exposure to other vampires may sway their younglings knowledge away from what the sires wish them to learn. Many of these first nights are spent learning what it means to be undead. The childe inevitably meets her beast, and either falls to frenzy or learns early on how to subjugate its wild call. The sire may offer aid and guidance in thwarting the Beast or he may watch as it overtakes his childe, then admonish her for weakness afterward. It is now that the childe learns that undeath is indeed a curse --- despite the power brought by the Embrace, she is no longer entirely herself, and must forever be wary of the Hunger that burns inside her. Also at this time, the childe learns ---to late!--- to appreciate the emotional capacity possessed by mortals. As a vampire, the childe's heart is dead,leaving her a cold corpse incapable of truly feeling anything. Most vampires compensate by "making" themselves feel, conjuring up memories of emotions long dead. Desperation is all that remains in the hearts of many vampires, as they realize what they have lost as their mortal selves died. The first nights are a time of bleak revelations. Many fledglings cannot cope with the terrible new world of night into which they have been reborn, and choose to meet the obliterating rays of the sun rather than continue their exsistance. |