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Pictures
(they look a lot better after you click on them, when
you theyre small like this you dont get the full effect
like if you went to a museam and you saw a painting from far
away it would look regular, but when you get up close it looks
a lot better
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to make a pic you background pic, right click on the enlarged pic and pick "set as wall paper"
for the pics i used a nikon coolpix880, adobe photo shop,
mgi photo suite and hp photo printing
Music
I put in the size so you know it wont take very long to download (on a 56k modem, you can get up to 8 kb a sec, but realistally i expect around 7 (for me atleast)
for these i used a crate strat and amp ...starter pack (for those of you who wondering how i got a crate guitar) a digitech rp300 and a dod 69b grunge pedal a sony tape recorder and a walkman which uses tapes a drum machiene built into my effects pedal (rp300) a washed out uncle bens rice bowl container taped to a 1.5 inch soft cover book drum sticks all the necessary cords a rogue bass a rogue bass amp
keyboard10.26.02.mp3 281 kb
this one is lon, like 5 minutes, my brother told me it was good
twice after hearing it once, it gets better at about 2 min 20 sec (i would give it a 1)
you may have noticed that the quality of the files are terrible, i have to keep the file size low because im only allowed to have like three gb to be downloaded from this site per month plus people dont have to wait this way
Poetry
nothing
if i only knew nothing i could
end this endless toil
bask in all the wonders
simply exist
like a god
-10.05.02
i got the idea for the peom from the peom "sakyamuni comming out from the mountian" by allen ginsberg which reads :
he knows nothing
like a god
im dieing to know if people think that is plagarism?
or if the poem isnt a accomplishement because the point peom came from ginsberg not me
im torn,
i really need to know if i did any thing good by writing thes poem knowing that i got the idea from two lines of somone elses poety
can you please tell me if the meter of this poem trivializes the content
if you dont get it, another name for it could be "is it all worth it?"
the pea pod
the pea pod dangles lightly from the vine.
the pea pod glistens after a life giving gift of rain.
a drop of water collects at the bottom of the pod,
slowly grows and delicately escapes the pea pods grasp.
the pea pod gently sways back in forth in the wispy wind.
-10.24.02
whats the use?
whats the use of sailing without a distination?
whats the use of trying without any wind?
day after day it gets more and more pointless
day after day it gets clearer and clearer
whats the point of pointlessness
whats the point of a pointless ending
what lies over the horizon?
what truth is over the horizon?
whats the rush when well cross in time?
whats the point of taking long way?
no one knows which course is best,
so ill stay on the course i was placed
-11.3.02
who thinks i should take this one out?
other
happiness is a mask that blinds us, partially ofcourse
(im not saying it is a bad mask)
people may be different, nobodys special
happiness is the opium of the people
people are defined by their situation and influences
when you hate someone, you hate the person,
but youre hating in actuality you are something that isnt person hate is ignorant
life is like painting a painting without vision
here is my progress to learning the secret to happiness
i think im getting close, and i got like seventy more years until ill probably die so i think i can do it (ya right)
desire is the source of all things bad,
it is also the root of all things good,
it is in ones own desire where lies the key to true happiness
when i wrote this i knew i was to vague, but i left it that way
i think its useless if the only way to understand it is to already understand it so,
just say two kids are in a class together, early grade school
its the last school day before christmas vacation
lets say kid "a" thinks since its the last day before christmas he deservers a treat like cup cakes and is anxious to get his, he gets annoyed by it
kid "b" doesnt think "we deserve something"
the teacher brings in cup cakes
kid "a" has neutral emotion, he finally got what he was waiting for
kid "b" is overjoyed
so: the two kids were given the same thing, yet kid "b" is happy and kid "a" is neutral
heres explaination number two
(when i do this i do a dialog with the people, okay person ive only done it to one person)
me: "i know how to have you hair come out perfectly the way you want it after coming out of the shower without any work at all"
(i guess this applies to girls, but boys can still take away the same meaning)
other person: "how?"
