Reading: Chronicles of the Cursed Sword, ty Linzi ^.^
Playing: Fire Emblem, I love you Marth! yea that's right you heard me
Talkin to: my friends duh!
Thinking of: How bad I need a memory card
Needs to: Get a memory card -.-
I've been wanting to put this poem in for a while, Ms. Murphy pointed it out to me during our poetry set. "It is important that a son should know
His role, and should be told a women's role,
And know that it is effeminate to show
Emotion, or the least lapse of control
That might mean caring for another man-
Even a father. "Never say, 'I love
You,' " I was told. If ever tears began
After an argument, he would reprove
Me mockingly: "Only fags cry." The first
Time that he said this to me, I misheard
The slangy phrase, but knew my tears were
worst
Of possible betrayals. Yet that word
Stays with me, and when my father shall die,
No man will weep because only facts cry."
by Thomas Carper
Peace out at~9:58PM February 24th
My First and Second Loves
Being the best person in the world, Linzi made me a new setup, which I love but that even she called girly, once again enforcing my inner goddess, hehehe I like that saying it's cute. So yea, while Linzi is my first love, Jing is my secong *points up at picture on left, of hotty in the yellow coat* lol. He's the Bandit King, so watch out or he'll rob you blind *proud of extreme dorkiness*
Woo me fight good ^
Ignore the girl in the picture, well acctually many of you will think it appropriate -.-, but I get my quizes from the girls sites. Who cares Im the cool fighter angel! Yea I'll rule you all MUWAHAHAHAHAHA...Im not crazy *twitch* *psychotic giggle*...I mean...I love you all, yes love that's it. So yea, been sick from christmas up till today, as every year. See this is why I usually dont like christmas, I get sick either the days before or the day of plus a few after XP no fun. I got a PS2 It's so cool, cept I don't have a memory card, because my mom didn't know you needed one and when she asked the store clerk if she needed anything else with it when she bought it, he said no *grumble* the moron, so now anything I play won matter because I have to replay it all till I get a card. But I got really good games, which makes it that much harder, Silent Hill 3, FFX, FFX-2, DBZ Boudakai (meh), oh and CASTLEVANIA! YEA!, sry I love the Castlevania series, they rock! So now I sit and stare at it in pain, knowing I can only get a sense of the game, but cant acctually do anything, because none of them are short enough to play in one day/night, although I heard Castlevania is short. AND! Jing: King of Bandits vol.4 (FINAL ONE) is out and I haven't been able to get it *crys* yea I know I sound like a girl, thus the picture, lol, but I love that series and it's out but I can't get it. I love Faith! Had to say it....^.^ well didnt have to, just wanted to.
Dreaming of her at~11:36PM December 28th
My Heaven
Today was boring for the most part, went to the mall with Linzi, Jiji, and Katy, Linzi was only there for five mins, given she was about to pass out in my arms, she was sick :*(. So I spent the rest of the time at the mall with Jiji and Katy. But being the caring bf I am, did everything in my power to see Linzi again, and I did! I know I'm in love, because I feel I'm in heaven when I'm with her. Other than that there's nothing special, just dieing for Christmas to get here XP.....so long.
Flying high at~11:20PM December 22nd
You can just call me "SUPER SWIMMER!"
So it's the season of snow, which is the official sign that I'm swimming none stop again XP BLAH! lol. On the plus side, swimming always helps to cleanse my brain from stress, so it's nice to be in the water a lot. First Masco meet is Wednesday, so wish me luck (I'll probably need it), we're up against NA which we hope we're going to beat for the first time in at least 4 years YAY! Of course now that one of our best swimmer's is gone, it's up to me to take the top position in a few events *shudders*. I decided to change this around, but it's pretty boring at the moment, so if you have any pics you want to spruce up the place with, you're all welcome to show them to me, the funnier the better. HAHAHAHAHA *watching History of the world pt1* such a great movie *song and dance* "The inquisition! dodedodedo". Speaking of slap happy, laugh my ass off, rolling on the floor laughing movies, I saw Evolution, such a great movie, if you haven't seen it, you're deprived, if you have seen it and didn't like it....pull the stick out your ass and learn to laugh, lol. For some reason this year, I'm dieing for Christmas to get here, it seems like so far away, mostly because I want it to come so bad.
