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2004-08-22
21:26
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I should be at some High School Reunion thing right now - but I'm not feeling masochistic enough to actually go there.
Really, I don't know how I could ever stand being around those guys; and for four years, too! *shudder* Thinking about it, I could NOT stand it, I was just dealing because there wasn't really an other option.
I'm not really angry at any of them for making my life Hell and giving me serious trust issues that I'm not sure I'll EVER work out completely, but at least I got over my borderline paranoia before it really had a chance to fully hit when I came into collage.
My classmates from collage weren't perfect persons either and I don't really know how to explain the difference... let's see...
High School was over and everybody went their seperate ways; and even though everybody had a list of all phone numbers and adresses, I never contacted anybody or heard from anybody until a week ago, when the Reunion invitation was in the mail. Well, save for a about 3-4 chance encounters where everybody was oh so happy to see me that even a blind AND deaf person would have known that it was fake.
I'm getting a certain kind of satisfaction out of being NOT fake friendly but borderline hostile/rude in these situations. Thinking about it that way makes me think about going to the Reunion anyway; seeing their faces when I don't put up with their shit anymore but rather tell them off in no uncertain terms would so be worth it! Heh...
But I told myself years ago that I wouldn't wast my time on any of them anymore and so be it; I'm going out with a couple of friends today, I will have fun and the only thing I have left to say to that Reunion thing is: 'Bite me and have a nice life!'
Collage is over and every few months we'll have a come-together at somebody's house for barbecue or going out together and every other weekend or so some of us will happen to meet each other while going out and we'll have a few drinks together and talk; and even though I'm not going out of my way to keep up with what everyone is doing, I still have at least a vague idea about it.
And I'm actually taking a 'reconnaissance' stroll through the bar or disco or whatever to see if somebody's there and if there is then there won't be awkward situations where nobody knows what to say because even if all we do is say 'Hi!' that's okay because the next time somebody will sneak up to me when I'm sitting at the bar and surprise me with a quick tickle that has me nearly falling off my chair and when I turn around to let him/her have it because I just HATE being tickled like that, I'll be met with a mischievous grin, that I can't help but return.
Or I'll find myself pulled into a hug all of a sudden because I met somebody I haven't seen in quite a while in a place where either of us expected to meet somebody.
And so on...
Well, I sure am in a better mood now than I was when I started writing and that's just right because I have to get going now.
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2004-08-22
22:13
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Quote of the day:
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.
Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Just walk beside me and be my friend.
(Albert Camus)
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