Disclaimer: I just borrowed them and they'll probably be glad when I bring them back, because I'm a very sick person. Rating: R for violence. Pairing: Severus/Sirius, Severus/Voldemort Note: This is songfic, quotes are taken from the Wolfsheim song >Once in a lifetime<. Plot Summary: The final battle takes place Devil's Pet VI: Ragnaroek By Ratwoman ratwoman02@yahoo.de >It's getting dark... too soon... a threatening silence Surrounding me... a wind comes up from the islands Distance fades to stormy grey Washed out from the deep of the ocean Here I will stand to face your wrath While all the others are praying.< Hogwarts was burning. Severus could see a glow at the Northern Horizon, like a second setting sun. He turned around and let his gaze travel over his frightened company. The kids were standing together in small groups, whispering, crying. The teachers were trying to encourage them, but Severus could see that they were scared as well. Professor Sprout was standing together with her Hufflepuffs, praying. They had managed to evacuate the school in time before Voldemort's army arrived, except of those students that had rather decided to stay and join Voldemort's forces. Fools. Didn't they see that it was better to die than live in hell? When the sun sunk beneath the horizon it was still rather bright with the flames of Hogwarts rising higher. The silver light of the full moon mixed with the glow of the fire. Remus Lupin went to his four, screaming in pain. His scream turned into an animalistic howl when fur grew and his form changed. Though Dumbledore had assured the children that Remus had drunk his Wolfsbane and was not dangerous, most of them shrieked back in fear. Severus couldn't blame them; himself, he still felt pangs of angst when he watched Remus changing. Severus saw Sirius approaching him, not looking scared, but confused. "Sev," he asked, "why can Remus only change at some days? I can turn into a dog whenever I want." Snape reached into his pocket and pulled out a flask. "It's time for your medicine, Sirius." "But it tastes awful!" Sirius said obstinately. "DRINK IT!" Severus shouted. Sirius stared at him with a quivering lip as if he was about to cry. Severus sighed and said gentler: "Please, Sirius, do what I tell you." Though still looking hurt, Sirius took the flask, opened it and drank, pulling a face. "You're really a bad man!" he spitted at Severus and ran over to Harry. It probably would never cease to hurt to see what a wreck Sirius was, mentally. Severus had worked all year on a potion to cure him; so far he had only succeeded to brew one that would rise Sirius's mental capabilities from that of a five-year old to a maybe thirteen-year old. And even that had to be taken every few hours or he would lose it quickly. >No rain can wash away my tears No wind can soothe my pain.< Albus walked over to Severus, looking worried. "It's time." he said. Severus only nodded his head. "Are you ready?" Albus asked. Severus nodded again. "Wish you luck." Albus said, putting an encouraging hand on his shoulder. Luck? He would need it. Dumbledore started calling together the evacuated to proceed on their escape, except of the few chosen to be left behind. Severus felt a knot of fear forming in his stomach, his heartbeat rising. >Calm down, my heart< He closed his eyes, trying to will away the upcoming panic, when he heard a familiar voice whining: "But I want to stay with Severus." Shit, Sirius was causing trouble. "No, Sirius, we must go." Harry answered. Severus turned around, transforming his fear into anger. "For God's sake, go with James! You'd only be in my way!" Sirius looked at him exactly like a stubborn teenager would. "Ok, then." he hissed. "I don't need you either." With these words he turned on his heel and joined the others. Harry looked outright desperate, so Severus said: "Could be worse. He could be clinging to my robes wailing, for example." "I just wish he would stop asking me where Lily is." Harry answered, before turning around and following the others. Severus sighed. Sirius still believed that Harry was James; and he constantly forgot that Lily was dead. Severus could not even start to imagine how that must be for Harry. After a few minutes the other ones were out of hearing distance. With only Remus, Alastor Moody, Neville Longbottom, Hermione Granger and the Weasley twins it was very quiet on the small meadow between the rocks were they had been resting, and where they were to await Voldemort's army. Of course they had no chance to stand long against the Death Eaters; but that was not required. They were only expected to give the others a bit more time. The Weasley twins stood up, nodded at each other and started turning the field the enemies would be crossing into a minefield. Who would have guessed that these mischief makers would be useful one day? Severus had no choice but to wait for the next step in their preparation