Disclaimer: They all belong to JK Rowling, I just borrowed them. They certainly will be glad when I bring them back, because I'm a very sick person
Pairing: SS/LM, also to a smaller extent SS/SB
Rating: NC-17 (overall)
Thanks to hainuwele for beta-reading
Warnings: BDSM, auto-aggression, Discussion of Child Abuse
Category: Darkfic, Drama/Angst, lightened up with a healthy amount of Humour
Summary: Snape's time at university, when he meets Lucius Malfoy, Lord Voldemort and other nice fellows

Highway to Hell - Part X: Narcissa's secret
By Ratwoman
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>>Her skin is like velvet
Her face cut from stone
Her eyes when she's smiling
Will never reach home.<<
Aha, Velvet

At breakfast, Severus realised how much Malfoy Manor had grown to be a second home for him. Everything seemed familiar, from the furniture to Narcissa's quiet sarcasm. Actually, her sense of humour was not too different from his own, one just needed to keep in mind not to take her gibes personally.
"You seem to have difficulties with sitting today, Severus," she said smirking, "I hope you're not seriously ill."
True, his backside hurt when he sat down, that was why he had finally decided to eat standing up. "No, but I think your husband is sick." Severus replied. Lucius just raised an eye-brow at him.
"Merlin, what did he do?" Narcissa asked, her eyes sparkling.
Severus blushed. He was sure, Narcissa did not really want to know what they had done, just asked to embarrass him. "Nothing I didn't enjoy." Severus answered evasively.
Narcissa was silent for a moment, then suddenly changed the topic: "Lucius told me you're good at Potions?"
"It's my major." Severus replied. "What do you need?"
"Well, I tried everything." Narcissa said, then recounted the names of several potions, all of which were for the purpose of enhancing fruitility. "What more can I try?" she asked after finishing the list.
All the Potions she had mentioned were to enhance only womens' fertility, so Severus said: "I know I good Potion to improve a man's sperm."
Lucius frowned. "I don't need that, you know."
Severus rolled his eyes. "You're incredible in bed, but your sperm could still be sterile. I need a sample to find out, then I can make you a Potion that will kind of repair your sperm."
Lucius looked disgusted and shook his head.
"Some of your sperm in a little bottle should be enough to find out." Severus said patiently. Lucius stared stubbornly into another direction, until Narcissa said softly: "Please, Lucius, I don't want to have to sleep with you once a month anymore."
Severus was quite shocked at her direct words, and Lucius stared at her for a moment with a hurt look on his face. Then he stood up and left the room.
"He'll be reasonable now." Narcissa said.
"You know what I don't understand, Narcissa," Severus said carefully, "What's so bad about sleeping with Lucius?"
Narcissa looked searchingly at Severus. "What was your first sexual encounter like?"
Severus shrugged. "I don't remember. I was drunk."
Narcissa smiled her small, mocking smile. "I suppose it could be worse." Then she rose to her feet and faced Severus, looking determined: "I'm going to tell you something that so far only my parents, my sisters and Lucius know. If you tell anyone, I'll tie you up, slash your stomach and feed you with your own guts."
"OK," Severus said. The scary thing was that he knew that Narcissa was perfectly serious.
Narcissa went towards the window and looked out. After a few minutes she started talking. "I was a very curious girl when I was seven years old. I wanted to see the world, and most of all I was very curious about Muggles, because my parents always told me they were bad. If only I had listened...
"One day, on a visit to some London relatives, I just ran away in a moment when no one looked. I only wanted to see Muggle London, because all I had ever seen of London was the house of my aunt. Actually, I had hardly been in contact with Muggles before.
"It was exciting at first. The streets were full of cars, the pavements crowded with Muggles of all ages... After a while I got into a less frequented part of the city, but I did not worry. A man stopped with his car next to me and asked whether I had lost my way. I said no, I was just taking a look at London. He then asked me whether I wanted to take a ride in his car and he'd show me all the interesting parts of London."
Severus leaned against the wall, hoping for Narcissa's sake the story would not turn out the way he expected by now.
"I had never before been in a car, and I found it so exciting... I hardly looked where he was driving, did not notice that the streets got more and more shabby and empty. He stopped in a side alley and told me to get out. I was scared and tried to run away, but he grabbed me and carried me into a building."
Narcissa's voice got shaky. "He tied and gagged me, then called another man with a tefelon. They..." Narcissa took a deep breath, then said in a voice as if she was trying hard not to cry "One of them... raped me... the other made pictures of it with an apparatus, so they could sell it to other Muggle perverts who wanted to see that."
Severus closed his eyes. His heart was pounding in anger. "How did you get out?"
"My parents found me, I don't know how much time had passed. They killed the Muggles, burned the pictures." Narcissa's voice was a bit steadier.
"I'm sorry." Severus said.
Narcissa turned and looked at him. She did not look quite as composed as usually. "I love Lucius, but..."
Severus nodded his head. "I understand."
Narcissa smiled at him. "And I begin to understand why Lucius loves you so much."
Severus shook his head. "He does not love me, he just..."
Narcissa laughed mockingly then said: "Of course he loves you. I'm his wife, I know him. Usually he changes boyfriends within a week, but how long has he now been with you? Three months?"
That would explain why Lucius had been so jealous of Black.
***
Severus added some drops of a carefully mixed Potion to Lucius's sperm sample and waited. If Lucius was fertile, it should start smoking, but nothing happened. There was no doubt, Lucius was sterile. Severus sighed. How on earth was he supposed to tell Lucius?
Severus knew a Potion that would repair Lucius's sperm, but he knew it would be a hard hit to Lucius's pride.
Severus glanced at the list he had received today via owl post from the Dark Lord.
"Dear Severus,
I need the following Potions:
Veritaserum
Dreadful Night
Doloris Vacatia
Mors Tristitiae
Vinculmentis
Yours, V"

