Misty dawn, morning breaks ~ a robin in his high nest wakes; with a song he greets the morn, announcing a new day is born.� The sun shines down on all below, a newborn fawn and regal doe;on the grass there sparkles dew, magnifying its rich green hue.
The sky is of a shade of blue the greatest artist never drew; for these spring mornings do I long, for then my heart's alive with song.
"Have you ever needed someone so bad, have you ever wanted someone you just couldn't have ?" Have you ever looked into his eyes, and said those very words, at his prompting, at the same time trying to hide� the pain in your own eyes from him ? Have you ever loved so fiercely that you felt you could die, while you had to watch him hold someone else because he said he still wanted to be your friend, and you still cared to much to hurt him, figuring that friendship is better than nithing ? Tell me, was i a faithfull friend or just a desperate fool, hoping maybe some way, some day...?
There's something inside me, eating away my soul like cancer corroding like acid, killing like poison.� Its killing me and making numb, changing me into a shell of the person i was before.� In place of my soul there's just nothingness, an emptiness that can never be filled a chasm that cant be crossed.� There is no happily ever after, only a miserable, lonely emptiness.� Because of the trust he betrayed i'll never trust another...ever.
I thought i was being nipped by the love bug, but i ended up being stung by a bee.� I broke the rules for you, mixed friendship and love, but all you did was break my heart.� You abandoned me when i needed you most,� you� closed your eyes and heart to my pain, turned your back on me, and walked away.� I had sworn i would never let anyone in my heart again, but i opened it wide to you, i wish you could have done the same for me.� I thought you were my best friend, but i guess i never really knew you at all.� You turned into someone i couldnt recognize, didnt want to know.� What ever happened to that person i loved so much ?� Why couldnt you be with me when i needed� you so much ?�
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