bleak break
my head hits the thin air as we are choking
the sad cry of nicotine pulsing in the horizon
i dont know whether to laugh or die on the spot
how is that guy doing?
you ask
i refuse to answer as you sit there by the river
and i dont give a fuck anymore about anything
so i jump in
the water isnt anything
its just there a colourless liquid and i cant even drown in it
i can just stare at my own
nothing
reflection
which teases some feeling of non-existence
i wish i couldnt believe in god so i could die peacefully
i dont want heaven hell or anything
just sleep for once
not nightmares
or waking nightmares
public property strangles each child as they walk through city
streets covered in dog shit and mucus from drug users
everybodys a pusher in the big drug game of life
and each word is worth less and less as the time passes
and the white lines go further and further away from 
a piece of sense
5 cents cant even get you a word these days
nothing is free
this doesnt costs me anything but the time
that slowly
or quickly,
depending how you look at it
of time
oh time i have enough of you
ive had enough of you of us
of sickening nights of nightongintgt
she spit me in the face
metaphorically speaking and i dont know
how to deal with success
it sucks. in excess.

v a wonderful letter it spawns from my heart
a bleeding bird shape in the horizon of empty forms
filling with fagina a volley of words
attack my brain as each sperm struggles to plant in my head
 brain egg carrier
hatch inspiration as something is pregnant
conceive a thought
nurse a notion
for thought is extremely cheap and words will last as long as you do
so think it through;
find purpose in small instances;
befriend an ant or fuck
a
a perfect stranger;
just try to stare laughter in the eyes and crack a joke in the inapporpriate fading moment
of church
burn the walls of square meals
eat anything
and drink from life until it flows from every orifice in the world