My Dearest

Youre just a little girl
But youre my little princess
And I like to build you castles
That exist only in dreams

Say your prayers and close your eyes now
Because its time to make believe
That your life is all you hoped
That it would be

And I lie to make you happy
And theyre happy, little lies
And they help us to continue
Our pathetic little lives

Lies are like a growing cancer
That engulf you in their warmth
Till you close your eyes
And settle in for sleep

And Ive saved you, little Lily,
From this place
Another person would have let the sadness
Settle with the days
Till tomorrows promise that
Perhaps today you have a chance
I will love you
As the twilight holds us safe

I cannot help lying to you
Its your smile that makes me do it
So I threw a pretty bullet
Through your face

Ruins

Like an old photograph
Do you see this, little boy?
This is what happens
To men who want it all
And it's hard to explain the past
So I'll leave you to yourself
To burn this photgraph
And create a new one
And this time
Please get it right

Leaf

Wings floating in the surface
Lily, let me kiss your eyes goodnight
Forgive me Dante
I know you love her
And she has a love I cannot return
We're getting married
So someday I can reach that autumn leaf that never fell
Kisses come and go
Searing anger lies beneath the skin
The butterfly lands on greener grass
And still I ache for more
Kisses are not enough

Subway Radio

A little boy sees something strange
And somewhere, echoes run the town
A young girl's baby gurgles up its dreams
Mommy has her nosebleeds
A homeless man smiles to himself
This is the end of the world
Take nothing, give nothing

A little boy sees something strange
He takes it in and smiles
Clear the table
There'll be no supper tonight

Daisies Fall

Curse or thought
It's all so far away
No one in a hollow little box
Guerrilla Warfare in the streets
No one can say we didn't try
Just for once it isn't our fault
Because it wasn't up to us
Not this - not now
It wasn't ours to keep
But innocence is no protection

Immutable

Just standing here I smile
You've never been so afraid
In change lies growth
In permanence, death
Don't promise forever
Existence eventually loses all meaning
The fire is gone
A candle's flame
That never ceases to flicker out
But the wax drips until it's all gone
And the flame just dances
Like there's something to dance upon

Angels Among Men

Down on the railroad tracks
I can see the stars
Pieces of the paper
Of your love notes
Sail through the air
She said it was always angels
She tells me I'm sweet as pie

Here we are again
Lost lamb
Here we are again
Lost children

And, somewhere, the children hang on to their shame
When was the last time that you felt the same?
Never

In the saddest eye of Hades
Spilling out
We find ourselves
Once again wanting in

Somewhere, children play their games
And we rest as our change jingles in our pockets
This is the last time that we'll ever feel this way
I can't promise you anything

Here we are again
Lost children
Here we are again
Lost stars

Once upon a time I fell into a hole
Can I tell you how I freed myself?
Once upon a time, I went through something strange
A star shines a light at me and you

Radio stations blare
Subway children rise from their lairs
Winter breeze blows through my hair
I meander, and I dont know where

This is something we must battle all alone

Children play at a fair
And they don't notice me

This is something we must battle all alone

Forever

Sleeping with the birds outside
Finding out that nothing lasts
Here beneath the eve of light
All the questions I cant see
Waiting for the softened stain
Here comes the lightning
Here comes the storm
That we are lighting
God's the sign
But we live forgotten

One more time around
And I swear this will last forever
And all I see around me
Is imagination dear
Put the rope around the soul
Will we find us drawing the blade?
If you look into our hearts
You can see the millions
Sear everything
You can see everything
That I hide

God's the sun

But we live for God and God's the sign

Raindrops In the Sea

These things happen, little one
But its a teardrop in the sea
And though it ripples long enough
Its not enough to change the tide
But dont we love to feel something
That changes nothing
Than to feel nothing at all
Dont we love to feel

25 Romantic Classics

The cross-eyed kid in the back
The girl with the quiet laugh
His puppy running down the street
Her boyfriend, tired of his life

My nine year old cousin Mary
The jack-o-lantern on the porch
Her father, the unfaithful fairy
The carver at the carnival

The pastor with the sweaty brow
The drunk that walks my street in madness
The angelic baby of three
These are all things I had
anal sex with

Vampire Named Nous

I once met a vampire, and his name was Nous
He was a scared, lonely little vampire who didn't have a friend in the world
Then, one bright fall morning, he woke up and realized he had been dreaming
He wasn't a vampire at all

The Ring (Ruining Movies)

This morning was a balloon filled with empty sighs
The longer you fall, the harder you try
Who was that man that fell from sky?
The flowers will save us!
Or.....maybe we'll die...