Well the biggest news since my last update is deffinitly the fact I'm dating Linzi now ^.^ (giant smile), she's so great and she makes me so happy, sorry if I'm making some single people feel bad, but I can't help my emotions, I'm just jumping with joy now and haven't been happier in my life. Now if I can only get it through my dad's head I A: have a gf whom I care about more than anything and B: I DON'T CHEAT ON MY GF'S NO MATTER HOW TERRIBLE THEY ARE TO ME AND ESPECIALLY NOT WHEN I FEEL THIS GOOD ABOUT US! *twitch, twitch*
Off to fight evil land lovers at~11:07PM December 15 (horendously late I know)
Back From the Dead
Yea i love it how i havent updated in over a month XP. Ok for the big stuff, finally had my eagle court last saturday, it was preetty good. In other news, I broke up with katy, didnt want to, but it honestly had to b done, trust me. *sigh* i think its offically break up month, too many relationships down the drain it seems. Oh well, life goes on, not like im going to die. Hmmm nuttin really else going on, jiji's back from Italy which is fun, so yea. Lol wow im like dead tonight, kinda awkward given the title for the day. Been so busy all weekend, over boring things, but i didnt really have anything better, although ive had abnout 3 hrs of personal time in the past week and im really looking forward to this week, because i have a lot more free time this week, plus a party, plus hopefully some fun time wit ppl (that sounds wrong, but who knows maybe i do mean it that way o.- ). Ok well thats about all, I know its pale in comparison to my last update, but im not in the writing mood, so yea.
Back to the grave at~9:43 September 21
Quiz time
Decided to take a personality quiz and look what i got! Anyone else see that coming? Well some of it sounds a little to conceded for my liking, even thouhg i know some ppl who will ask me what imk talking about cause they think it's all true, but o well, i dont like assumptions. Ok now i can finally say it with out worry, Me and katy r going out again (like 3rd time Oo) but i dont care how many times we've gone out cause i love her soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much and it makes me so happy that we're together and are acctually having a working relationship *huggles katy*. It was our two monther on thursday and we got to spend almost the whole day together and at water country, which was wicked fun anyways, having her there makes it that much better. *takes deep breath* ahhhhh that feels good to get off my chest ^.^ The only problem now is that we're both sick XP, her a lot worse than me, but i took niquil so i've been fighting the drownyness it causes for 5 hrs now,*yawn* o well, Hope u feel better my love! Hmmmmm not much else is new, things have been as hectic as usual, but ive been happy. Yesterday was awesome all the way through, cause it was just one of those days that anything short of losing a loved one wouldn't have gotten me down. I was so generous i gave a 19 dollar tip to snack stand (20 dollars for a cookie and cup of lemonade, both really good), cause they were fundraising for some thing i cant remeber what, and i figured i would have just used the money on sumtin pointless so it was all good. Anyways, ill talk to y'all later. Peace out, and remember...this world is made of!....LOVE AND PEACE (sry watching trigun what do u expect?).
Off to sleep thanx to drowzyness at~1:17 August 17
Can't...take ....much ...more
Dear god stop the pressure on my poor brain. Ive been studying all week, so that i can move up to honors precalculus (dont think thats spelled right), so yea all this math is burning my brain out. I have a cup next to me incase it starts pouring out my ears (my brain that is) that way when i bring it to the hospital, maybe they can like idk pout it back in. So anyways im gonna take the test at 1030 tomorrow (yay i get to go to school and then work! woopi!) so wish me luck. Other than that nm has happened, i did get Bebop the movie *loves it* its sooooo good, im gonna bring it to anime club when it statrts up again, so if u wanna see it go to the meeting in september i think is when Faith said it was gonna start up again.
Off to study XP at~11:32 August 7
*sigh*
Needless to see, I've been messed up for the past week. Wanna know the best part? here;s my Horoscope "If you find yourself feeling a little confused about your direction in life, just try not to take your frustration out on the people around you" I was laughing my ass off for a while. Yea so sry to ppl who ive yelled at recently, well unless thy deserved it in whihch case, bite me :P. Ok well im not working that much this week so ill get to acctuaklly sleep and b happy. So, yea thats about it, ttyl.
Off to goof around at~10:03 August 3
Review
Ok well this update is pretty much specifically for Faith. She wanted me to update her story (which u should all go read!) but her links r being a bitch to me. Ok so here it goes. "The story is really sweet, but dreadfully depressing. Slight typos, is its only flaw, but those were few and not major at all. It's such a cool add on to the story of Faith and if for sum reason u guys acctuaklly like to read our story then u should read her new History of the Vampire Faith Pt II. Ok so lets see, it's good that she incorporates realistic facts making it logical, while obviously remaing science fiction." Ok while thats it i guess, go read the story if u hadnt yet, and if u dont want to read the story then i dont wanna talk to u, ttyall later.