me: "like your hair the way it is once you dry it off when you get out of the shower"
i touched on something else in the first one
the more someone thinks about something, the more the person wants it
for example i was mildly attacked to a girl
i kept thinking about her, evantually i wrote her a love letter (it was a horrible experience for me)
and another time, i didnt even like a girl
then i heard the song combersome which says "shes wanting me less and im wanting her more"
those lyrics kept going through my head and i asked to see a movie (another horrible experience, but not nearly as horrible as the first one becase i worked with the girl in that one)
people care too much
thinking about things reminds me of another thing, not thinking about things, as in not caring
this world could use a little apathy
now for another story
my dad drives me places sometimes, and we listen to the radio
we switch off songs, the problem is songs on different stations dont begin and end at the same time, and i cant always find the a song
so when my song ends, my dad gets a song
but sometimes the song will end after like ten or twenty seconds
if i really wanted a song, than i would say that was your song, my turn
and there would be a fight
but if i stop caring a little, there will be no fight and we would listen to the radio peacefully
*story ends here if you want to skip it
so if people would just not care a little and let things go, things will work out
not caring also helps internally
if something bad happens to me and i get my self to not care about it, it doesnt hurt me as much
i like life a lot better if i just move along getting pushed around, not caring, and just keep going
here are three things i hate about this world
fashion and make up
blemeshes are what make us human
covering them up is like taking away the users humanity
differences and uniqueness make us human
fashion is all about conformity
fashion dehumanizes us
exploition of sex
sex was given to us by God for procreation
giving birth is the closest thing to devineness that we have
people use sex to sell products
they take the most holy thing in the world today and use it to make money
peoples love of money
yesterday i saw in the news five people were killed in a bank robery
i cant imagine what kind of hurt and damage is done in one murder let alone five
all for money!
when i first thought about this it made me sick, it gave me bodily discomfort
here are my supernatural truths:
[some people might call them beliefs, they are truthes to me, i have experienced proof, i dont just blindly take things, (i was athiest for like five years)] (and God is natural so it doesnt make any sense but i dont care) [i just coined that phrase up now supernatural truths)]
there is a creator, God (i have three experiences to back this up)
this world is an illusion (i have experience sensations that lead me to believe this one, two to four times) God is agianst us commiting suicide (have one experience for this one, which also counts for the first one)
more on God:
i used think that there was no god,
then i thought (a long time later) that God created the earth and left
but no i know God is all around us
one time i experienced God, there is no way to explain it,
the room i was looking into looked different
okay thats the only way
but that does not explain it all
i felt different too
then it ended and i cried, because i knew God was gone
but now i get this comforting sort of feeling, because God is always there God is always there, we just have to know how to sense God
even more on God
some people are waiting for the second comming of Christ
im not
im not because it has already happened, many times over
when ever someone does something good, or loves another (not guy meets girl love) person, that is Christ Christ comes back to earth through us Christ is love
people should not be hung up on the physical aspect of God
i think its okay to think of God as a verb sometimes
one thing about this world i dont like
on day i was walking past a video store, and there were two movie posters in the windows. i didnt like the fact that people are entertained and enjoy war! war is like the worse thing imaginable, and poeple like to go to movies to see it. people die, families are ruined... then i saw a scorpion king two (a movie) commercial, the way they get people to see their movie is by having a guy holding a huge sword say "who dies first," i really hate this!!!
rcory44 on time travel
time travel is impossible because time does not exist (tangibly)
a board is real, you can walk forward on it, or you can walk backwards on it
just say there is a brown thing and the beginning of it,
you can walk past the rut then back again, recreating the brown thing underneath you
but with time you cant move forward it time or backward in time
time is not the fourth dimension, it is a state
we happen to lable time in an accending order, that does not mean it is an object that can be manouvered back and forth along
we are not moving forward in time, we are just changing states of time in an acending order
rcory44 on telemarketers
telemarketers used to annoy me and i was very rude to them
but now i realize that they arent going to go away,
so now ive gotten myself stopping caring about their calls,
im nice to them, they seem to appreciate it,
and if youre the type that likes to win:
...we both win this way :)
rcory44 on hope
things that dont have any grounding in truth never start:
if i buy a lot of candy i will live longer
or
if i blink too many times in a munute ill go blind
or
theres someone out there for everyone...