until the twins were finished. He gazed towards Neville and Hermione, who were speaking quietly with one another, both looking pale and sick. Mad Eye Moody was standing nearby rigid like a rock in the storm, while Remus was pacing nervously to and fro. It all seemed so unreal. >And when silence calls back to me< He felt isolated, as if he was miles apart from his fellows, or maybe in another dimension. >I find myself feeling lonely< He wished time would not pass so slow. >Standing here on the shores of destiny I find myself feeling lonely< Fred and George Weasley finally came back, using their wands as lanterns. Snape did not really find it necessary to lighten his wand, the moon was shining bright enough. "We finished." One of the twins, Severus had no clue who, said. "Step two." Snape said. The twins nodded and followed him approaching Longbottom. The boy looked pale, but stood up determined. "You know what to do, Mr. Longbottom." Snape said. "Except of Remus and Miss Granger, who will need all her strength later, we will transfer energy to you, so that you can cast the strongest protective spell of your life!" Snape was aware that his voice was rather threatening. Neville nodded his head. Poor boy. Since Sirius's malady Snape understood far better what a nightmare Neville's life must be with both parents in a mental asylum. "Um, Professor," Hermione said in a timid voice. "I think it would be better if you cast the Patronus spell against the Dementors." Snape rolled his eyes. This was really the worst time Hermione could choose to develop performance anxiety. "I doubt that, Miss Granger." Snape said curtly. "I'm sure you have more happy memories at hand to draw strength from than I." If possible Hermione Granger looked even more scared, but nodded and stepped out of the way. "Ready?" Snape asked the others. When they all signalled yes, Snape pointed his wand at Neville Longbottom, noticing with slight amusement how terrified the boy looked. His fellows did the same and all closed their eyes, transferring a certain amount of energy to the seventeen-year old. Severus concentrated on the energy flowing out of him, visualising it in the form of yellow light. He broke the stream in time before it could weaken him and stepped back. The others did the same. One of the Weasley twins looked sickly green in the face - obviously he had transferred too much energy. The Longbottom boy stepped forward and memorised the line were he was to cast a protective shield. They were standing between two rather big rocks, it would suffice if Neville made a wall that would form a triangle together with the rocks, plus a roof to protect them from an air-raid. Neville concentrated and murmured the words needed for the spell. Silver light flew out of his wand and spread to where protection was needed, before it vanished. The invisible shield should be there now. "Demonstra Infirmitates!" Snape called to test its strength. Indeed, it shone in a rather dark green. Nevertheless Neville Longbottom started to walk up and down the shield, adding energy to the few spots that were of a lighter green. "Invideo!" he finally said when content with the result, and the shield became invisible again. Snape resumed his old place and stared at the mined field. He had heard that people who were dying saw their life passing by before their eyes. Maybe what they all meant was just that approaching death made them remember all their victories and failures. His relationship to his parents had neither been good nor bad. Somehow, he was just there, they had given him food and clothes and send him to school, even asked him how his day/term had been, but did not really seem to listen to his answers. He had been sad at their funeral because that was what your supposed to be when your parents were dead, even though they had been not much closer than strangers to him. He did not blame his parents for what had become of his life, though - a lot of people with absent parents had not become Death Eaters. It was just one moment of weakness when he had fallen for a pretty brunette young man, who had seduced him, bed him and unrecognised by Snape put binding spells on him. One moment that had sealed his fate. >I had a life to give... so many dreams to live< Not that he was sure that he would not have joined the Death Eaters ranks under different circumstances. Snape felt a twitching in his left forearm and rolled back the sleeve. The Dark Mark seemed to crawl underneath his skin and he could clearly see the black lines shining through the self-inflicted scars. Snape's memories of the moment he had tried to cut out his Mark were blurred as if seen through a veil. What had got into his mind he knew not. Snape turned around to his fellows. "They are coming!" he announced. Frightened but brave the young people raised to their feed, while Remus growled deeply. Snape shivered, trying to shake off different memories