Haiku With Extra Line

Undress the children
Caress their timid bodies
Everyone needs some
Love and affection

Haiku #14

Overgrown gardens
I prefer their company
They know how I feel

Stuck In A Tiny Room

Runaround antics, books and streets
Making perfume out of scented leaves
Valentine candy and Christmas cards
Kissing on a swing in an empty park
Craving little lips in a violent fever
I think I'll run away if I ever find you
Just like the Sundays of my childhood
Making little promises that sound good
As a pretty woman wanders in confusion
with a pretty green dress and dirty bare feet

Runaround antics, books and streets
Bluebonnets come and there are figs to eat
Let's all pretend we're super heroes
In cities made of twigs and imagination
Selling our food because we have to eat
Open doors swinging in the summer heat
Call the neighbors, we're bored again
Sitting in a dim room with stacks of books
Because all I get is angry and dirty looks
Barbeque today at a quarter to four
I'll be inside lying on the floor
Daydream angels coming over me
And Tessa in the background singing harmony
Children go dancing over me
She isn't real but her skin might be
I wish I was free
All I have are books and this one guitar
And I don't really want to live that long
I'll wait around and see the universe dissolve
Into the murky shadows of a broken pond
I wish I was gone

Smokey Lonesome

I remember when we were alive in the fickle winds of time
We were rushing the way flowers rush
We sparkled in our diamond innocence
Hold me one more time
One time is all we get
Mouth to mouth
We'll breathe our last breaths into each others' souls

Every wedding, every funeral, was our time passing by
All the railroad tracks swarmed with leaves
And you were loved beyond what you could see
For most of our thoughts
The only music is silence
Soundlessness
Hushed spooks
The ravens of our souls

Now the wind has blown away
I've heard its at the sails of those million boats wandering
Loneliness is better than regret
At least that's what I say now that I'm alone

Revampires!

I look into your eyes and I find
Love and Light
Your voice is like the voice of angels
And my heart blooms
I hear a song that says
"Our love is like a secret"
Come with me and I'll explain the lyric
But you can't even see me

Let everything here die
In this world where everyone mourns
I cut my fingers open to feel something again
Looking for our love
Or am I seeking an illusion
Let it come today or let it never come

Girls On Ghost Bridges Don't Stay There Long

Alone
There is no empty space
Long roads and aching hearts
Breathe deeply and pull me into your lungs
Beside your heart
There is no place that we can go
Two little hands
And a pitcher of desire
At every table
Growing boys
With dark faces and tender hands
Looking after them
With more than hunger in their shifting bodies

Diana's Strong Arms

Your body is warm
Your arms are eager
And you are much too close
You will hurt yourself
You will hurt us both
Because we are young

And girls your age
And boys like me
Are likely to give in
Sister, tell me
How you can be so lovely
And you're much too young
But you're just my type
Yeah, you're just my size

Secrets and Promises

I can still remember how you looked three years ago
In a rain descending, whispering our secret desires
And now perhaps we've changed
But still we hold on to those summer days
When I learned to speak
And when you learned there are secrets you keep
I still feel our movements
Buried in the darkness of back rooms
And our days together won't end
No, we'll be together forever I'm sure

When I learned to speak
I realized that nothing much matters to me
And promises are made to keep
And dreamers should hold on to dreams
So we move on with silent belief

Day and night beside you
But always in a place made for two
Are you mine?
It seems the young forget all the time they have spent
Underneath each others eyes
And will you forget me in time?
And marry some stranger in town?
Well, I can't forget you were mine
And I won't forget how you tried
To make me stay just one more hour
Because I cannot forget desire
And in the season's wake
We gather our things
Today surely will bring
All these things
Hold on just one more day

Five In the Morning

All I have is a black rag
Studded with plastic diamonds
And a body that hungers
For more than what it can consume
More than it can take
Something that will tear it apart
Something true

Bag of Peanuts and Oranges

I wish there was nobody here
Just you and me alone
What could we do?
I have no clue

I think we would both die,
Strangers
A long life together
-alone-
Well what then?
What spurs me on?
Why hope at all?
Well
I might be wrong

My Bed Is A Couch

Once there was something I could feel
Calling out from inside me
To those who knew how to listen

But now I feel nothing
And those who listen say I am silent
They're looking for words
Sounds
Anything at all

Poem About Stephanie's Parents

Father puts his shoes on
Mother hides the wrinkled grooves on
Both her cheeks by putting rouge on

I dont pay attention
But I notice daddy mention
There's a problem with his pension

All day long my mother
fusses over how my brother
Should do something or another

Then she makes our dinner
And she says I'm getting thinner
I say grace cause i'm a sinner

Afterwards, and seated
In a brand new couch he needed,
Daddy tells me, "Go on! Beat it!"

Receive My Heart

To one thing I have clung
My entire life
And I still cling
Though denied my longing
Unremoved remains
Unbroken limbs
I a broken spirit
My entire life
Clung to by wings

Written In the Alamo Parking Lot

Like raindrops on still water
My unheard movements
Which echo
Broken fingers tracing frustration
On winter windows
Words in chasms

Parking Lot Blues

The pregnant smile
In quiet robes
Will question the condition
When born are words aflame that weep and beg for their release
Restrained beyond the empty reach
A love unanswered and displaced will rile the mob of sorrow
Embarrassment will carry lovers on into tomorrow

Dark Hair

Morning hours full of hesitation
Long moments under the willow tree
You and Me
When were you aware of Time,
Every movement of your fingers
Every stillness of mine?

Dark Rooms

Midnight wore candlelight
You came in heavy wool
Shimmer the ancient stars
Which through time extend
And through us rule

To The Growing Lily

Atrophy of a long gaze
Grace unknown and agitated
Flowing into a single look
By the coffee table
Legs curled up and tucked beneath
A smooth line of jaw
And like a gentle sway of hips
And deliberately accidental touch
This gaze
That in secret thirst expired
And left behind the wax of desire

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