Off to write at~9:59 July 29
Quiz time
Well Faith and Rachel have put their blood, sweat and rage into this quiz *points down and to the right* so you better take it. Just click on the lovely picture and it will take you to the quiz. Well have fun with it. For anyone who reads the story me and Faith r working on, I will have part 6 done tomorrow, hope u'll all enjoy it.
U've been quized at~11:25 July 27
Paying back old dues
After several very long months i finally finished my part of "Love Can Damage Your Health", although it's goin through the editor (Faith) right now and im waitin to hear what she thinks bout it. Once she approves of it, it'll go u on her site, so check up later today on her site. I hope it's good i was up till close to 4 in the morning, last night, finishing it. So yea m thinkin I need a new setup and im open for suggestions. If anyone has some suggestions, im open to any of them.
Uve been hugged at~5:14 July 25
Back to life
Well i got back from camp a few days ago. And for anyone whos wondering how it went, it was pretty miserable. Lets just leave it at my week included me issolating myself from the group and staying in my tent listening to my music, just so i wouldnt have to deal with any of the idiots. So to put it simply, im never going back again. But on a plus side, it helped me appreciate my friends that much more, so now i really love them ^.^. Lets see....I finally start drivers ed tonight XP 630-9 blah! I really need a new layout, but this one is so pretty and i like it, so idk. *Just finished looking over my past updates* I've had sum wierd thoughts, I think its funny. One thing thats changed is that ppl havent been treating me like this disease recently. All the sudden a few of my friends who seem to usually see me as this plague that they would never date, have been saying im good looking and complimenting me like that
I mean its cool, cause i really care about what my friends think, and its not like i have ppl telling me theyd photograph me naked (really just dont ask). I love my friends they always make me happy. Faith, Katy, Megan, and Rachel have really been awesome lately and have been making me feel so happy. I really love u, thanx for helpin me out with so many things. Well i need to go shower now so ill talk to y'all later.
Off to wash away the stinky at~ 11:51 July 22
Off to camp
Off to scout camp tomorrow, meaning im gonna miss all my friends for a week, especially since i didnt get to see them all this week either :*(. It makes me sad. *sigh* Well i guess ill have to deal, even though it will suck....i always miss my friends whenever i go to camp. And now i just notcied a few of my mangas came out wit new issues this week!, meaning i could have gotten them. ANd it realyl pisses me off cause i trhought they wernet supposed to come out till next week anyways. But now that i know i could have read them ill really b sad. GRRRRRNESS. well i guess i can wait a week! >< fuckers. Idk thats all i have to say i guess cya all in a week.
Off to whine at~11:55 July 12
Pretty pretty princess
Ok well i saw a great movie today at Tom's, "Prescila, Queen of the Desert", hehehehe Agent Smith crossdressing, so funny. Not much to say. Had to get up early for an eagle project today ><, but i had fun there cutting anything that was living and that was within 3 ft of me, choppy choppy, hehe destruction is good. UGH im still reading HP, thanx to my sped like reading abilities *pissed off at own mind* but o well.
Off to read at~12:16 June 28
Summer a Blazing
Ugh thank gaia it finally feels like summer...wit the heat and the sun, its great I love it. So yea havent been doin much cept for randomness here and there. Saw "The Italien Job" last night, its really good i liked it. Went wit adri and rachel, we had fun. Cept for the whole attempted rapage from them in the middle of the mall, it doesnt help that crowds freak me out sumtimes, especially strangers, so i was like freaking out for them to leave me alone as ppl walked by and looked.XP. Have my first swim meet tomorrow (dont wanna go) after i visit faith at her work place, yea bikage to topsfield. Hmmm nuttin really specail i guess. OH WAIT....I finally got it the new HP (thats harry potter for all u special ppl out there). Other than that nuttin else new.
