More Than You Realize

ignore it
throw away trust
think that
you've had enough
stick your head
in a deep hole
forget
it comes back again
you deal with it
like a little kid
try to figure out
what the hell you did
you won't deal with it
hang it over my head
are you wishing that
i was nearly dead?
try to hurt me
the same way i hurt you
does it matter that
i never meant to?
you can't hurt me
more than i hurt myself
don't you realize
i'm in my own hell...
your words burn
like a dying sun
thinking that
you're the only one
scratch you nails
down a scarred back
are you strong
enough for that?
more like me
than you realize
both hurt and trapped
by damn white lies
try to hurt me
more than i hurt myself
save me from
my personal hell
doesn't matter to me
it's all the same escape
the same damn evil
with a different shape
do you wanna hurt me?
wanna let me hurt myself?
victim of my own hell
crying within myself
there's all the pain
in the way you fight
all the pain
in the way you hide
all the pain
in the tone of your voice
all the pain
in your choice
all the pain
in the dead trust
all the pain
in what i thought was us
was it us?
was it us?