of hearing the werewolf growling. His bigger fear was approaching over the field. >Calm down my heart... don't beat so fast< He could see the first explosions at the other end of the field. "It works!" one of the twins called triumphantly. Changing some of their joke articles into fatale mines - Severus shook his head at the absurdity of it. But, as long as it worked... Severus shrieked back when he felt something invisible, that was not quite solid, touching him. //Hello Darkling// Voldemort's voice said in his head. Lord Voldemort rarely used telepathy to talk to his Death Eaters - it was rather difficult and one could easily get a headache. Snape did not answer. In this form of telepathic contact, Voldemort would not receive anything if Severus did not send it. //So, Dumbledore left you behind?// Voldemort's voice continued. //You, and how many people? Five, if I count right?// >Don't be afraid just once in a lifetime< //So you are among the people Dumbledore thinks are unimportant enough to be sacrificed.// the voice continued without mercy. //You know that you have no chance. We will cross your little minefield, I have enough followers who willingly will put away the mines at the sacrifice of their lives. They're doing it just now.// Severus could see the explosions coming nearer. //Then we will crush your 'resistance' with our sheer number.// Voldemort paused for a moment. //If you give up, I'll spare you, Darkling. If you insist on fighting, I'll order my people to catch you alive so that we can torture you for YEARS!// Snape swallowed hard, his heart was fluttering like a caged bird. >Calm down my heart... don't beat so fast Don't be afraid just once in a lifetime< Snape closed his eyes, breathing in deeply, then send a telepathic reply: //What could you possibly do to me that you have not already done?// >You made me doubt, you made me fear but now I'm not the same< //You have no clue, Darkling, I can be very inventive.// Voldemort answered. Lord Voldemort was silent for several minutes, leaving him time to think about his words and to watch the Death Eaters' progress. He could recognise their bodies now, an incredibly high number of wizards slowly crossing the field. A bit apart from the rest at the left side were figures that were a bit taller than humans. Other than the wizards they did not use their wands to lighten the way, because they did not have eyes to see. Dementors. As Dumbledore had prophesied the Dementors had joined Voldemort's forces. Azkaban was no more. //You know what ails me, Darkling?// Voldemort's voice said. //They all say it's so cruel how I sacrifice my peasants to my cause. But is Dumbledore any different? Doesn't he sacrifice YOU for his cause?// Snape bit his lip. //Come back to me, Darkling.// Voldemort whispered seductively. //We were so good together.// To underline his words, he send him telepathic pictures, memories of the time when they had been lovers. A handsome, younger Voldemort bending down to kiss and caress him, he himself writhing in pleasure. Two bodies entwined, skin rubbing on skin. Severus was pulled out of these pictures when a hand touched his shoulder. He shrieked back and turned around, facing Mad Eye Moody. "Are you alright?" the old Auror never missed anything. "Yes," Severus answered. "I'm fine." Then he turned back and send Voldemort a telepathic reply: //You're ridiculous! First you threaten me, then you try to bribe me!// >I don't pretend that I love you 'Cause there is nothing left to loose< To his relief Lord Voldemort broke the telepathic contact for now. Snape turned back to Moody and explained: "I've just been talking to Voldemort. He was trying to bribe me." "What did you answer?" the Auror asked. Snape shrugged. "I declined his offer." Moody murmured something like "I hope so" before turning away. It was a nerve-racking half hour they had to wait until the Death Eaters stopped only thirty feet before their protective shield. Severus watched them testing the shield with the Demonstrare Spell. He smiled contend; it was glowing in a rather dark green. Several of the masked Death Eaters approached and examined the shield for weaknesses. Knowing that the protection would not hold forever, Severus and the others cowered behind smaller rocks. Of course, even rocks could not permanently protect them. About ten Death Eaters summoned themselves together at the same place and pointed their wands to one spot, calling: "Discuto Protectio!" The shield shook violently, but stayed in place. The Death Eaters repeated the spell. The shield shook more violently and lost some of its glow. Severus drew his wand, pointing it at the Death Eaters who were trying to break the shield. He dimly noticed that Moody did the same. The Death Eaters incantated a third time and Severus could watch cracks spreading in the shield before it shattered. "Avada Kedavra!" Snape and Moody called in unison. No one would