Severe gamage and readage at~10:40 June.....uhhhhh o yea 24
Been sittin around
Well look who finally updates, me! Havent really been online, excluding my time on IM which is 24/7. Theres a few big things that have been goin on recently. One obviously is that SCHOOL IS OUT!!!YEA BABY!, let the good summer times roll. I can't really tell u the second for the sake of a few ppl, but a lot of ppl know already, so yea..... I think I've been playin Castlevania too much cause I had a really weird, but wicked fun dream last night, i was floating in the air and slowly destorying the world city by city, classic bad guy destruction, but i dont care cause i had fun. Though eventually got bored and decided to bring forth the apoclypse, which was really fun till my friend came otu of no where and stopped me, damn u Jade, hahaha. So then it turned into me chasing her and tryin to track her down to hurt her for getting in my way. Oddly enough it turned out she didnt even want to save the world, she just wanted to fight me before i destroyed everything. Then i got sad cause i woke up right b4 the confrontation, stupid morning/waking up. Hmmm i hope i have the same dream tonight, only with more revenge and destruction MUWAHAHAHAHAHA. Don't wry i wont kill u all, with my power i save a nice little spot suomewhere and throw all the ppl i care about there, maybe ill just create my own planet, I love playin god, beware the power of us immortals MUWAHAHAHAHA. *cough cough* Im ok now, *evil snicker*. So yea goin out to a party soon, woooo paaaaarty, wonder how long we'll all stay fully clothed, i cant imagine too long. OOO on a lighter note i got two new manga's, well one new series:King of Hell (very funny drawing styles at points) and a next one in a series i already have: Rave Master #3 yayness. And im very happy cause the next issues for like all my series come out in like two weeks, ill b over my head in reading sweetness!
Off to party it up and work on my supreme powers at~5:16 June 20
Sooooo Yeaa.....
Nuttin really important happened today. Went out biking wit katy cause i had nuttin better to do, well cept
SLEEP!-.- Thats ok i only have swim team for two hrs tomorrow grrrrrr. So painful. Hmmmm yea idk nuttin else to really say, ttyl.
Over and out at~10:00 June 10
Self Assurance
I may not b the best person in the world but im pretty goddam decent, anyone who wants to disagree then more power to them, because everyone has their views. But i have always been there for my friend and always will b. I even help ppl i hate with all my heart, because i dont like hurting ppl and thats the bottom line. Ive always been a compliant person and i have always gone out of my way to help a friend, even if they cant/dont do the same. Dont ask me y im writing this because idk and im sure ill hear a few comments from ppl about it because thats how everyone is. Liek the title says idk if this is more just to remind me of who i am and who i want to b, or if its just my way of telling ppl who have a problme with me and my decisionsm, to fuck off. I luv my friends but ill b the first to tell u they try my patince (but thats what friends do) and it sumtimes just gets to me. I no im not the best looking, or the the suavest, but thats me and in fact thats everyone. There are ppl who always look for that stupid word that they cal "perfect". What a stupid word, whoever made it should have been dragged to the streets and shot the next day. Anyways the reason im making the standard speal about not being the best looking person is because sumtimes my firned jsut make me feel like shit. I no i make cracks at myself and i say stupid things all the time, but ill hear from ppl "awwww ur a sweet guy dave u'll find sumone who u'll luv and b happy wit" and then turn around and act horrified at the thought of ever bein wit me. Ppl dont notice but they do it a lot to me, make me feel disgusting and unwanted. I mean it doesnt bother me too much, because im hopin they dont mean to act like that, but its just one of those things that bothers me. The worst part was at a party the other night when my friend cliff goes "coming from anyone else dave, that would have been fine, but just because u said it, its just worng" It hit this cord in me because thats how i have felt for a while, that anyone else could say the things i do and ppl would laugh, but im just this guy u laugh at and not with sum times so they'll just shoot me down, when another person could say the same thing 1 min later and have everyone laugh their ass off (its happened b4). Whatever because these r trivial things that i deal with because i no so many other ppl have real problems instead of how their friends act towards them. That y i hate talking about my problmes sum times, just noing tha almost every other one of my friends have an issue that could blow mine out of the water and turn it to ash. Yea thats my speal for now, i no i have more but as usual, ill get so much off at once i stop caring bout the rest and feel better anyways, which is y i have this, and sum ppl say its stupid.....it hlps me so thats all i care bout XP.
Off to bed at a grooling hour at~12:28 June 8 no wait June 9
Authors Note
Ok this is to the same person as yesterdays update. Im assuming u haven't read it yet given i put it up so late and its so early now. *sigh* anyways what i was going to say is that, I dont hate u, so get that thought out of ur head. When have i ever told u that i didnt want u to b around anymore huh? never. Ive tryd liking u again, but ur such an unhappy person most the time, its hard to b with sumone whos miss doom and gloom, ur personal anthem should b "Flagpole Sitta" by Harvey Danger, "Paranoia paranoia everybody's coming to get me...". I mean i dont want u putting on some half assed fake smile cause then its fake and stupid Dont get me wrong though this is far from an apology....becuase i dont ow u one and sumone so selfish as u doesnt deserve one, so whatever do what u will.