people do believe this
but there is no reason to believe this,
so i wonder why would believe this
...because they want to
even if the person realizes that there is no reason for something,
theyll believe it because they like to believe it
like if a black cat crosses you path, its bad luck
this has no grounding in truth,
they have to reason to want to believe it,
so why do people believe it
people must believe it because theyre gulible or they just like to believe in something
evantually people will grow old enough and the guliblity is superceded with knowledge,
but people still believe it
(i changed my posisition halfway through this, but i left it so you could experience my train of thought, something i would love to experience in someone else)
this suprises me, that people will believe in things because they want something to believe in
i guess i answered my own question
i wonder if it is fun for people to have superstitions
i guess it gives the person something to hold on to, like rally caps in baseball
i must give the person a sense of security, however false
or that theyre doing something instead of doing nothing
i guess that says something about the human race as a whole,
sometimes we need something to hold on to so much that we dont even care that theres nothing there to hold on to
like i want to live in a world where everybody is nice to eachother,
so i be as nice a person as possible,
do so partially so im not a hypocryt, but also in hope that other people will be nice too
i know perfectly well that me being nice wont change anything, (it possible it could have an impression on someone and they could change, but that is nothing on the scale im talking about
but at least i have hope.
on fun size candy
(fun size candy is halloween gift candy thats really small)
HOW IS A TINY CANDY BAR MORE FUN AND A LARGE ONE!!!!!!!
perfection
my dog is perfection
not the space shuttle
...not a flawless achievement
the world is geared towards perfect success, not a perfect life
mankinds quest for perfection is going the wrong way
we are working towards mainly towards material gains,
not gains in happiness
if we can learn to live like my dog, we can have perfection
not by achieving incredible feats
happiness is perfection
success has nothing to do with perfection
instead of trying to end things looking bad,
we should try to end anger and hatred
people are trying live longer, not better
...who cares if im stuck in this traffic jam
on energy
in the conservation of energy, energy cant come from no where
louder noises must use up more energy than quiet ones
if i play a string on my acoustic guitar, sound is created, uses energy
but then it magically gains energy from somewhere and gets louder
doesnt this go against the conservation of energy?
can someone please fill me in
it doesnt matter what the world is like
if you were stuck in a house all day and you could only get out twice a day, it would be unlivable
but thats how it is for dogs, and they love it
that that means for things to be good it doesnt matter what the world is like, what matters is what we are like
we shouldnt search the outside world for happiness, we need to look within!
if we could only modify our standards to be at what we have (like dogs) we could be happy
our standards come from our wants
so all we have to do is stop wanting things ...emotionally
i want food to live ...intelectual want
i want the new excessivly violent playstation 2 game ...emotional
we can still have intellectual wants, just not emotional ones
i want to have fun ...intellectual, borderline but still intellectual
we can intellectually say i want to have fun, but we can also say emotionally i want to have fun
i dont know how to explain the difference, but there is one
if you want to get a second opinion, try Gods: the lord my shepard there is nothing i shall want
i believe Jesus was send down to earth to make things better for us, to make us happy ...which can only mean God loves us
if anyone from school reads this im fucked
i was shocked
today i took the public bus (versus the school bus) and i was one of two white people on the bus along with like fifteen black people
(i was shocked because the people who take the bus are too poor to get a ride themselves, who were vastly black)
i in my opinion widespread racism is gone in my area
and blacks now have equal rights
i thought that meant everything was equal
i was wrong
the average income for white non hispanics in march 2000 was $23,800
whereas the average income for blacks was $14,000
how can we pretend to have racial equality
they have handicap parking at sea world
i went there over the summer
in case your wondering why i would go there, it was a change from the beach
the handicap people can walk around sea world for a day but its too far for them to walk across a parking lot
(people who have trouble walking get handicap parking things, i say walk as also meaning riding in a wheel chair)
to a degree it doesnt matter what youre like
i think people would agree that the distinction can be made between people who fight for no reason other than to fight and those who dont
like, i am the type of person who wouldnt fight for no reason other than to fight
i think everyone is farmiliar with the movie fight club
people fight for no reason other than to fight
it came out like a year and a half ago
after it came out, the freshman started a fight club
(it was at a football/x country camp)
if the movie hadnt come out than the kids would never have started the fight club
(i am aware that peer pressure was probably the main cause, but thats not the point im trying to make)
(these kids met for the first time (the summer before their freshman year at a private school)"tough kids" who wanted everyone else to think they are tough)br>
in that case, it wasnt the person who defined what the person did, it was the persons influences
ofcourse there is some mental intrepretation of the influences, we arent just machienes who spit out reactions to situations identically
but, no matter how good or godly a person is, if they dont get any good influences, they will turn out to be bad people
...in my opinion, it think it would be great if i was wrong
i also think, no matter how evil someone is, if they only get good influences, they will turn out to be a good person
how is fear factor still on the air
why would anyone watch that show???