imprison them for using an unforgivable curse in that situation; and besides, Azkaban was no more. Two Death Eaters were hit by the full impact of the Killing curse and died instantly, three others were brushed by it and sank to the ground; Snape had no idea whether they were dead or only unconscious. Snape and Moody shouted the curse a second time, killing two more Death Eaters and brushing two more. The tenth one raised his wand but was hexed by Miss Granger with an Immobilus Curse. Snape breathed out, but there was more to come. Sheltered by the rocks the fellows let all kind of hexes and curses rain down on everyone who dared to approach them. After a few minutes Voldemort called back the wizards and send in the Dementors. At first, Severus felt cold when he saw the dark figures approaching. Then his mind was drawn back into the past. He was on a graveyard, kneeling on the ground, while about a dozen men took turns on him, raping his behind and his mouth, unbearable pain and fear and disgust... the scenery changed and he saw Sirius, lying on the floor of room 101, broken. Dimly he heard a high-pitched voice scream "Expecto Patronus!", then the pictures and voices faded. Severus opened his eyes and saw a giant silver Teddy Bear chasing the Dementors away. Still shivering, Snape turned to look at Miss Granger. He was not the only one who was surprised about the shape of her Patronus. "A Teddy Bear?" George Weasley called in disbelief. "That's not just any Teddy Bear!" Hermione answered. "That's Mr. Nelson!" "Mr. Nelson???" Fred called. Hermione looked a bit embarrassed. "When I was a small child I was afraid of the monsters under my bed, so Dad gave me Mr. Nelson and said he would protect me from them." Neville was giggling hysterically. He stopped when a Death Eater's curse hit the rock he was hiding behind and broke away a part of it. Baring his teeth, Snape turned around and killed the Death Eater who had dared to attack one of his students. But the dark wizards approached in a higher number now, Snape knew they would not be able to resist them for long. While throwing curses at the attackers, his eyes repeatedly flickered to the sky. How long? Time was running out. Shit, one of the Death Eaters had broken through to their hiding! Snape was about to curse him, when Remus jumped out of his hiding place, with a growl threw himself at the man and ripped out his throat. Severus swallowed and watched the werewolf attacking another Death Eater who had broken through. He was glad that Remus was on their side. All of a sudden, a whizzing sound filled the air. Snape looked up in relief when he saw the sky filling with wizards on broomsticks, throwing down curses on the Death Eaters. One of them cut himself off from the others and flew in a circle above Snape and his fellows, checking if everyone was still alive. "It's about time!" Snape shouted when he recognised Harry Potter. The boy drew off and joined the battle field. While the Death Eaters tried to shoot off the flying wizards and witches - most of them appraised Quidditch players, so they were very fast - about 50 wizards apparated in between them, at first unnoticed; that soon changed when they started attacking the Death Eaters. "NOW!" Moody shouted. Snape jumped out of the hiding and ran to the battle field, knowing that Granger, Longbottom, the Weasleys and Moody did the same. Snape hardly noticed that soon they were joined by the wizards from the continent, most of them were apparating, the Bulgarian Quidditch team was flying in, some used portkeys. He knew the plans so he was aware that a handful of wizards must have joined by now to create Patroni that would help Miss Granger's Teddy Bear to hold back the Dementors. At his right he noticed the bizarre scenario of dancing Veelas and a dozen Death Eaters kneeling down and swearing their never-ending love to them. Amusing as it was, Snape did not have the time to watch them, fighting Death Eaters that dared to step in his way. Remus was always near to him, attacking the enemies with claws and teeth. At some point he heard Remus whimpering, so he turned around. Damn, obviously he had attacked Wormtail, but now Wormtail held his throat with his silver hand and slowly tightened his grip. Pointing his wand at Wormtail, Snape called: "Stupefy!" Wormtail crumbled to the ground. Remus was about to jump at him with bared teeth, but then decided differently and just left Pettigrew lying there. Snape shrugged. Gryffindor to the last, Remus would not kill an unconscious man. "You killed my father!" a voice behind Snape called. Snape turned around and cast a small protective shield in time before Draco Malfoy could curse him. Draco had not returned to school after last year's Easter; his assumption that he had joined Voldemort to avenge his father's death had proven right. Severus was not sorry for killing Lucius Malfoy; he just wished he had done it more