All done at~8 :31 June 7
This is the end
You sit there, acting like the victim, saying noone cares. But the truth is its bullshit. You had friends and they've been here for u and it wasnt till recently that they started walking away. You say i dont care anymore, and the truth is, ive tried, ive been caring, but u no what iim done with u. Ur impossible. All u want to believe is that noone luvs u, so u bitch and moan that ur all alone and that the one u care about hates u. Stop it ok!? cause its stupid and ur being a fool. This may b harsh but i dont care. Ive been patient with u, when i hear that u cry i feel bad that i cant help u, but now im done because no matter what u wont get better because u dont even want to give happiness a chance. Ur a selfish fool who wants attenion from everyone. But who can blame u i no several other ppl like that, but whatever i mean if other ppl doin it then it must work right? WRONG. Im not the one that hurt u, u just remeber that. U dug the knife in my back and walked away. Of courser did u stop there? No of course not, u then come back later and twist that knife and leave me for dead, feeling guilty when i did nuttin wrong. Im sry im doing this to u but u need to read this because i no u will and theres nuttin else i can do, because u use urs to make me feel guilty so ill use this.
P.S.-Welcome to life, life sucks and then u die, but u no what if ur gonna b a selfish bitch who wont consider that i have more important issues than wrying bout u feeling sad because u want to blame me for ur lonliness. Bite me, theres more painful things to life than a relationship, so wake up and learn to deal with it.
Off to be happy, because i try in life~11:42 June 5
Snaps like a twig
Yea uhhh sry bout today to a couple ppl. Ive just been so angry at a couple ppl and a few other ppl rnt helping me at all even if they dont mean it. I'll just keep reminding myself that the summer's almost here and i can see certain ppl at will, not forced to see them. Im not looking for a response when i write these updates. Im not specifying any one person with this, cause everyone reads these and seems to think i want a response. I dont, im just writing things out and letting ppl no where i stand. Think of it like the newspaper, u read it and thats it, u dotn go writing letters to the editor, well sum ppl do, but they'r idiots. So just dont talk about it, read not talky. Whatever, do u what u want, >,< im startin to get snappy, stopping now. ok bye
Off to rest at~9:44 June 3
What r u wearin?
Like my pretty new layout? You better cause i luv it and its stayin for a while so ha. Im so horny today, so if i say any raunchy comments well deal with it. Ive been like this since i woke up, not really sure y just need to make out with sumone really bad. *looking at pretty bishies* it makes me happy to look at them ^.^ :P, happy and hornier that is. Well im goin to the movies later to see the Italien Job, I wonder if i'll see my pretty boi? I kinda hope not dont think ill b able to look away if i see him. Ok well im gonna go get hot, wet, and steamy in the shower -.~
Off to get soapy at~3:12 June 1
Sleepy....
Ugh i was stuck at a cookout for 6 abd a half hours! Not that it was that bad for the first 4 hrs. The last 2 and a half were just painful as hell, so bad. So yea feelin better than last night, not that anyone listned to me when i said id be better today. Hmmmm dont no what to talk about. Saw Finding Nemo last night, it was a cute movie, really funny. Everyone already knows how last night went so i wont bother goin into it. I will tell u that there will probably b a second and im sure itll b great hehehehe so happy. How do u like my dream girl. Faith drew it just so id move cove out of the way so she wouldn't have to see it...she's no fun sumitmes hahaha. Ok well im off to play games and talk to a certain sumone ^.^.
Off to flirt at~9:30 May 29
Light at the End of the Tunnel
This darkness that surrounds us, it blinds us, chokes us, leaves us for dead and heartless. This happens to us all at times and im finally breaking free of mine. Unfortunatly now that im free ive realized its left me out of balance. Ive been thinking it was just my perception, but now ive realized everything is off. My muscles are junk and soft, i have no control over my energy, it's just draining out of me non stop, and everything down to my emotions are hard to control (not that i dont have mood swings anyways *cough cough*). Another major issue goin on is how, with all these issues, for once in my life, ive been putting myself at the top of the list, i didnt even mean to. It's just i cant help anyone until i finally correct myself and make me balanced, otherwise i could break again and i cant do that to everyone else. So yea big day tomorrow. I no ive been annoyin people wit it talkin bout ti non stop but im sry its just a big thing for me and its really important. It's not like i meant to have this become a game/interest for ppl. Of course the way things go with my friends, I seem to have random effects here and there. I sumtimes wonder if ppl think i love attention or sumtin, the way im always so outrageous, and do weird things, i really dont think i want it, but i kinda wry that i am some idiot who demands attention. Myabe I am >< I really hope not, but i guess i'll have to live with it if i do, acctually ill probably beat it out of my head if i have to
Off to check my brownies at~7:06 may 29
