By Nous

		        May 24, 2005

MAY19 10:27pm -- Dullards Uncensored

Okay, I'm talking to you Brits now, and I'm going to speak American
english so try and keep up. Got it? Good. Okay, here goes.
That Happy Slap TV shit? What is that? Stop it. I have no idea what
type of people do that over there.  Are they the jocks? The Losers?
Druggies?
Why oh why would you use your cell phone to capture footage of you
and your friends slapping and kicking random, innocent bystanders?
That better be a trend that does not get picked up over here in The
States, but I suppose that's a little too hopeful. I know some
people who wouldn't feel bad doing something like that to strangers.

Question: Is this week Polygamy Week or is my life simply a grand,
serendipitous adventure?

MAY22, 12:39pm -- What You've Desired, Turkish Delight

Sorry for completely forgetting about promising to post the Turkish
Delight recipe. I've been so busy reading every book ever made that
it just slipped my mind. To be fair to you, I have not actually been
reading that much; I figured I'd be honest.
Although I did recently start Song of Solomon and it is insanely
good. I don't know if I've mentioned the agrarian cult thing, and
how some children are "born under the caul" and go out and fight
witches or talk with the dead. But it's so weird that I have been
reading up on that stuff and then Song of Solomon goes and makes
a reference to it.
Anyway, the recipe to Turkish Delight is at the end of this rant.
I guess I should have mentioned that by now.

12:53pm

Also, Little Miss Lily has found her way into my thoughts again.
I wish you all the best, Love. And may the hundred voices and hands
guiding me find pleasure in drawing you to the place I am in now.
I think you need it more than you think. But perhaps you think that
what I think doesn't matter. To that, I say, you've proved my point.
Let's all start listening to each other, yes?
I went to my mother's church yesterday because my brother just
graduated from high school and they wanted to do a special thing
for him. I had always found what they talked about in church sort
of wrong, but never was it more clear to me how wrong it was than
when I went this last time.
Jesus? The cross?
I know I should make an attempt to accept all religions, but I could
not help thinking what a ridiculous story that was. Though it really
rings no more true or false than the story of Horus or Nimrod.
All I could think about as the pastor preached about how he wanted
to see everyone in the entire world accept Jesus as their savior was
that it wasn't important. Jesus was perhaps a cool guy. I don't know.
But come on. It DOES NOT matter what you believe, as long as the
belief is not about worshiping a single entity.
Day in and day out, it becomes more clear to me just from being
alive that everyone might as well be god. Aren't we made of the
same stuff? I don't believe that we're just flesh and bones, though,
so you may think that this is dumb. It doesn't matter what you
believe in, if you're devoted to a single spiritual figure you're
going to go wrong, because your love is to that "person" first, and
to everyone else second.
So let me restate that in this way, which is perhaps better:
It doesn't matter what one believes in, as long as the first tenet
of the belief is the love of others.
How could we possibly go wrong if we all believe that?
Let me also go off-topic here and remind everyone that death is
death, and there's nothing you can do about it. So just let it go.
And life is life, and there's nothing all that special about it.
So why doesn't everyone seriously mind their own business about
everything? When others want help, help them. When others want to
be left alone, leave them alone.
Why do you see yourself as an adult and everyone who is doing
something you don't agree with as "ignorant children?" Your job is
not to protect the world. Your job is not to perfect society. Just
live your life and accept death as necessary.  From there, move
on.

5:55pm -- Waste

Flipping through the Citizen makes me feel like I'm in charge.
Then I remember that everything I read has already happened. 2
badd 4 me, eye gez. My horoscope was as always vague.  I tried
to learn how to tell the future with runes, but I'm not very
good. And on top of that, I must avoid bringing up distasteful
subjects, because the people around me don't want to deal with
all of that.
I was checking out everyone else's horoscope as I always do,
when I came to Cancer. That's James Walker, in case you don't
know. And of course, as if sent by the Gods themselves, it read
like a cruel joke, and was therefore hilarious.
"Nothing of importance is likely to be achieved today..."
Thanks a lot, Overlords. You've made my day somewhat worthwhile.
Too bad I'm like 1/3 Cancer. Then again it is Sunday.