slowly. To Draco he said: "Don't be stupid, boy, you don't have a chance to stand against me!" Draco's pretty face was contorted with hatred, when he spat out a curse. Severus had no trouble fighting it off. His problem was that he did not want to kill Draco; in a way it was his fault that he had made the wrong decisions. "Hey, Malfoy!" a voice from above them called. "Potter!" Draco called with almost equal hatred as towards Snape in his voice. "Catch!" Harry called and threw something small at Draco. Draco caught what looked like a miniature firebolt. Looking undecided from Severus to Harry, he finally turned the miniature broom into a real one and jumped on it. Severus watched him starting and following Harry Potter high into the air. Severus left the rivals and proceeded on his search for Lord Voldemort. He passed Minerva, who was fighting with her hair loose, eyes flashing angrily. The older lady actually looked really scary. Snape went straight on, fighting off whoever stepped into his way. Fortunately the Death Eaters who knew him seemed to avoid him. Severus tried to spare the lives of his ex- students if they were stupid enough to attack him. They were still children for him. Finally he reached the spot were Voldemort was, shielded by a dozen Death Eaters who were willing to defend him with their lives. Dumbledore and Madame Maxime were throwing curses at them. Remus Lupin shot forward and sprang at the throat of one of the black wizards. The Death Eaters shrieked back, but were reminded by Voldemort not be scared off by a werewolf. Other than Albus and Madame Maxime, Snape had no scruple using the Killing Curse. Under different circumstances he would have been sentenced to the Dementor's kiss for the number of people he had killed today with an Unforgivable. Three Death Eaters had already fallen, when more (not deadly) curses rained down on them from above. Snape looked up and saw Harry Potter flying in a circle above them; for a moment he actually was worried about Draco Malfoy, he had always been his favourite student, and Harry obviously had won their duel. While the number of wizards joining them in their attack on the living shield grew, the number of Death Eaters surrounding Lord Voldemort thinned out. Severus felt triumphal as they attacked the Dark Lord's guard from all sides; he was sure they were to break through soon. His triumph was weakening when one of the Death Eaters killed Madame Maxime with the Adava Kedavra. Hagrid would wail for years about her loss. Fleur Delacour already knelt down wailing at her side. Damn, they had a war to win, couldn't that stupid girl delay her grief until later? Severus briefly gazed over the field. Mundungus Fletcher and Arabella Figg had joined them, as had several wizards he did not even know. Harry Potter was not the only Quidditch player flying in circles above them; Victor Krum had joined him. Within one minute they had finished off the Death Eaters shielding Voldemort. Fleur Delacour stood up and joined them surrounding Voldemort; she looked quite enraged. The Dark Lord tried to look threatening, but Severus could see that he was not sure whether he could fight off more than a dozen wizards. Raising their wands, they called unison: "Avada Kedavra!" Hit by blinding light from all sides, Voldemort fell to his knees, still alive. "Again!" Dumbledore ordered, and they cursed once more. This time, Voldemort cast a protective shield around himself. "Down!" Snape screamed before throwing himself on the ground. As expected, the curses bounced off and killed about half a dozen wizards, who had not been quick enough to make way. The surviving slowly raised to their feet. "Demonstra Infirmitates!" Dumbledore called, and Voldemort's dome like shield started glowing in a dark green. Harry Potter and Victor Krum landed beside them and dismounted their brooms. All stepped nearer to Voldemort and searched his shield for weak spots. Preferring only Snape to hear his words, Voldemort re- established their telepathic contact: //Severus// he said, //does it really have to end like this? I loved you once... I can love you again.// //You don't even know what love is// Severus replied. //Teach me// Voldemort said. >The love in you, it does not burn There is no lesson you can learn And there are sounds you cannot hear And there are feelings you can't feel< //Useless// Snape send back, //I don't love you, and this time I'm not scared of you.