It was in March of 2000 when my 9 year old son and I found them. Them being pictures, love letters and internet transcript of my wife of ten years having affairs. I was the house husband. I looked after our beatiful son most of that time. She was SUPPOSE to be out working and looking for another place for us to live. You see, we had made this arrangment that I would stay at home and look after the house and our son. She was the bread winner. She had two of her own business and taught at the Toronto School Of Business in Hamilton Ontario. Her business was finacial. She owns a morgage business named Morgage Express and she also own Lazer Finacial. Both In Toronto Canada. Her income is over $100,000.00 per year and she never paid taxes on that I found out. What makes it worse was, she never paid my taxes either, yet she claimed she did.



So now flash forward. The love of my life, the person who gave me my son, whom I wanted all my life is screwing everyone and never even tries to be a family, decides she must leave. She did not want to say good bye. Just wants to run away. She does have an avoidence problem. After all, she is 43 years old and still has not told mommy or daddy she smokes.


Now she has run away to this boy toy of hers. My son and I find photos, love letters and internet chat script. Seems she is a habitual sex fanatic. I wonder why she did not want sex from me? Was it because we had a baby and in doing so she received stretch marks? Did she recent the fact that the two of us we supposely cramping her style? Or did she think it was all my fault because I chose family or monitary and success?


Call me old fashion and out of date, I don't care, but I do feel family is the most important thing. I do beleive in talking about problems and there I sno problem a family can not work out if they TALK to each other. Then again we did not talk. She complained and I listened. She went out to go to "WORK" at one of her companies, while my son and I sat at home without her. She spent as little time as she could avoiding us, while we, my son and I did everything together. WE MISSED HER. I had to answer why "MOMMY" was never home. Hell my son's school did not even know he had a mommy until the year 2000. He had been that school for 3 years. She did not even know the location of it until then. She still can not tell you the teachers name.


Jumping back to her leaving, I called her many times, she answered some, but my mind I was confused. She would come home, have sex with me and then go back to him. My son and I were cut off our funds. She would send some money for my son, but that was not going to last. School trips, money needed for cookie drives, gas for my car to get him to and from these functions. I had the reality ride turning into a nightmare, while she was out to Buffalo to have fancy dinners or parting at the bars. Oh she does love to drink. (one bottle of sherry every night)


While I am scrambling to go to a lawyer, who by the way, thinks she did a good job for me, but I will get to that later. I am scrambling to go to Welfare, swollowing my pride. I find out that I am not qualified to get any. So now I am stuck with sitting on the corner in a suit with my resumes handing them out. I do have a sign saying that I need a job and that my wife left me and I want to provide a safe and secure home where my son knows that a responsible parent does not run away.

So he I sit in the faded light at night. Reading the letters and cards of my wifes lovers. Robert Summers, Nick the internet guy, Bruce Newlover the ex RCMP, her ex husband Paul,her partner who is a lawyer, and the list goes on. Now I know this person who is a Doctor who specializes in sexual personalities. It seems that Maureen has an addiction. He suggested that I should understand this and feel for her. Gee , sorry doc, she just totally destroyed my and my son's life, don't think so. ( The sexual addiction gives one a high when seeking out and gaining the sex. The depresson sets in after the affair goes. Then to get the high again, the person has to seek out another affair.) To me this is worse then the suicide attempt I tried. At least I can get stitched up and heal. Sex, Unprotected as she had will kill her. Something called AIDS! You must of heard of it, it has been on the news!


Now before you come down on me, I have had lots of times I would of liked to have sex with other women. Hell I even suggested after Maureens first affair that we have a threesome. I figured if she was going to fool around on me, I might as well be involved with them.
Yes I know I was weird for suggesting this. It seems this was the start of my loathing myself, and my self worth was at a all time low. The spiral of my depresson had just started. She blamed me for being to tired all the time because I was working all night, coming home, looking after our son and then doing the chores around the house during the day and going to my Karate classes and somewhere in between trying to get some sleep.








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