to get in the christmas spirit, they decided to have people eat reindeer testicles
ya, its kinda funny, but its also disgusting
its not funny like lets watch it funny
how can it be entertaining to watch people eat animal testicles?
ive never been so proud to be an american
[end of me]
poll:
what does it mean to be human?
a) inquisitive nature, or something or other (lisa simpson)
b) art (me)
c) other
send in what you think to [email protected]
the "poll" part is just a joke because i know no one will respond
i am changing my position, i think to be human means to be a personal unique individual
...each animal in an animal spieces are all the same
'tis the unweeded garden that grows to seed
this is from hamlet
i dont know what scene or act it is because i got if from the movie
Doubt thou the stars are fire;
Doubt that the sun doth move;
Doubt truth to be a liar;
But never doubt I love.
also from the greatest movie of all time
...the play sucks (and books in general)
Our wills and fates do so contrary run
That our devices still are overthrown;
Our thoughts are ours, their ends none of our own:
ive been told that these have been taken out of context, in a really bad way
...but if i write a play about a football player, i think the stuff can go for a basketaball story
or if in fight club they say something like: you have to lose everything to gain anything, it can be used in any context
i think these are truths (not the love one) that dont need context, so i will keep them up
but the theatre woman knows a lot more than me on the topic, shes the one who said they were taken out of context in a really bad way
just to warn you
i saw on a board in my school a while ago, it said something like:
the forest would be a quite place if the only birds who sung were the birds who sung best
here's another one: (this one is word for word)
when you find peace within yourself, you become the kind of person who can live at peace with others
here are some quotes i just got from bookshelf because i cant sleep
then i got a few more later
I think; therefore, I am.
Rene Descartes
{Columbia Dictionary of Quotations}
Man's capacity for justice makes democracy possible, but man's inclination to injustice makes democracy necessary.
-Reinhold Niebuhr
{Columbia Dictionary of Quotations}
Question with boldness even the existence of a God; because, if there be one, he must more approve of the homage of reason, than that of blind-folded fear.
Thomas Jefferson
{Columbia Dictionary of Quotations}
My idea of an agreeable person is a person who agrees with me.
Benjamin Disraeli
{Columbia Dictionary of Quotations}
Life is the art of drawing sufficient conclusions from insufficient premises.
-Samuel Butler
{Columbia Dictionary of Quotations}
People in general are equally horrified at hearing the Christian religion doubted, and at seeing it practised.
-Samuel Butler
{Columbia Dictionary of Quotations}
I really do not see much use in exalting the humble and meek; they do not remain humble and meek long when they are exalted.
-Samuel Butler
{Columbia Dictionary of Quotations}
All animals, except man, know that the principal business of life is to enjoy it.
-Samuel Butler
{Columbia Dictionary of Quotations}
Life is like playing a violin solo in public and learning the instrument as one goes on.
-Samuel Butler
{Columbia Dictionary of Quotations}
The great pleasure of a dog is that you may make a fool of yourself with him and not only will he not scold you, but he will make a fool of himself too.
-Samuel Butler
{Columbia Dictionary of Quotations}
The want of money is the root of all evil.
-Samuel Butler
{Columbia Dictionary of Quotations}
Each man must look to himself to teach him the meaning of life. It is not something discovered: it is something moulded.
-Antoine de Saint-Exup�ry
{Columbia Dictionary of Quotations}
Life was a funny thing that happened to me on the way to the grave.
-Quentin Crisp
{Columbia Dictionary of Quotations}
Life is a horizontal fall.
-Jean Cocteau
{Columbia Dictionary of Quotations}
The American lives for ambition, the future, more than the European. Life for him is always becoming, never being.
Albert Einstein
{New Year's greeting, 1931}
Anyone who is capable of getting themselves made President should on no account be allowed to do the job.
Douglas Adams
{The Restaurant at the End of the Universe, 1980}
i liked the first samuel butler one, so i went and got more of his
...thats why i have so many of his
funny pics
down?
here is a funny movie site www.csittl.com is a funny site
its completely grass roots so i love it, plus its funny
the way it works is twice a week a new topic is posted and people send in entries
the top ten they read gets put on the site
most of it is junk, but like 2 or 3 each list are good