// "Here." he said aloud, when he found a very small spot of a slightly lighter green. The wizards gathered around him and shouted: "Discuto Protectio!" It only shook the first time. They needed about five tries to break the shield. Voldemort shrieked back when his dome shattered. Not wasting any time, they pointed their wands at him, shouting: "Avada Kedavra!" Voldemort was hit by a dozen flashes and fell back. He was quiet for a moment, then he slowly stirred. Damn, he was still alive! At that moment something brown and furry broke their lines and jumped on Voldemort. Severus watched thunderstruck as Remus Lupin sunk his jaws into the Dark Lord's neck and ripped out his throat. A burning pain started throbbing in Snape's left forearm. Gasping, he rolled back the sleeve. The Dark Mark was burning in a bright red light, then slowly faded away. The Mark vanished, only his self-inflicted scars were marring his forearm. Lord Voldemort was dead. The fights all around them stopped when every Death Eaters' Mark burned and faded. Most of them were quick- witted enough to disapparate, some stayed where they were, looking as if it was the end of the world. While the Wizarding World started cheering at their victory, Severus sank to his knees, staring at Voldemort's corpse. This man had abused him, raped him, destroyed his beloved's sanity, in all imaginable ways wrecked his life. Why couldn't he feel triumph at his death? He had been staring at Voldemort's dead body for quite a while when Remus Lupin came over to him and sat down at his side. Severus looked at the werewolf. He looked like sprung out of a Muggle horror movie with his bloody fangs. Nevertheless Snape hugged Remus and cried into his fur. ***Epilogue*** The summer was nearing its end. Dumbledore was determined to restore Hogwarts teaching function; though with a delay of one or two months. They were paying dwarfs to rebuild the castle, and though dwarfs were the best craftsmen on earth, repairing all the damage would take years. Severus was not looking forward to teaching on a building site. Currently, he was sitting with Albus, Minerva, Professor Sprout, Hagrid, Sirius and Remus at a table outside on the grass, because the weather was fine and the Great Hall had not been rebuild yet. Dumbledore thoroughly seemed to enjoy the opportunity for a picnic; they were just waiting for their guests to arrive. Sirius leant over and gazed over Snape's shoulder. "What are you writing?" "A recipe for a potion." Snape answered equally. "What else." Sirius replied. Snape had been working to improve Sirius's potion over the last couple of months; so far he had succeeded to find a recipe that would make Sirius almost normal. For one or two hours. Their guest arrived; the young people had been strolling over the Hogwarts grounds, the place where they had spend most of their childhood. "Ah, sit down, food is ready!" Dumbledore said cheerfully. Severus gazed over the table, thinking that they would be very short of teachers when the new term started. The few sitting here were the only ones who had survived the final battle. Remus Lupin would take over the post of the Defence Against the Dark Arts; no one would object to the werewolf teaching after he had finished Voldemort. Who knows, if Snape found further improvements to the potion Sirius might be able to teach one day. "So, what are you going to study, Miss Granger?" Minerva asked. "Oh, I don't really know." Hermione Granger answered. "I like arithmancy very much, but I also like transformation, and charms, and herbology, and potions... I really don't know what I shall study first!" Her boyfriend Ron Weasley rolled his eyes. As far as Snape knew, he had applied for a job in the Ministry of Magic. Harry Potter of course was going to join the National Quidditch team. Snape's thoughts trailed off to Draco Malfoy. Potter had not killed him, just broken a few bones. Currently he was sitting in the provisionally prison on one of the Orkney Islands, waiting for his process. At least, without the Dementors, it would be a more humane prison. Peter Pettigrew had gone into hiding again. Well, he would not cause much trouble alone. Severus finished writing the recipe and gave the sheet to Neville Longbottom. "Tell the mediwitches at St. Mungos to brew that for your parents. DON'T try brewing it yourself!" "Thank you, Professor." Neville said surprised. The Longbottom boy had survived the battle, though heavily wounded. The scars on the left half of his face would stay, but he took it with surprisingly equal mind. "What are you going to do, Neville?" Professor Sprout asked. Neville shrugged. "Maybe I'll open a shop for herbs in Diagon Alley. What else could I do?" "Why don't you study herbology?" Hermione asked. "Yeah, or I could go and fight boggarts - oh, sorry Professor!" he added hastily when he saw Snape's murderous gaze. Remus smirked at him over the table. "I'm really glad that you have all graduated." Severus said. "But, Harry," Sirius threw in with a smirk. Half an hour after drinking his potion he usually remembered that Harry was NOT James, "you are coming to visit me, don't you?" "As often as I can." Harry answered grinning. Snape theatrically rolled his eyes. "Are you trying to threaten me?" he asked. Actually, he was as close to happiness as never before. Life could be better; but it had been much worse in the past. *** The End of Devil's Pet