MAY23, 1:13am -- Coast to Coast

Two hours after having fallen asleep, I found myself suddenly
awakened by "a persistent silence."  Putting on my glasses, I
thought maybe it was early morning, but the clock said 10:27.
Somehow, two and a half hours have gone by without my having
noticed and Art Bell was talking about UFOs, which, if real,
helps explain those weird lights I saw just outside of Las
Vegas.
Weird. UFO means Unidentified Flying Object, not alien space
craft, but the two terms are synonymous now, aren't they? At
any rate, what the Hell was that in the sky?
But even stranger, I think, is that Saturday night before I
drifted into sleep I heard voices all around me. Not the way
you would imagine a crazy person heard voices. They were not
loud and frightening, though the fact that I heard them was
scary enough.  No, these voices were barely audible.  It was
like hearing nothing at all. Yet I heard them, scared nearly
sick to my stomach before I decided that there was nothing to
fear.
I cannot sleep and I sort of want to go to the movies, but I
don't know that they're open at 1:24 on a late Sunday/early
Monday. But if they were, what would I watch? Star Wars? Or
something I don't want to watch so maybe I could get some
sleep?
I don't know. I'm playing mental tennis with myself.

9:04pm -- My Brand New Black Derby

The two Beatles, Cynthia Lennon and Patti Boyd had dinner
at the dentist's flat and only afterwards did he reveal that
he had spiked the coffee [with LSD].  He warned them that it
was too dangerous for them to leave the flat and drive around
London on a trip. Lennon, paranoid as ever, immediately
interpreted this to mean that the dentist was expecting to
have a sex orgy with them all [and so] insisted on leaving
at once.
I'm with you Johnny Boy.  They're all beings of malicious
intent.

MAY24, 10:43pm -- Scientologist

Now, tell me, sir, what do the Mormons REALLY believe? Well
there's this book called The God Makers which apparently
reveals everything that Mormons believe, and there's really
I guess little reason to doubt it, since it documents most
of its stuff well. But what of all these things statements
like the following:

	How do we know [Joseph Smith, founder of Mormonism]
	told the truth? By a feeling called the "burning of
	the bosom," which is the Mormon's ultimate criterion
	for judging truth.

Dude, Christians do the same thing. How do we know that
Jesus is really IN us? Well, we can feel it, can't we? We
know he's there because we feel his presence.
If you're going to completely discredit the idea that one
can feel shit inside oneself, then you've got to renounce
your ideas of Jesus, Mr. Christian Author.

	The central belief in Mormonism and paganism is
	the ancient dream that men can become gods.

Okay, Mr. Becker. You're a "born again" Christian. If you
aren't some type of God once you're in Heaven and have all
these angels as your servants, then what are you?

	This universal and popular delusion began with
	Satan's impossible and self-contradictory ambition
	to be equal with God...

Delusion? Look, both science and religion acknowledge that
there must have been some ETERNAL thing that existed before
everything, which Christians call God and which science does
not term at all.
Christians use this admission from scientists to say that God,
then, could be a real thing. Science uses the same idea to say
that something, then, made God. Both rely on the idea that
something cannot come from nothing (Christians attacking The
Big Bang and Scientists attacking "God").
So what is this eternal thing? Well, most probably it would
be energy, and that is the same energy which made us all.
We are that energy. We are not products of that energy, but
rather that energy itself is what we are. We are then, in
other words, God. Do you see how easily this shit is twisted
around?
Yes, I do have a problem with Mormons, first of all. I have
a problem with any group that feels compelled to lift the
veil of ignorance from the eyes of others, when they are
most likely just as ignorant. Don't ridicule the beliefs of
others while retaining beliefs regarded as equally crazy. In
fact, don't ridicule beliefs at all.  Speak softly and carry
no stick.
Then again, that being my premise, I have by writing this
contradicted myself.

PONDERING MY OWN INSANITY YOURS

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