Half of it were Dark Potions, Mors Tristiae was even a deadly Poison. A quite nasty Poison: it threw the victim into a depression so deep that he would not even find the energy to eat and drink and call for help so that he would die of thirst within a couple of days. Dreadful Night created nightmares, Vinculmentis made the victim docile, Veritaserum and Doloris Vacatia were not Dark Potions, but dangerous enough that the Ministry put restrictions on its supply.
In all cases it would be difficult to get the ingredients, but Severus liked a challenge. The Potion he was going to make for Lucius and Narcissa was easy in comparison.
By the way, he did not have a chance yet to tell Black to leave him at peace once and for all, because since the... incident, Black even avoided looking at him. Severus was oddly disappointed. Not only that he did not have a reason to hex Black into next week (maybe he should do so just for fun?), also because he had secretly enjoyed being stalked by Black. It had made him feel desired, not just by Lucius... not that Lucius was not enough, but... Funny, how he suddenly missed that Gryffindork's attention.
***
Lucius took it surprisingly well, when Severus brought him the Potion and told him how and when to take it. That means, he sulked for the rest of the week, but promised that he would do as Severus had told him. Very well.
***
A few days later Severus was called to Lord Voldemort. He felt a tugging sensation in his Dark Mark, which signalled to Apparate at the Lord's lair immediately.
Voldemort was sitting in an armchair talking to a rat when Severus Apparated. His familiar? No, the Lord's familiar was a snake called Nagini.
"Do as I told you, Wormtail!" Voldemort said with a threatening undertone in his voice, and the little rat scurried off.
Lord Voldemort smiled in a friendly manner at Severus and asked: "How do you proceed with the list of Potions I gave you?"
"Except for Veritaserum, I should have finished them within two weeks." Severus said. "Veritaserum takes four weeks."
"Splendid," Voldemort said. "That will do."
"My Lord," Severus said hesitatingly, "may I ask you a question?"
"Of course," the Lord said, smiling.
"What are the Potions for?"
If the question irritated him, the Lord didn't show it. "Oh, several things, this and that... You may take your leave now, Severus."
***
Severus found out that his Potion for Lucius had been working, when one morning green flames burst in the fireplace and Narcissa stepped out.
"Narcissa?" Severus asked with surprise, because she had never before been to their flat. He was even more surprised when Narcissa flung herself around his neck. She usually was not so keen on showing emotions.
"Severus!" she called out, "I'm pregnant!"
"Oh," Severus said, smiling, "Congratulations!"
She took a step back, positively beaming at him: "Is Lucius in?"
Severus shrugged, "In his room I suppose."
Narcissa ran to his room light-footedly. A few minutes later Severus heard Lucius shout in joy.
Severus grinned to himself. It was a good feeling to be useful for once in his life.
***
TBC
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